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Tricia107

not trying to pry into your personal life but i read your FFFC and I was wondering if you had a previous ED?

I had an ED when i was 18-19 and have been doing real good for the past 6 years but since I had DD I find myself struggeling with it again. 

You dont have to answer if you dont want to i know its kinda personal question. 

Tricia107

I dated a guy from 14-18 and he was mentally abusive to me, he always told me that if i ever left him I would be single my whole life because i was to ugly and fat that another man would want nothing to do with me. he was real controling ( i wasnt alowed to hang out with my friends because 2 or more girls alone together look like whores on the loose)

So when I left him my senior year in HS I started starving myself to lose weight, I would seriously eat like 3 grahm crackers a day and dropped down below 100 lbs and thought i looked great. my family disowned me because the thought I was on crack or some type of drug. 

When I met DH he flat out told me he wouldnt be with me unless I ate like i should and gained some weight back. He was my motivation to get my eating right. but now were having relationship problems and i find myself only eating when hes home and I really dont want to fall down that path again. 

 

IT dose help to talk about it, if you ever want to talk i can give you my email or my msn messenger/yahooo messenger