Possible triggers- mentions of successful pregnancies and living children.
This is still so new and raw. Early yesterday morning I miscarried my baby at almost 14 weeks. I am having a lot of trouble understanding it. Mostly because we saw the baby on ultrasound just an hour or two before the miscarriage happened. It was moving. It had a heartrate of 174. And then my body just pushed it out and I don't know why.
Almost all of the stories I read start with a baby whose heart has stopped, but I know that is not what happened to me. I knew I was having contractions because I've been in labor twice before. Both of my living kids were full-term and healthy. I don't have an incompetent cervix, if anything it's a little more competent than I would like (first baby was a c-section for arrest of dilation, second was a successful VBAC that took 36 hours). I had no fever. No signs of infection. The only thing that seemed wrong at all was continuous light spotting from about 6.5 weeks on, until the real bleeding started.
I just don't understand why my body was in such a hurry to get rid of my living, moving baby. I'm not ok with this. All I can see is the utrasound image of my baby kicking and wiggling away. I feel like my body betrayed me. I can't sleep. I'm not hungry. I can't concentrate on anything. I'm just traumatized.