I am new here...I have been reading the boards over the past few weeks but finally decided to actually post something. You ladies seem like a really great bunch of women, incredibly kind and supportive and I know that I am lucky to have found you.
I found out I lost my baby on 5/18 when I was just about 11 weeks pregnant. This was after having 2 ultrasounds with perfect growth and a strong heartbeat each time. I had my first D&C on 5/20 and I guess my body didn't do what is was supposed to do (I didn't bleed enough afterwards) so I underwent my seoncd D&C yesterday. As if I haven't been through enough emotional pain and torture. This weekend I would have been over the 12 week mark and we had these big plans to tell our families that we were expecting and here I am bleeding from my second D&C with no baby inside of me.
I have never felt such pain and sadness in all of my life. I am angry at things that wouldn't normally bother me. I cry at things that wouldn't normally make me cry. Although my husband has been extremely supportive it is hard to watch him walk around and living life as if nothing has happened, it's just his way of coping but I find it hurtful because I am so sad inside.
I have never felt so alone in all of my life so I felt like I just needed to share this with you. Thank you for listening.