1) Sunny skies after a week of cold rain 2) The Universe always sending me positive messages 🌈 💗☀️ 3) The gorgeous bright moon the last few nights 🌙 4) DH being an absolute trooper through chemo❤️❤️❤️ 5) Support of family & friends 6) Access to top-notch medical care 7) Our amazing & helpful doctors 8) Being alive in the 21st century 9) The power of positivity 10) All the privileges of living in America
oh @keikilove i can feel a bit of your current situ through your list. biggest, warmest hugs and best vibes for an awesome, sustained chemo response. I'll give an amen to #s 5-10.
1) awesome students who nod enthusiastically through lecture and ask great questions
2) incoming storm with lots of heavy rain in the forecast. our west coast needs it so badly (flipside to keiki's #1. maybe we're getting your rain now)
3) the dog, who is all about appreciating the simple things in life
4) running miles, even when they're clunky and slow
5) hot black coffee first thing in the morning
6) this house that my grandmother built and all the things she did to make it beautiful
7) (adding on to keiki's list) medical discoveries and all the people in labs discovering new and better treatments
8) my trusty bike, ferrying me to and from class. especially the low gear that gets me up the long hill
9) good friends
10) the last of the garden's tomato bounty still sitting on my counter, ready to turn into a flavorful sauce
History
I am doing this on my own. Left ovary and fallopian tube removed due to cyst/necrosis just after birth. Right ovary and tube still purport to function.
Began TTC in Aug '18 @ age 35
5 or 6 (or 7?!) cycles using frozen donor sperm, ICI. All BFN
Mar-Jun '19 IUIs, all BFN
Began process of referral for RE in spring of '19, blood tests confirm low AMH (.54) but all else is good.
May '19 HSG shows open tube, but ultrasound suggests fibroids
MRI in June '19 confirms two large fibroids, one growing through wall of uterus
In June '19 I move from California to Oregon, disrupting my insurance, referrals, etc. 5 months spent piecing it all back together.
Nov. '19 attempted myomectomy (vaginal approach) failed. 2nd surgery using laparoscopic method in Jan '20 is successful.
April '20 --> June '20, natural IUIs, all BFN.
July? saline ultrasound and bubble test demonstrate open tube
July '20 clomid cycle cancelled for thin lining
Aug-Oct, 3 femara cycles, all BFN
RE referral. While waiting to set up an appointment Nov-Jan,I continue with natural cycles and ICI, using a known donor, BFN...
Jan '21 more bloodwork, AMH is worse (.30), FSH high albeit not catastrophic at 13.2. hysteroscopy all good. "looks cozy!" says the RE.
Feb '21, injectables (menopur, novarel), iui, BFN (doc said the frozen donor sperm sample had the "best numbers she'd ever seen!")
Mar '21, injectables, iui cancelled due to lack of follicles, converted to at home-insem. BFN
May '21, first IVF round cancelled due to cyst.
July '21 IVF: standard antagonist. 225menupur/225gonal-f/cetrotide/5000u trigger, AFC 7; 6 days of stims. 8 eggs retrieved, 7 mature, 5 fertilize, 4 made it to blast. 3 are 4AB, 1 is 4BB. PGT-A results all abnormal. Oct '21 somewhat improved AMH (.51) and significantly improved FSH (8.9). Maybe it's all the pills I swallow. Dec -21, standard antagonist. 225menupur/225gonal-f/cetrotide/5000u trigger, AFC 5; 11 days of stims. retrieval yields 5, 4M, 2 reach day-6 blast (4AB & 4BB). 1 low-level mosaic (chr. 3 deletion), 1 complex abnormal. Feb '22 FET (low-level mosaic): CP. May '22 egg retrieval, lupron flare protocol. HGH priming for 1 month before stims; md lupron 20/20u daily; menopur 225, follistim 225, 10k trigger after 8 days of stims; AFC 10; 13 retrieved; 10 mature; 8 fertilized. All frozen at 2PN for later thaw, grow, and biopsy. July '22 egg retrieval same protocol: 9 days of stims; AFC 8; 10 retrieved, 8 mature, 4 fertilized and frozen. Sept '22 ER same protocol: AFC 10; 12 retrieved, 11 mature, 11 fertilized. From the 3 retrievals, 7 survived to day 5-6 blastocyst, from which I have 2 normal embryos! FET scheduled for Jan 20. Fully medicated, baby aspirin, dexamethasone, acupuncture, and as much woo as I can stand (which isn't very much). BFN.
