**This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage/spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and/or stillbirth may be mentioned.**
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese?
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Re: TTCAL Week of 8/20
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
4 losses in 7 months. 2 CP, 2 MMC. Unexplained diagnosis.
Status:
Ya'll are probably sick of hearing this, but still WFAF and about to lose my damn mind.
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
It's going to be a busy week. Finally going to take my occupational therapy certification exam (I graduated in May) on Thursday. I know I didn't study as much as I could have but I don't think continuing to procrastinate is going to really help my outcome. Just hoping I pass the first try so I can relax.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Well I took a HPT this morning just in case, very much a BFN. I messaged my doctor to see if I should be concerned about lack of AF, I'm starting to get paranoid about Asherman's as this was my 2nd D&C in 6 months and one of the symptoms is lack of a period.
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese?
Ooh, this is tough, I love cheese (and I live in Wisconsin). I might have to say cheese curds, the fresh, squeaky kind, not the fried kind (although they're delicious fried too).
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@coco2787 Any signs or symptoms of her showing up soon? Are you temping at all? I know you said you got positive OPKs a few weeks ago.. She should be close if you did indeed ovulate. Are temps high?
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 21 weeks, 5.5 weeks, 6.5 weeks, all in 2018
Status:
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm feeling SO much better this week, after a weekend full of emotional meltdowns and finally telling husband I needed him to be little softer with me for a while... I feel like I'm getting there..
On another note, I have this job opportunity that kind of fell into my lap which would be a pleasant surprise if it worked out. However, I'm not sure how I feel about transitioning to a new job and TTC. Does anyone have thoughts?
Any testing coming up/any recent results? FINALLY got a negative bHcg, so will have some more testing in 6 weeks
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? ALL cheeses are the best kind of cheese. I do not discriminate.
I'm glad you're feeling better, sometimes we need to just have a meltdown to be able to move forward. I don't have any job advice at the moment but if I pass my exam I'll be in the job market so I'm also wondering some of the same things, I'll be interested to see what you decide.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MMC at 11 weeks in June of this year
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I had a rough weekend and was super weepy and emotional. I am fairly certain I am out after a BFN today. I wish the phrase "it's not over until AF comes" applied to me so I could move on. I rarely get AF on my own, so I hate just sitting here waiting for something that might not show up. It makes this process painfully long. I'll probably test again later this week and then call my Dr. to see if they want me to wait it out or start Provera. She usually has me wait until CD 45 to start Provera though.
On a happy note, we went to Crazy Rich Asians this weekend. It was so good. I highly recommend it for a good laugh.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? Does any and all cheese count? I pretty much love everything.
@nomangos23 I'm sorry you had a rough weekend. I'm right there with ya. I do feel better now too though. Sometimes you just gotta get those tears out. As far as the job thing, I really think you'd be okay. You should read The First 90 Days by Michael Watkins. It helps you make a plan to get up to speed faster and more efficiently. I found it to be very helpful when I started my new job.
@coco2787 Good luck with your exam! My sister went to school for Occupational Therapy and know from watching her how difficult the exam is. I am sure you will do great though! Keep us updated on what your Dr. says. I'd be curious to hear if he/she thinks that might be contributing. And I love cheese curds too! My family owns a dairy farm, so we are always stocked up on cheese curds.
@coco2787 I went to WI for the first time the other week, and wow cheese curds are really good! Best of luck on your certification exam- they’re nerve wracking, but once you get it out of the way it’s a huge relief!
@nomangos23 I’d recommend that you go for it if you want the job, as long as you have some amount of financial stability/health insurance. TTC is such an unknown, you can miss out on so much if you try to time things ‘perfectly’. Ask yourself if a. You would regret not taking the job if TTC didn’t work out and b. If life would *actually* be too hard/uncertain if you got pregnant the first or second month you were there. Best of luck with whatever you decide!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 losses in past 2 years, at 13wks and 5wks. Uterine septum now gone, unexplained IF
Status: 14DPO, should get AF tomorrow
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Eh, things are just kind of going. I feel kind of pessimistic about TTC this month, but I’ve done a good job keeping busy. Been working on a gardening plan for next spring, which I’m pretty excited about- I’ve never really gotten to design and care for a garden before!
Any testing coming up/any recent results? Beta scheduled for Wednesday is AF doesn’t show.
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? Oh now this is an unfair question. I do like fresh, good quality ricotta, but also like.... every other cheese.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. MMC 2/28 at 11+ish weeks
Status: TWW, aprx 1dpo
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Already too hopeful because our timing was awesome (and better then planned due to an unexpected but greatly needed HIO for fun). Back to work after being off all week and ready for the day to be over. Our rental property is just about done and all I have left is to clean it 1 night this week. All else is out of hands.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? nada
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? I'm actually kind of particular here. I like your standard American, swiss, provalone, mozzarella. But that's about it. I love ravioli and know there's ricotta but cant do it alone.
