Hello ladies. I just moved over from the March 2020 mom's group. This was my DH and I's first pregnancy. We were shocked and excited because we have male factor infertility and were waiting for our RE appointment in September when we found out we were pregnant in June.
Our 8 week appointment was last friday and they couldnt find a hearbeat and the baby was only measuring 6 weeks. They did bloodwork, put me on preogesterone and we had our repeat scan this past friday. My hcg levels were 80,000 but no change on the ultrasound, still six weeks and still no heartbeat. Since my body is showing no signs of miscarrying on its own anytime soon and because I work a hour away from home and any decent hospitals we decided to do a D&C which I have scheduled for tomorrow.
I honestly didnt think I had any grief left until today. I knew in my heart at our first appointment it was over and thought I had come to terms with it, but today thinking this is the last day I will be pregnant has brought out different emotions.
I have so many fears and questions. Im worried about possible complications with the D&C. Im worried we wont be able to get pregnant again soon given our fertility issues. My husband and i were a little older when we got married so we dont have time on our side either.
I guess i just needed to vent. My husband is very caring and is trying to understand, but he has his own emotions and feelings of guilt he is trying to deal with so its almost been me trying to support and be there for and reassure him, than he is there for me.