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All these BFP make me sad. :(

Around September 2007 we decided to start TTC #2.  6 months later and nothing.  I took a great new job and decided to put TTC on hold for at least 6 months.  7 months later, just when everything was going so well, I got laid off.  It was over a year after we had originally decided we wanted to start trying for that second child.  I know we weren't actually TTC for that long, but I still feel like I was cheated.  I should have been holding a baby in my arms at that point.

Well, then without a job, it didn't make sense to start TTC again.  First of all, how would we afford a second baby when we were using our savings account to pay bills?  Would I be able to find the type of job I wanted while I was pg?

I start my new job on Monday.  It's such a great career opportunity.  It's exactly what I want to be doing.

But I still want that baby.  I hate that it's been 1 1/2 years of wanting that baby.

This new job takes a good 2 years of hard work (50-55 hours weeks) before I will be 100% trained and confident.  I can't exactly get pg and go on maternity leave during this time.

So now I have to wait 2 more years to even start TTC again?  This sucks.  If I got pg 2 years from today, Annalise would be almost 6 years old when the baby was born.  I don't want a large age gap between my kids.  I wanted them to be 2-3 years apart.

I can relate to all those dealing with infertility.  Even though we haven't been trying for over a year, I've wanted to be trying for that long.  It's hard to hear about everyone else who is pg when I want so much to be pg, but it just doesn't make sense right now.

Annalise Marie 05.29.06
Charlotte Ella 07.16.10
Emmeline Grace 03.27.13

Re: All these BFP make me sad. :(

  • Aw, sorry!  I can't imagine how hard that is.

    But, FWIW, my brother and I are 8yrs apart (I'm older) and we have always been very very close.

  • I would TTC. You can work away just fine while PG and then just take the minimal maternity  leave. It shouldn't affect your career.

    Go for it, I say!!

    Good luck!

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  • Oh and there are 6 years between my brother and sister...they were always really close. But TTC now anyway! Big Smile
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    I would TTC. You can work away just fine while PG and then just take the minimal maternity  leave. It shouldn't affect your career.

    I really wish that was the case.  This is a career that I have to really dedicate myself to 100% in order to do well.  My position is technical support specialist.  I will be doing pacemaker/defibrillator checks and will be working along side the physician in the operating room during device implants.  I can't be distracted with being pg while I'm in these cases.  If a patient died on the table because I wasn't completely focused...  I figure once I'm really comfortable with the position, I should be able to balance it better, but from what everyone tells me, that's close to the 2 year point.

    Thanks to both of you for telling me about good relationships with siblings that have a large age gap.  That does make me feel a little better.

    Annalise Marie 05.29.06
    Charlotte Ella 07.16.10
    Emmeline Grace 03.27.13
  • Honestly, and I'm really NOT being snarky, you can't compare this with infertility.  It's one thing to be actively trying for over a year and be met with your period every month and not physically be able to get pregnant and a whole other thing to just not be at a good place in life to TTC. 

    Kill all my demons and my angels might die too. -Tennessee Williams

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  • I am sorry you are feeling that way. I can kind of relate to your post because I was feeling sad seeing all the BFP's all last year, but I was going through secondary infertility not because I was not in a position not to TTC.
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    Honestly, and I'm really NOT being snarky, you can't compare this with infertility.  It's one thing to be actively trying for over a year and be met with your period every month and not physically be able to get pregnant and a whole other thing to just not be at a good place in life to TTC. 

    I do understand that it's different.  I just meant I understand what it's like to feel sad every time you get your period.  Yes, I'm sure the level of sadness is much different.  FWIW, there were about 6 months in there that we were not TTC and not TTA.  Each of those months I was hopeful that I would have gotten pg.  Of course, I have no luck.

    Annalise Marie 05.29.06
    Charlotte Ella 07.16.10
    Emmeline Grace 03.27.13
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    imageBubblyToes:

    Honestly, and I'm really NOT being snarky, you can't compare this with infertility.  It's one thing to be actively trying for over a year and be met with your period every month and not physically be able to get pregnant and a whole other thing to just not be at a good place in life to TTC. 

    I do understand that it's different.  I just meant I understand what it's like to feel sad every time you get your period.  Yes, I'm sure the level of sadness is much different.  FWIW, there were about 6 months in there that we were not TTC and not TTA.  Each of those months I was hopeful that I would have gotten pg.  Of course, I have no luck.

    It sucks.  There's no way around it.  When you want something really bad, whatever it is, and you can't get it/have it, it sucks. 

    I do get what you're saying.  Totally.  It shouldn't be this hard.

    Congrats on the job though.  That's great.

    Kill all my demons and my angels might die too. -Tennessee Williams

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    You take my ovaries, I take your yarns.
  • I am amazed at your patience.  I think at some point I would have just "Eff it...we are going for it."


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    Congrats on your new job! It sounds great, and that it will really benefit your family in the long run.

    I am 6 years older than my brother, and we are very close. My mom spread us out so that she could have babies longer Big Smile

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  • ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))) me, too.
  • I'm sorry ...

    FWIW, if it were me I'd just go for it and worry about the details later.

  • I'm sorry, while I'm not in your exact position we too are putting TTC #2 on hold because of money/job issues. I think our kids will be about 5yrs apart too...sucks.

    ((HUGS))

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