Ladies, this is the end for me. God, I can't beleive I am having to type another of these.
I went to the ER last night and after many hours of waiting, it has been confirmed as another MMC, babys heart has stopped. I am just waiting on a call back from my OB to get next steps lined up.
I'm so unbelievable sad. For obvious reasons and because I've really come to love this group. I will really miss you all. PGAL ladies, I'm rooting for you so hard. I hope that these coming months remain uneventful for all of you here.
@prpl11butterfly No! Oh lady, I'm so, so sorry. My heart dropped when I saw your post. I was so hoping to see good news from you this morning. This is so unfair, and I wish there was something I could say or do Take care of yourself. We'll miss you.
@prpl11butterfly I am so so sorry. My heart dropped when I saw your post. My thoughts are with you and your family during this time. Please be kind to yourself. (Hugs)
I feel sick reading this and my heart is breaking for you. I am so, so sorry. It is just so unfair. Please take care of yourself and know we are thinking of you.
*lurking* I am so, so sorry for your loss. My heart fell when I saw this. I hope you and your family find peace and get a take home baby when you are ready. Take care of yourself.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
@prpl11butterfly Oh I am so sad to see this post from you. I’m so sorry that this is happening and thank you so much for always being such a wonderful and supportive part of the board. I will be thinking of you and your family.
**lurking** @prpl11butterfly oh no I am so so sorry for your loss and I am so damn mad about it. Please take care of yourself and my thoughts are with you and your family
Oh God, I feel sick reading this. My heart is absolutely shattered for you and your husband. I desperately, DESPERATELY wanted this to be a positive outcome for you. I’m so sad and sick and angry for you. Please be kind to yourself, give yourself grace and time to grieve. I know it feels hollow right now, but you have all my prayers.
Married 25 May, 2013 William Alexander born 18 September, 2015 Harper Grace born 9 June, 2017 Colton Miles born 9 June, 2017 Bowen James due 19 June, 2019
No, no, no... I'm so so so so sorry @prpl11butterfly. I saw the post, looked who started it, and my heart just sank. You're in my prayers, and I'm hoping so much for a brighter future. Take care of yourself, friend. You'll be missed.
Ugh, M, I was so desperately hoping not to see this today. I am so so so sorry. Lean on your H, let N and K love on you a little extra, and be so gentle with yourself. I’m hoping that your OB comes armed with a series of next steps that prevents this from ever happening to you again.
@prpl11butterfly - I was so afraid to open this when I saw that you created it. I'm so incredibly sorry for you and your H. I don't have any other words for you, but you know you will be truly missed here.
I’m so so sorry. I know no words can ease your pain right now. You know that I’ve been in your shoes so please reach out if you need someone to talk to. This shit is so unfair 💔
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
I can’t believe you are leaving us. It seems unreal. I’m so so incredibly sorry. You have definitely already paid your dues to the loss gods and then some. It’s so unfair. I’m really going to miss you in this board. Take care of yourself and I am still a PM away.
I teared up and my heart is breaking for you. It was a pleasure being on this BMB with you and everyone will miss you terribly. My sincerest wishes for your future.
***lurking***
Oh, my dear, I am so sorry for your loss! My heart is breaking for you and YH. This is so damn unfair. Sending all the creepy internet hugs your way. I know nothing I can say will make you feel better, but I’m thinking of you today.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you get your rainbow baby
Hubby and Me Friends since 2008 Started dating: July 1st, 2013 Engaged: July 1st, 2014 Married: July 1st, 2016 R born: July 8th, 2017 N born: June 30th, 2019 Baby #3 Due: July 7th, 2022 (maybe I only ovulate in October XD)
*lurking* I am so so sorry for your loss @prpl11butterfly. I will never understand how life can be so unfair sometimes. Sending so much warmth and lots of hugs for you and your family during this time.
TTC History:
Me: 36 MH: 39, TTC since Dec 2017
Aug '18: PCOS dx
Nov '18: MH SA - 19mil
Dec '18-Mar '19: Letrozole + TI - all BFN
Apr '19: Letrozole + TI, - BFN. Repeat SA (27mil) & DNA fragmentation test (17%)
*lurking* I am so deeply sorry for your loss, it is beyond unfair. You and your family will be in my thoughts. I wish I could come up with something comforting to say, but I know that’s just not possible right now. Sending hugs.
