BFF is pg...

halsgal

And it was totally unexpected. 

I am SO totally happy for her, but I know that if I wasn't pg myself I wouldn't be, which makes me feel like a horrible person.

On top of that, althought I AM so happy for her, I still have this feeling like I just want to cry. Which makes me feel even more like a horrible person.

 Maybe it's b/c that it just comes so easily for some and I'm jealous of that? WTH is wrong with me??

SaraBobby

Your not a horrible person! It's just your pregnancy hormones swirling around in full force!

MrsGhappilyeverafter

That's completely understandable.  I don't think any of us will ever look at getting pregnant the same way again because of what we've been through.  It's totally normal for you to feel that way.  I would feel that way too.

dmsmth

Nothing is wrong with you.  I still feel that way sometimes too.

PS: I can't believe you are 23 weeks all ready!!!!

halsgal

23 weeks... I know! It's so surreal still. And I know it's morbid, but I still think, what if something TERRIBLE happens and then she's still pg and I'm not... will we still be able to be friends?

That sounds so crazy to me but it's how I'm feeling at the moment

 I guess I'm kinda bummed too b/c she emailed me at work when she found out last night. She could have and should have called me!

AussieAbbie

MrsGhappilyeverafter:

That's completely understandable.  I don't think any of us will ever look at getting pregnant the same way again because of what we've been through.  It's totally normal for you to feel that way.  I would feel that way too.

::Ditto to this::

mh2t

It seems like this is a totally normal thing to feel if you've had an m/c.  I've definitely felt it and I see posts about it here all the time.  You're not horrible.  It just makes you remember your loss.

ILoveErich

Before I even clicked on this post, I imagined how I would feel... and you've described it perfectly. Totally understandable!

mrs.ataylor

I don't think your horrible either, I think its just realistic feelings.....I was not happy at all when I found out my SIL was preggo.....we had just experienced our 2nd m/c on Thanksgiving and she  was bubbling with happiness by Christmas.  I had to be honest with what I felt considering.....but then we had our positive by January.....