We miss our daughter :(

517butterfly

DH & I had a good cry over missing Mia last night.  I realized that she would be a month old on Tuesday and I was thinking about all of the milestones she would be reaching.  And we were wondering where she is and how she is doing.  It's just so hard!  I don't know how you ladies in foster care do it with having LO in your care and then having to see them leave.  I am definitely in awe of your strength.  I am definitely not in a place where I could do it.

DH was talking about how he hopes we get a match soon but I told him that honestly I have moments where I want to give up on the whole kid thing and take up traveling.  But of course I know that I could never do it.  But I just don't know how to work through all of these emotions.  I miss her so much!

CaptainSerious

I'm so sorry you are dealing with such difficult emotions.  I wish I could make it easier for you.  I wish you strength, healing, peace, and better luck throughout the rest of your process!

Honeydew1894

((hugs))

MayDayGirl

Oh Jamee, I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you.  No parent should ever have their child taken away... (even though I know that she was the bmom's child to start with).  I am so sorry.

PSU-NCBride

I feel for you, too. I honestly have those days also when I'm ready to throw in the towel and travel. I start adding up how many great trips I could go on if we didn't adopt, and during those difficult days it is very tempting. You'll know when you are emotionally ready. Everyone is different. We took about a month off because I just needed breathing room and time for normal life without adoption chaos. I knew when I was ready to really go at it again, because it is exhausting.

TTCgradstud

Butterfly, you just said exactly what I've been feeling the last few days although you actually her with you while we only visited in the hospital.  I'm sorry you are having to deal with this and I wish I could make it better! 

amazingkel

i completely understand how you are feeling!! We are foster parents and our current DC is our fifth placement. we have cared for him since he was 9 mo old, and he is 26 months old now. There is a slight chance we will not get to adopt him and I honestly do notknow what we will do if this occurs. It was hard to lose each and every one of them, but trust me when I say it WILL Get easier. Especially when they place a LO in your home. Keep us posted and GL!