Re: Tw, my tearful goodbye
I am so, so sorry for your loss. My heart fell when I saw this. I hope you and your family find peace and get a take home baby when you are ready. Take care of yourself.
married 11.1.14
ttc #1 since 5.18
bfp 12.22.18 letrozole + progesterone
d&e due to trisomy 13/hydrops at 15wks
bfp 7.21.19 letrozole + IUI
little girl A born 3.26.20
William Alexander born 18 September, 2015
Harper Grace born 9 June, 2017
Colton Miles born 9 June, 2017
Bowen James due 19 June, 2019
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Married: 2016
BFP #1 4/23/18, blighted ovum 5/29/18
BFP#2 7/14/18, DS 4/5/19
Friends since 2008
Started dating: July 1st, 2013
Engaged: July 1st, 2014
Married: July 1st, 2016
R born: July 8th, 2017
N born: June 30th, 2019
Baby #3 Due: July 7th, 2022
(maybe I only ovulate in October XD)
I am so so sorry for your loss @prpl11butterfly. I will never understand how life can be so unfair sometimes. Sending so much warmth and lots of hugs for you and your family during this time.
TTC History:
Me: 36 MH: 39, TTC since Dec 2017
Aug '18: PCOS dx
Nov '18: MH SA - 19mil
Dec '18-Mar '19: Letrozole + TI - all BFN
Apr '19: Letrozole + TI, - BFN. Repeat SA (27mil) & DNA fragmentation test (17%)
Aug '19: Letrozole + HCG trigger + IUI + prog supp - BFN (MH: 16mil)
Sep '19: 2nd IUI, same protocol - BFN (MH: 16mil)
Dec '19: IVF #1 w/ICSI, PGT. 5 retrieved, 4 fertilized, 3 blasts, 3 PGT-A normal.
Mar '20: FET #1, perfect 5AA blast transferred. BFN.
Sept '20: FET #2, 5BB tsf. 9/18/20 BFP!! EDD: 5/27/21. MMC 11w
Feb ‘21: FET #3, last 6BB blast transferred. BFP, EDD 11/2/21. MC 5w3d.
May '21: IVF #2 w/ICSI, PGT. 8R, 7M, 6F, 6 blasts - 3AB, 3AB, 3BB, 4BB, 5BB, 6BA. Fresh tsf 5/13/21 - BFN.
June '21: PGT-A results = 3 abnormal, 1 low level mosaic. Referred to new REI, had consult with 2nd RE in between.
Sept '21: RPL, immune testing normal
Oct '21: IVF #3 w/IMSI, PGT. 33R, 26M, 23F, 9 blasts (7 day 6, 2 day 7). PGT-A = 5 normal, 1 mosaic
Dec '21: Positive for endometritis, RX Flagyl & Keflex
Jan '22: FET #5 - Kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol incl. PRP, intralipids, prednisone, medrol, nivestym, fragmin - CP
Feb '22: FET #6 - Kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol w/higher doses of pred & fragmin - BFN
Mar '22: Mock cycle for ERA - cancelled, repeat endometrial biopsy instead. Still positive for endometritis. RX ciprofloxacin & amoxicillin.
Apr '22: IVF #4 w/IMSI, PGT. 28R, 23M, 16F, 11 blasts. PGT-A = 6 normal.
June '22: FET #7 - Microdose lupron downreg w/kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol - double embryo transfer. BFN.
July '22: FET #8 - Mini stim w/Puregon + trigger, kitchen sink immune/RIF protocol. BFN.
Sep '22: Taking a break
Dec '22: Attempted abdominal myomectomy, fibroid too close to cervix and major blood vessels. Wasn't removed.
Feb '23: FET #9 - Modified natural w/baby asp, HCG trigger, PIO, PRP, Medrol, HCG wash, embryo glue - BFP!! EDD 11/11/23