I realize I have a lot of anger regarding having a child with special needs. I love Marley fiercely but I am so bitter. Mostly I am angry at the doctors for not being clear with me when first when I had my 18 week fetal survey that indicated there were problems and then throughout my pregnancy when it became even more evident that something wasn't right. I blame myself for not asking the right questions and I resent all my friends and family that tried to reassure me that everything would be okay.
I know I have a long road ahead of me but it feels really cathartic to be able to express my anger and have a safe place to cry.
I don't want to be angry because it just elevates my depression and anxiety. I have felt so out control with my emotions for the last 2 1/2 years and it's not good for me and most especially, for Marley.?
Re: Started seeing a therapist
Good for you, sweetie! This can only be a good thing for you and especially for Marley!
The next time we see the social worker from the regional center (next week I think) I am going to ask if they have resources for parents. I really need to talk to someone about my anxiety! I think a lot of us need help with processing everything that has happened with our little ones.
That sounds really good for you! I hope they're great!
When you posted its been 2 1/2 years, I had to look at your ticker I think its kind of crazy though that your ticker says Marley is already 1 yr 3 mos. I am used to reading your posts on here since the beginning of the SN board. That's a long time dealing with these feelings - so I hope it helps you a lot!!!
Good for you. I also think that this will be geat for you and Marley. I too on several occasions have thought about seeing a therapist, more for anxiety than anger or depression. I have such fear that Cash got his condition from me...I fear taking any medications in case it would effect me and cause me to stop breathing. I have episodes usually every three months and like nanakwaz have thought about asking for services or resources for parents with special needs.
I am very proud of you and I love Marley's new siggy, she is so stinking cute!!!
Hence if anyone read's this I have been a little lost lately and haven't been on my blog or the boards, I just needed a break from it all. Glad I picked today to come back around!