* it really bothered me that neither BIL or SIL said anything to their kids when they stuck their fingers in hadley's face all day. i don't like having to discipline other people's kids, but i totally had to do it today and it bugged me.
* i am feeling the wine and i've only had 1/3 of a glass.
* as much as i love the necklace that mr. soup got me, i don't see myself wearing it much. hadley already almost broke it/choked me today each time she grabbed it. the kid won't grab her toys but loves to grab my hair or anything around my neck. maybe i'll wear a necklace of her toys.
*my oldest friend who is dealing w/ IF didn't call me or email today. ?she got mad at me recently for getting her a yoga for fertility dvd (yelled at me for 10 minutes straight on the phone). ?I'm afraid that because I have a baby now we can't be friends until her adoption goes through. ?she is just so raw and sensitive about everything. ?it sucks.
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* If my younger sister gets pregnant I think my head will explode. She has known this guy for a WEEK that she met from myspace and is now trying to get pg. She has major problems and could not possible care for a child, I would be seriously concerned for baby's welfare if she was allowed to have custody if she does get pg. There's a lot to the story but the whole situation is a mess and I think (I know) it has contributed majorly to the above-mentioned confession.
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ok here is my big one. let me preface this with that i am extremely happy for my sil as they are just starting there first ivf cycle here is my qualm dh's parents are paying for it, which i don't see a problem with except, here it is, my bil doesn't work, they have 4 nice cars, 2 jet skis, a motocycle, a motor home and now they are looking for a new larger house. yet they can't afford to pay for the ivf, oh and they are always spending money, for instanc sil spent $60 on 3 bottles of hair stuff and was saying how she wants to try waxing her legs this summer, and was showing me all the new clothes she bought
it just pisses me off that they are always saying they have no money, yet dh and i need a new roof, new well, new car for me (mine is 15years old, granted it was really nice when i got it in high school) and we live a very basic lifestyle but we made that sacrifice to have baby T
please don't think i am heartless i just needed to get that out
I secretly believe that if I had enough time with SIL's kids I could get them to actually behave themselves - probably not but I truly think this everytime I see them..
*I think there are too many people around that think it's perfectly OK to be rude and unkind to others if they feel they were wronged. Even if you were wronged, I don't believe that it's not ever OK to be rude and unkind. It really is bothering me lately and I'm getting ready to call some people out on it.
*More than being pretty or funny or cute or smart, I want Allison to be a kind, loving person. I'd like it if she's pretty, cute, funny, smart AND kind and loving, but I'll settle for just kind and loving!
*I cried really hard about Allison eating solids today. I don't know why it makes me so sad, but it does.
*I secretly believe that Allison will be the only child I'll have. I have no reason to believe this (no IF issues or anything), but I don't think I'll be able to get pg again.
*I think my niece is going to be a serious brat when she gets older. She definitely rules that roost!
Re: evening confessions:
i have one too!
* it really bothered me that neither BIL or SIL said anything to their kids when they stuck their fingers in hadley's face all day. i don't like having to discipline other people's kids, but i totally had to do it today and it bugged me.
* i am feeling the wine and i've only had 1/3 of a glass.
* as much as i love the necklace that mr. soup got me, i don't see myself wearing it much. hadley already almost broke it/choked me today each time she grabbed it. the kid won't grab her toys but loves to grab my hair or anything around my neck. maybe i'll wear a necklace of her toys.
* i don't want to work anymore.
*my oldest friend who is dealing w/ IF didn't call me or email today. ?she got mad at me recently for getting her a yoga for fertility dvd (yelled at me for 10 minutes straight on the phone). ?I'm afraid that because I have a baby now we can't be friends until her adoption goes through. ?she is just so raw and sensitive about everything. ?it sucks.
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* I feel like I am getting depressed.
* If my younger sister gets pregnant I think my head will explode. She has known this guy for a WEEK that she met from myspace and is now trying to get pg. She has major problems and could not possible care for a child, I would be seriously concerned for baby's welfare if she was allowed to have custody if she does get pg. There's a lot to the story but the whole situation is a mess and I think (I know) it has contributed majorly to the above-mentioned confession.
me too, and i have only been back for a week
ok here is my big one. let me preface this with that i am extremely happy for my sil as they are just starting there first ivf cycle here is my qualm dh's parents are paying for it, which i don't see a problem with except, here it is, my bil doesn't work, they have 4 nice cars, 2 jet skis, a motocycle, a motor home and now they are looking for a new larger house. yet they can't afford to pay for the ivf, oh and they are always spending money, for instanc sil spent $60 on 3 bottles of hair stuff and was saying how she wants to try waxing her legs this summer, and was showing me all the new clothes she bought
it just pisses me off that they are always saying they have no money, yet dh and i need a new roof, new well, new car for me (mine is 15years old, granted it was really nice when i got it in high school) and we live a very basic lifestyle but we made that sacrifice to have baby T
please don't think i am heartless i just needed to get that out
Today I packed up all the new summer clothes I had bought and washed some of my maternity stuff to use instead...I cried while doing it.
I have a calendar obsession, I have a bunch of them that I have made counting down to different things. It may have gotten to the point of unhealthy
I am so excited about seeing my brother in a couple weeks, it really doesnt seem like it's been six months since we last saw him.
Indy loves Bear In the Big Blue House, so much in fact that it has become part of our routine and I feel like such a turd because of it
*I think there are too many people around that think it's perfectly OK to be rude and unkind to others if they feel they were wronged. Even if you were wronged, I don't believe that it's not ever OK to be rude and unkind. It really is bothering me lately and I'm getting ready to call some people out on it.
*More than being pretty or funny or cute or smart, I want Allison to be a kind, loving person. I'd like it if she's pretty, cute, funny, smart AND kind and loving, but I'll settle for just kind and loving!
*I cried really hard about Allison eating solids today. I don't know why it makes me so sad, but it does.
*I secretly believe that Allison will be the only child I'll have. I have no reason to believe this (no IF issues or anything), but I don't think I'll be able to get pg again.
*I think my niece is going to be a serious brat when she gets older. She definitely rules that roost!