A little sad today...

jnewman616

Ok, this is my first post but I could really use someone to talk to.  Ive read hundreds of posts in the last several months and thought I would try it.  I was married last May to a wonderful man.  We went off BC in June.  In October we found out we were pregnant.  We were ecstatic!  We went to the first ultrasound and found out that I had a missed AB.  Devastating.  I had a D & C on friday, started a new job on Monday(wonderful distraction).  Several weeks later I got what I thought was my period.  Turns out it was missed POC.  I spent 8 weeks after my initial D & C until my body was able to pass everything on my own.  It was such an emotionally draining thing.  To lose the baby was awful, but to have it drawn out over so many weeks was near impossible at points.  Every week I called to get my latest quant and it remained high for 8 solid weeks.  Finally we were cleared in the begining of Jan to try again.  I am due for my period yesterday.  Its not here but I took a test (too hopeful) and got a negative.  I feel worse today than I have since I found out we lost the baby.  I have no reason.  We have only been trying for a few short months again but I am kind of a wreck today.  Crying for no reason.  When I initially got pregnant there was this baby boom around me.  There were 8 of us pregnant at one point.  They are now planning showers and growing and I can't even be around them.  I feel awful and I am happy for them, its just difficult.  I thought hopefully that we would be pregnant by the time my due date came around and everyone else was delivering.  I thought that would bring some comfort.  I don't know...I just need to get through today.  I guess its time to get in my pj's and hope tomorrow is better!

Alex17

I'm sorry for your loss.

Also, paragraphs are your friend.

Tim'sWifey

Alex17:

I'm sorry for your loss.

Also, paragraphs are your friend.

This. ??

buckin

1) I'm very sorry for your loss

2) That was a little hard to read written the way it was so I'm not sure if there is a question here or what.

3) You may not actually be late depending on when you ovulated. There are several girls on here who have experienced losses such as this and I'm sure they would be able to give more helpful thoughts on what you are experiencing but from someone who has been TTCing for 2 years and watched others get pregnant and have children since that time I can understand a TAD bit what you are feeling.

It can be rough, but hang in there. You will have the baby you are meant to have and you will experience GREAT JOY with him/her. GL to you.

jnewman616

Thanks for replying.  I am sorry that came out in one long mess, I feel as though I have been holding it in for days and once I started typing it felt good.  My husband has been there for me more than I could have ever imagined.  Sometimes it is nice to have a fresh set of ears.  Someone who is experiencing some of the same emotions I am dealing with.

Can we blame this day on PMS?  Maybe?

Alex17

It's ok to feel sad.  I'm glad your DH is so supportive.

hang in there!

buckin

jnewman616:

Thanks for replying.  I am sorry that came out in one long mess, I feel as though I have been holding it in for days and once I started typing it felt good.  My husband has been there for me more than I could have ever imagined.  Sometimes it is nice to have a fresh set of ears.  Someone who is experiencing some of the same emotions I am dealing with.

Can we blame this day on PMS?  Maybe?

You blame it on whatever you need to...then eat a pint of your favorite icecream

WinsyWade

buckin:

jnewman616:

Thanks for replying.  I am sorry that came out in one long mess, I feel as though I have been holding it in for days and once I started typing it felt good.  My husband has been there for me more than I could have ever imagined.  Sometimes it is nice to have a fresh set of ears.  Someone who is experiencing some of the same emotions I am dealing with.

Can we blame this day on PMS?  Maybe?

You blame it on whatever you need to...then eat a pint of your favorite icecream

I agree with the ice cream   After my loss, which was a natural m/c but unexpected, Rocky mountian chocolate factory and some retail therapy with my BFF were the things that really got me through it. 

It was really rough as I'm sure you are feeling.  It's ok to feel upset for no reason, cry at the drop of a hat, and need to snuggle up with your hubby and let it all out. 

Good luck in your coming cycles!  I hope you are KTFU soon!   

MsNessa

I'm so sorry.  I haven't experienced what you're going through, but I know how much it helps to just get everything out.  Vent away and I hope tomorrow is an easier day for you!