1. My husband always 2. My family 3. a sunny but cool day 4. our ability to buy a new washer 5. this house that I hate but provides a roof over our head.
6. Good doctors 7. My pup, who’s freshly groomed and looking fab 8. netflix 9. A cozy blanket 10. leftovers for dinner
@optimistgardener I am accepting all the warm hugs you’re sending! 🤗 Many thanks. Love your list, especially #s 1, 4, and 5. I can relate— those things are all so good!
@paytonpedro Your list sounds pretty dreamy. Pure comfort! I absolutely love your gratitude spin on your house.☺️
I started typing this on Tuesday but apparently didn't finish it. Sorry for the late post but I feel like I still want/need to put this out into the universe.
I love @keikilove for always starting the 10 things tuesday thread, and for emanating love and gratitude through your words. From what I know about your Mom, I see that so clearly in you and it's beautiful @optimistgardener ohh #10, this time of year makes me so sad as my garden winds down. I planted my cold-tolerant veggies a few weeks ago but I'm going to miss my tomatoes.
1) MH, who inexplicably still loves and supports me through my most miserable moments 2) Our home, and my garden, the place I've spent almost all my time these last 19 months 3) Modern medicine, specifically ART. Without it, we wouldn't have a chance of growing our family 4) Decaf anything, which allows me to still enjoy coffee and tea without sending me into a spiral 5) My job. I don't think I say this one nearly enough but I truly love what I do (even if I hate the commute) 6) Amazon. I know it's evil but I can't help it. 7) Blue skies and sunshine... this is such a beautiful time of year in Ontario, so many colours. 8) My rice cooker. I'm Japanese, rice is a staple in most of our meals. 9) My late grandparents. I didn't realize it at the time, but they were visionaries and have done so much for our family and our community. 10) My new Cricut. Any other crafters out there? This is such a game changer.
TTC History:
Me: 36 MH: 39, TTC since Dec 2017
Aug '18: PCOS dx
Nov '18: MH SA - 19mil
Dec '18-Mar '19: Letrozole + TI - all BFN
Apr '19: Letrozole + TI, - BFN. Repeat SA (27mil) & DNA fragmentation test (17%)
Re: Ten Things Tuesday 10.19
2) The Universe always sending me positive messages 🌈 💗☀️
3) The gorgeous bright moon the last few nights 🌙
4) DH being an absolute trooper through chemo❤️❤️❤️
5) Support of family & friends
6) Access to top-notch medical care
7) Our amazing & helpful doctors
8) Being alive in the 21st century
9) The power of positivity
10) All the privileges of living in America
Oct '21 somewhat improved AMH (.51) and significantly improved FSH (8.9). Maybe it's all the pills I swallow.
Dec -21, standard antagonist. 225menupur/225gonal-f/cetrotide/5000u trigger, AFC 5; 11 days of stims. retrieval yields 5, 4M, 2 reach day-6 blast (4AB & 4BB). 1 low-level mosaic (chr. 3 deletion), 1 complex abnormal.
Feb '22 FET (low-level mosaic): CP.
May '22 egg retrieval, lupron flare protocol. HGH priming for 1 month before stims; md lupron 20/20u daily; menopur 225, follistim 225, 10k trigger after 8 days of stims; AFC 10; 13 retrieved; 10 mature; 8 fertilized. All frozen at 2PN for later thaw, grow, and biopsy.
July '22 egg retrieval same protocol: 9 days of stims; AFC 8; 10 retrieved, 8 mature, 4 fertilized and frozen.
Sept '22 ER same protocol: AFC 10; 12 retrieved, 11 mature, 11 fertilized.
From the 3 retrievals, 7 survived to day 5-6 blastocyst, from which I have 2 normal embryos!
FET scheduled for Jan 20. Fully medicated, baby aspirin, dexamethasone, acupuncture, and as much woo as I can stand (which isn't very much). BFN.
