My Sunday Confession: I know I shouldn't feel this way but... (long)

jnealet

Backstory:  My cousin's wife and I were pregnant at the same time, she was due about a week after me.  Two weeks ago, my cousin texted me and told me that they were going to induce his wife the day before my due date and kind of turned it into a little competition on his end on who would have their baby first.  I didn't play into his game but it annoyed me.  So his wife ended up going into labor and having the baby on Thursday.  And he's a very cute little boy and I'm estatic for my cousin.

Well, my mom called yesterday to tell me "the plan" for Monday, since I'm having a c-section.  In the process of the conversation, she updated me on cousin's baby since she had just talked to her sister, cousin's mom.  Geographically, my aunt lives in PA, I live in MD and cousin lives in VA. My aunt's plan is to come down to MD on Tuesday or Wednesday, visit with my grandmother, stop by and see baby and me in the hospital and then on Friday, drive down to VA to see her new grandchild.

Now the last piece of this story is that my grandmother is on hospice and everyone is expecting her to pass away after the second baby, my baby,  is born.  Most of the family thinks she's just hanging on to see her new great grandchildren. 

So I know that my aunt is coming to see my grandmother more then me and I just happen to be geographically close.  But just because my cousin made the whole birth thing into a competition, I feel like I one-upped him because his mom is going to see my baby before his.

I know its bad to feel this way and I would never tell anyone IRL but I had to get if off my chest.

And please everyone pray that my grandmother lives until I get out of the hospital, so they can truely meet.  We're naming our baby after her and I just want to get one picture of the two Emilys.

kimmie321

You grandmother and you are in my prayers. Good luck with the c-section tomorrow. I can't wait to see her pic! 

CaseBride

I'm sorry you have to go through the family drama.

You and your g-gma are in my prayers!