@coco2787 I'm sorry AF still hasn't shown. Hopefully over the next day or so you get an indication that shes coming. FX you passed the exam! I wanted to go into PT but it didnt work out.
@nomangos23 I would go for the job! Dont let TTC hold you back from a great opportunity. It could all work out better the planed/expected.
@kgg2241 sorry to see your still waiting as well. Maybe given the circumstances your doc will give it sooner. What DPO are you at now?
@lin0442 I hope your garden works out! I like the idea of planning one but I think I would fail at maintaining it. The countless dead air plants and cacti in my house would likely agree....
Intraoduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
MMC 2/12 MMC 8/17
Status: tww
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Okay, very busy with moving in this weekend. Today is the last day of my 4 day weekend, so that makes me sad. But, I only have to work 3 days and kind of enjoy my job, so I should get over it.
Wednesday is 1 year since finding out about my loss.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? None
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese?
I love all the cheese. I can be a bit picky about stuff like Bleu cheese and such, but in general, like them a. My favorite is gouda.
@coco2787, I am sorry about the lack of AF, and sorry for the worry about asherman's, hopefully, the positive opks was a sign of O. When are you going to call and see about progesterone (if memory is correct, I think you said you were going to?)
@nomangos23, I recently have been dealing with a lot of large life altering changes, a new position at work, moving, stuff that needs TW, etc. We had decided to take a break from ttc, because I mentally could not handle it all. So I got an IUD, was medically benched about a week later. Within a few weeks, I was mentally over my breakdown, and was ready to go (health kept me benched for a few more months) .I think it is possible to deal with both, but I think it depends on the pressure we put on ourselves ttc .The pressure was there big time for me.
@pr@prpl11butterfly, glad all is going well with the rental, and that you got an extra hio session in just for fun . It is hard to not have your hopes high.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. It always throws me for a loop when I post here because I am like, oh yeah! I don't have to put in any TW.
Identical twins diagnosed with TTTS at 21 weeks. Surgery to split placenta, baby B passed at 22 weeks in utero. Both Twin A and B were delivered 3 weeks later. B was stillborn. Twin A fought like hell in the NICU for 26 days. I am missing him terribly this week. We also had our 3rd loss last month, blighted ovum.
Status: WTO, CD 5, month 10 (6 benched), cycle 3
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I stayed up late watching videos of our son that lived in the NICU. He was so beautiful. I posted his baptism video on facebook. I feel like at this many months later, people forget my sons existed or just don't care.
Any testing coming up/any recent results? none. Just trucking along in this cycle.
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? I like all cheese. but melted cheese is the best. Or anything served with wine.
@nomangos23 I am sort of in the same situation with a job opportunity opening up. But I don't want to switch things while TTC, but I also don't want to put my life on hold either. I go back and forth. Sorry I don't have any advice, just commiserating.
@kgg2241 Hoping you don't need the provera and you get your answer soon. hugs!
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc. Unexplained RPL. 4 MC.
Status: CD 17. WTO I think… still a lot of CM…
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? Anything but Swiss…. But you all are making me hungry! I think I asked the wrong question, LOL.
coco2787 Ugh, sorry. What CD are you on now? Also, fresh cheese curds are absolutely amazing!!!!! HUGE fan!!! Harder to find in the DC area though, but my dad grew up near Amish country and a small local cheesemaker, so we used to get it all the time there. Yum!
nomangos23 Yay for feeling better! As for new job and TTC… if it’s a good opportunity for you then take it! Do NOT put off your life TTC. Do NOT pass up on opportunities while TTC. You don’t know where the TTCAL path will (or will not) take you, so don’t stop living because of it. I know it’s scary, but you don’t want to end up 3 years down the road wishing you’d taken an opportunity that you passed up on because of TTC, when there is no guarantee in the PG game…
lin0442 WOW… gardening plan for next spring!?!? That’s almost a year away. LOL. I love the planning and optimism here though!! Planning out your own garden is definitely fun.
meatballs37 Sorry you feel like people don’t care. I feel like with my MC, everyone tells me how sorry they are and how sad they are for a week or so afterwards. But then they seem to just expect me to ‘get over it.’ I can’t imagine people would feel the same for a child you actually gave birth to!!! It’s so hard when everyone else seems to have moved on and you are still grieving.
Also, melted cheese… AND wine…. Mmm…….
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
And yeah I’m not a fan of Swiss either. Yuck.
@dpjennifer well if you look at my chart I’m on CD 166. But I believe I’m 13 DPO. Sigh
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@meatballs37 I’m so sorry it feels like people forget. I feel like child loss is something so few people experience (thankfully), that few people know how to provide support properly. Maybe they think that they’re playing it safe and being conscientious of your feelings by not mentioning your sons? I’m glad your mother is there for you and your whole family in the way you need her to be.
