Your obsession reminded me of something. Before J and I got married, I had the best Bachlorette party(s). I had such a great time and wanted to invite the male strippers to my wedding. I'm lucky that my DH is totally cool and wanted to send me off to see them with my friends after I had B but by then I was over the "high"
That's how you sound.
I know maybe this thing made you feel young again and free, but honey, we are adults and while you can still have fun and feel young, you have a family to consider. Its not just you.