2. My family
3. a sunny but cool day
4. our ability to buy a new washer
5. this house that I hate but provides a roof over our head.
7. My pup, who’s freshly groomed and looking fab
8. netflix
9. A cozy blanket
10. leftovers for dinner
@paytonpedro Your list sounds pretty dreamy. Pure comfort! I absolutely love your gratitude spin on your house.☺️
I love @keikilove for always starting the 10 things tuesday thread, and for emanating love and gratitude through your words. From what I know about your Mom, I see that so clearly in you and it's beautiful
@optimistgardener ohh #10, this time of year makes me so sad as my garden winds down. I planted my cold-tolerant veggies a few weeks ago but I'm going to miss my tomatoes.
1) MH, who inexplicably still loves and supports me through my most miserable moments
2) Our home, and my garden, the place I've spent almost all my time these last 19 months
3) Modern medicine, specifically ART. Without it, we wouldn't have a chance of growing our family
4) Decaf anything, which allows me to still enjoy coffee and tea without sending me into a spiral
5) My job. I don't think I say this one nearly enough but I truly love what I do (even if I hate the commute)
6) Amazon. I know it's evil but I can't help it.
7) Blue skies and sunshine... this is such a beautiful time of year in Ontario, so many colours.
8) My rice cooker. I'm Japanese, rice is a staple in most of our meals.
9) My late grandparents. I didn't realize it at the time, but they were visionaries and have done so much for our family and our community.
10) My new Cricut. Any other crafters out there? This is such a game changer.
TTC History:
Me: 36 MH: 39, TTC since Dec 2017
Aug '18: PCOS dx
Nov '18: MH SA - 19mil
Dec '18-Mar '19: Letrozole + TI - all BFN
Apr '19: Letrozole + TI, - BFN. Repeat SA (27mil) & DNA fragmentation test (17%)
Aug '19: Letrozole + HCG trigger + IUI + prog supp - BFN (MH: 16mil)
Sep '19: 2nd IUI, same protocol - BFN (MH: 16mil)
Dec '19: IVF #1 w/ICSI, PGT. 5 retrieved, 4 fertilized, 3 blasts, 3 PGT-A normal.
Mar '20: FET #1, perfect 5AA blast transferred. BFN.
Sept '20: FET #2, 5BB tsf. 9/18/20 BFP!! EDD: 5/27/21. MMC 11w
Feb ‘21: FET #3, last 6BB blast transferred. BFP, EDD 11/2/21. MC 5w3d.
May '21: IVF #2 w/ICSI, PGT. 8R, 7M, 6F, 6 blasts - 3AB, 3AB, 3BB, 4BB, 5BB, 6BA. Fresh tsf 5/13/21 - BFN.
June '21: PGT-A results = 3 abnormal, 1 low level mosaic. Referred to new REI, had consult with 2nd RE in between.
Sept '21: RPL, immune testing normal
Oct '21: IVF #3 w/IMSI, PGT. 33R, 26M, 23F, 9 blasts (7 day 6, 2 day 7). PGT-A = 5 normal, 1 mosaic
Dec '21: Positive for endometritis, RX Flagyl & Keflex
Jan '22: FET #5 - Kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol incl. PRP, intralipids, prednisone, medrol, nivestym, fragmin - CP
Feb '22: FET #6 - Kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol w/higher doses of pred & fragmin - BFN
Mar '22: Mock cycle for ERA - cancelled, repeat endometrial biopsy instead. Still positive for endometritis. RX ciprofloxacin & amoxicillin.
Apr '22: IVF #4 w/IMSI, PGT. 28R, 23M, 16F, 11 blasts. PGT-A = 6 normal.
June '22: FET #7 - Microdose lupron downreg w/kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol - double embryo transfer. BFN.
July '22: FET #8 - Mini stim w/Puregon + trigger, kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol. BFN.
Sep '22: Taking a break
Dec '22: Attempted abdominal myomectomy, fibroid too close to cervix and major blood vessels. Wasn't removed.
Feb '23: FET #9 - Modified natural w/baby asp, HCG trigger, PIO, PRP, Medrol, HCG wash, embryo glue - BFP!! EDD 11/11/23