@dpjennifer Swiss is my least favorite- I like it in things, but not by itself. And lol on the garden thing- I have to redirect this TWW funk to something more constructive!!! We moved to a new house this winter, but the outside isn’t great- I know I need to do a lot of research because I’ve never planned/maintained one before. DH thinks I’m kinda wacko.
AF is either coming today or she isn’t, ughhhh I am a crazy lady whether I test or not.
@lin0442 I think it's pretty normal to feel pessimistic about TTC at this point in the journey. It's a lot easier to guard our emotions than to get our hopes up. I'm keeping my FX for you!
@prpl11butterfly yay for good timing! I hope this TWW goes by fast for you.
@dpjennifer I don't find many people outside of WI who even know what non-fried cheese curds are. So good.
@holly321 I'm sorry about the anniversary tomorrow. I hope that you're able to do something for yourself to make it a little more bearable
@meatballs37 my heart broke thinking of you watching videos of your beautiful boy I'm sorry you feel like you're the only one who remembers your babies. It's an unfair burden that loss moms carry, but I can't imagine how hard it is to feel that people have stopped caring about your baby that was actually here for a time. I can tell you with certainty that people DO care, but our culture is weird about grief. We're expected to grieve on a timeline and people who haven't experienced profound loss just truly can never understand. People stop asking about how we're doing because it makes them uncomfortable to see us sad. But I promise you that your babies are not forgotten and that they mattered
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@meatballs37 I know what you mean about feeling like people just move on like they never existed its an awful feeling and I'm you have to deal with that.
Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis/conditions surrounding loss, etc.
PPRom 19w6d still born 20w
Status: TWW
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm having a rough day. I think i'm just nervous about how I'm going to feel once I get pregnant again. I should be 7 months pregnant instead I held the box that contains my sons ashes in my hands this morning. Its just not fair
Any testing coming up/any recent results? I had positive opks over the weekend so fingers crossed for good timing
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? I think I have to go with fresh mozzarella.
lin0442 Eh, you already missed FMU so wait until tomorrow morning! If not bleeding by then, TEST!
troystory17 Sorry for the rough day. It is a cruel twist of fate. Try not to think about how far along you should be... it's almost impossible to do, but it can cause more stress. I hope you find some peace soon.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@meatballs37 I completely agree with Coco. I am so sorry you feel people are forgetting. Our culture is very strange about grief. I slowly think that is changing and you posting and sharing about your journey will help change that stigma.
@troystory17 I am so sorry for your loss and the hard time you are going through. Big hugs. Good luck with your timing this week!
@lin0442 I love that you are planning for next spring already. You are just like me. A lot of the good seeds sell out by mid-fall, so you have to plan now to get what you want!
Not weird at all @meatballs37, I hope that you never let other people's judgments stop you from honoring your boys however you feel that you need to.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@meatballs37 my cycles were always really regular before this. 26-28 days, O around CD 13-14. After my first loss/D&C AF showed up 4 weeks later and my cycles were regular right away. Which makes this all even more frustrating
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
It's just frustrating because I feel like if I'm not getting AF after ovulating (and my doctor specifically told me, delayed period after MC is usually due to delayed ovulation), that obviously there is something going on and dragging this out for another 2 weeks just to be certain is a waste of time.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Status: CD28 today
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? Things are okay. Struggling with stress over IVF stuff
Any testing coming up/any recent results? AMH was good for my age group according to doctor on phone consult last week and just got education day and semen stuff set up for hubby on September 25th for us to get ready to do IVF
GTKY: What’s the best type of cheese? American
That is super frustrating that your cycle is all of a sudden a long one when it was fairly regular before. Mine was super regular before the twins. But then I didn’t get my PP period for months after. And since then it’s been all over the place this year.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@nomangos23 I am definitely grasping on to that silverlining! We'll see if this new normal sticks lol.
Just sent my RE office a message about doing an U/S before Provera, we'll see what they have to say. Cervix is still high and closed, so definitely no sign of anything happening anytime soon.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
In a weird way. I am feeling renewed tonight. I always question if we should even bother trying for more children. Like this is God’s way of saying enough. Especially after our MC last month. But my mom boosted my confidence tonight and told me to not give up until I am left with no options. I’m feeling sappy and grateful for her tonight. And also guilty that I was such a jerk to her in my teen years and early 20’s.
I am also grateful for this safe place on TB. I know you ladies are some of the only ones who truly get it. So thank you for the support. It means so much to me. And quite frankly I’d be a little lost without being able to read about your experiences too and know I am not alone.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
ETA thank you ladies for encouraging me to advocate for myself. I’ve been to the doctor more in the past year than l have in all my previous 30 years combined so this is all pretty new to me still.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022