Wednesday is the 1-year anniversary of my m/c EDD...and my niece's 1st birthday. It REALLY sucked last year that my niece was born on my EDD. I love Allison and I am so happy, but every time I am around my niece I think about the baby we lost. Most of the time I am able to disassociate the two, but this birthday party is going to be hard. I thought these kinds of feelings would get better once I had a baby in my arms. Will this be something that I struggle with for the rest of my life?
Re: Wednesday :/
i know how hard those anniversaries are. we're going to philly in june to celebrate my nephew's first birthday (he was due on my m/c EDD but born the day after). every time i think of him, i think about the baby we lost as well and it's hard to imagine i'd have a baby who is almost 1 instead of 3 months old now. big hugs.
I struggle with very similar issues at work - two women had their babies within a week of my due date of March '08. Their little girls (one of which has one of my top baby names) still hold such difficult associations for me. At my last job, a woman had her baby on my first due date - I saw her the other day (daughter is now 2) and I found myself just giving her the evil eye.?
I guess I still have some issues to work out, but I wanted you to know that I know what you're going through, and I sure hope it isn't a struggle forever.
(((hugs)))?