September 2019 Moms

PGAL Check-In w/o 2/12

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Re: PGAL Check-In w/o 2/12

  • @sunshine2417 yay!! That is awesome!
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  • Omg yay! @sunshine2417 that’s awesome and such a relief. I am seriously considering getting one!
    Me: 34 DH:38
    DS: 18 months   <3
    Dx DOR AMH .2
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  • @sunshine2417 that is super exciting! I have been debating purchasing one as well but I'm nervous it will make me even crazier if I can't find the HB!! 
    TTM - EDD 4/23 - Team Green <3 
  • @sunshine2417 That's great!!

    I had my OB appt today. She brought out the handheld ultrasound right away to alleviate my anxiety and fears. Whew! Little thing was squirming and moving, hr around 160 measured by u/s. She also tried doppler to hear the hb, but he/she wasn't being cooperative.
  • I feel like being a loss mom has made me cold this time around.  We went to the mall yesterday and DH (and I) picked out a couple of blankets for baby. I have said that I am not comfortable reusing any of our angels blankets / things we purchased for her, so we will need to get a fresh start. I know he meant well by it and was just trying to get 'something' for the baby to solidify the pregnancy, but as soon as we got home and I brought the bag in the house, I had this urge to just throw them away. Like, why am I buying blankets for this baby? The world is obviously going to take this one from me too. Why am I making myself suffer more by pretending it won't?  And now I can't shake the guilty feeling for having those thoughts.  Ugh, it's just been a day. :/ 
  • @kiddiesandkitties I'm sorry you're having a tough day(s). I'm in the same boat. I'm just not letting myself get excited for fear of losing this one too. Why can't pregnancy be the carefree amazing experience that we've been told it should be. There's no glow here. 
  • @kiddiesandkitties it’s an awful cycle of sadness, anxiety and guilt, isn’t it? I can’t imagine what you are going through and my words are going to be insufficient. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your angel baby and your rainbow. Just know you aren’t alone. Sending so many hugs. 
    Me: 34 DH:38
    DS: 18 months   <3
    Dx DOR AMH .2
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  • @kiddiesandkitties that would be so hard. All of your feelings are so incredibly valid. Don’t feel guilty for having any of them, as it’s part of grieving and celebrating. Just remember it’s okay to have the good and the bad thoughts and feelings at the same time. You are human and have had some serious trauma. Thinking of you. 
  • @kiddiesandkitties Big hugs <3  I'm not at all convinced that I'm getting a baby out of this deal. I guess loss and grief have a way of hardening a person. You're feelings are absolutely valid. 
  • I'm so sorry @kiddiesandkitties. I had bought a ring sling right before I got pregnant with my son that I lost and even looking at it now makes me sad that I will never get to carry him in it and not want to use it for this next baby. I will because it deserves to be used and loved on, but I think every time I use it, it will be bittersweet. Sending love your way.
    *TW*
    Me: 32 │ DH: 35 
    Married 8/16/13
    BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
    BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
    BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle  <3


  • @kiddiesandkitties I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. It is so hard to believe that things will work out. I think your reaction and feelings are completely valid and normal. This is a hard, hard thing you are going though. 
  • @MsBeachNJ  you just need to be realistic with it. Of course I found it last night and not this morning and had to talk myself down 

    @rms924 I totally recommend it if you think it would help--but if you think you'll get cray cray when you can't find it, then maybe avoid. 

    @jaykay2004 So excited for you that you got to see your wiggle worm today!!!

    @kiddiesandkitties your feelings are totally real and valid! I've had so many of those thoughts though like.... I can't tell people because once I do, I'll have a MC. Or, I can't buy maternity clothes because once I do, I'll have a MC. It is such a frustrating and evil, evil, evil, mind game! Grief sucks! I'm so sorry. Know that you are in good company! We will listen to you, hopefully help you, and always support you through it! 


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  • Unfortunately I'm out. No progress since my last scan. And now I wait for my body to miscarry for the fourth time. I'm so heartbroken. I also think we're going to throw in the towel. There's only so much heartbreak one couple can take. 
    I truly truly hope you all have beautiful healthy happy babies. I'll be thinking of you all in September. Much love and thank you all for the support over the past few weeks
  • I'm so sorry @40momma. My heart is breaking for you. Sending you tons of love and wishing you peace during this time. You will be missed  <3
    *TW*
    Me: 32 │ DH: 35 
    Married 8/16/13
    BFP#1 DS 11/13/16
    BFP# 2 MMC dx @ 13w 10/30/18
    BFP# 3 Preemie DD born at 38w (IUGR) on 8/28/19 weighing 5.5lbs. Our little miracle  <3


  • @40momma, I am so, so sorry.  I am hurting for you.  I wish there were words to make it easier - know that we will all be thinking of you and wishing you the best as you try to heal and move forward. <3
  • @40momma this sucks and I’m so, so sorry you’re going through this again. Whatever you decide going forward, I wish you and your husband strength and love. Big hugs  <3<3<3
  • Thinking of you @40momma🙏🏼 💙
  • Sending you so so so much love @40momma! I hope you can find peace and answers in some form <3 Take care of yourself and your heart!
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  • @40momma What heartbreaking news. I am so sorry to hear this. I completely understand feeling like throwing in the towel. I'm thinking of you during this tough time. More than anything, be kind to yourself and your body. BIG BIG hugs  <3
  • I’m sorry to hear this news @40momma. Sending you love and strength for today and the days ahead.
  • Oh @40momma I am so very sad to hear this news. I was really hoping this was your time. Please take care of yourself, and allow yourself the time to heal. I am so so sorry. Will be praying for you <3
    TTM - EDD 4/23 - Team Green <3 
  • I’m so sorry @40momma That was such a long rollercoaster of everything that you’ve been going through. I hope you get to feeling better soon and find some answers. We’re all thinking of you and will miss you around here😞
  • So heartbreaking @40momma. im so so sorry. Sending so many hugs. 
    Me: 34 DH:38
    DS: 18 months   <3
    Dx DOR AMH .2
    <a href="http://www.thebump.com/?utm_source=ticker&utm_medium=HTML&utm_campaign=tickers" title="Pregnancy"><img 
  • @40momma I'm so so incredibly sorry. I was hoping so hard that everything was gonna be okay. My heart goes out to you and your DH. 
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    Pregnancy #2-Due 8/24/17 MMC-01/09/17
    DD-Due 10/24/17
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