TTCAL w/o 11/6

zamoraspin

This is a general trigger warning that CP, miscarriage / spontaneous abortion, selective abortion due to medical complications, and / or stillbirth may be mentioned.** 

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?

Any testing coming up/any recent results?

GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving).
eta because I forgot to do a GTKY

CraftyG

number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. One loss at 9 weeks, Jan 2016, one loss 13 weeks, Oct 2017.

Status: Benched

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Had a friend I went to school with announce her surprise pregnancy this week and that really shook me. Her little one would have only been a month older than ours. And I know this sounds bitchy but I can’t help but compare situations as soon as someone announces. This girl got pregnant with a 21 year old rebound boyfriend, lives with her parents and just finished uni. I know she’s going to be a great parent but I just feel jealous about it all.

Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Nada, but just got my first period following this loss so I’ll let my doctor know and see what he says.

: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving).
Oh so hard to choose! Maybe pigs in blankets or stuffing.

starla

@CraftyG Ugh pregnancy announcements are so hard. It's hard to be happy for people when you're struggling with your own grief. Hugs.

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status:
Two late first tri losses (March and August 2017). CD22/ I think I O'd sometime between Sunday and today.

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Pretty good for now.

Any testing coming up/any recent results?
Nope... HPT sometime late next week.

GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving).
Give me all the stuffing!

CraftyG

@starla Exaxtly that, you’re happy for other people but sad for yourself at the same time. Really glad that you’re having a good week and fingers crossed for you! 

zamoraspin

@CraftyG As much as I try to tell myself that there are not finite numbers of babies or pregnancies in the world, pregnancy announcements can be tough. I find some hurt more that others, I think oopsie babies and people who seem to take it all for granted are especially hard. 
@starla Fx for you this cycle. 

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 early losses, unexplained RPL. 
Status: Benched for now. 

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? As I know you all know, it comes in waves, sometimes it's better, sometimes it's worse. I feel like I have a lot of good support for which I am thankful. 

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Our RE thinks we will get the genetic testing back on products of conception next Friday. Anxious and dreading the results. 

GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving).
I love mashed potatoes and green bean casserole. 

starla

@zamora_spin I can understand why you'd be dreading and anxious about the results. FX they get enough material to get a conclusive result. BTW, I hate the term "products of conception." It's so cold and medical. 

SmashJam

@zamora_spin I truly hope you get answers that you want. I struggle all the time with wanting answers and realizing that a lot of times, there aren't any. Hugs to you!  Also we are fave food twins. If thanksgiving only inclduded those two foods, and Hawaiian rolls, I would be happy.

@CraftyG hugs. Announcements are hard. 

@starla glad you're feeling pretty ok! Enjoy it!

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
Status: Lost my daughter in Dec '16 5 days after birth due to a heart defect. 

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I am doing ok this week. We have been talking a lot about the holidays and for some reason, going into the milestones doesn't seem so bad this week.  Rant: Everyone in the house is a hot ass mess. The dogs are jumpy because someone is shooting large caliber weapons near our house. And the day just started to immediately with too little coffee and the entire day has followed suit being unpredictable and sloppy. UGH.

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope.

GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving).
eta because I forgot to do a GTKY Mashed potatoes and green bean casserole. I am all about experimental holiday dishes to shake things up, but the GB casserole and mashed taters better be classic and on point. And nothing about that GB casserole better be fresh. MH's grandma tried to shake up her GB casserole one year by putting CAYENNE PEPPER IN IT. It was such a disappointment I now insist upon bringing that dish, lol.

ChloandCoco

@CraftyG Pregnancy announcements are the worst. 
@starla FX this is your cycle!
@zamora_spin Waiting for the results is hard and the dread associated with the waiting is even harder. Hopefully you can keep yourself busy to help keep your mind off of it for a little bit. 

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. 3 losses in the last 6 months. 

Status: Benched

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I was handling things a lot better yesterday and even though physically it’s not bad, I’m having a really hard time mentally this time. It doesn’t help that the genetic testing form labeled me as a “habitual aborter”. Which makes me think I’m losing these babies due to something wrong with my body. I know it’s not my fault, but it still feels like it is. 

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Meeting with my OB next Monday and I’ll hopefully get the results from my bloodwork and the tissue/embryo. I’m sure it will all come back as normal. 

GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving). The stuffing my dad makes. It’s the only stuffing I will actually eat. 

SmashJam

@ChloandCoco I can think of very few worse ways for that form to label your situation. I hope you get answers from your test results also!

zamoraspin

@starla Yeah, when I think of the testing in my head I think of "testing our little embryo" maybe I should say it that way if it's not too confusing. 
@SmashJam I admit I've put fresh green beans in the casserole before, and actually it turns out really well! But that's as much monkeying as I'll accept. 
@ChloandCoco What a terrible label, I'm so sorry you had to see that. I hope you do learn something from the testing. All I can tell you is I understand those feelings of feeling like it's your fault, even when you rationally know it isn't, and reiterate I know you are doing everything you can. It just sucks so bad. 

starla

@ChloandCoco I know others have said it, but it's NOT your fault. That's another MC-related medical term I loathe. They should call it "unfortunate woman who has had to endure the loss of a much-wanted baby more than once, but will very soon get her rainbow THB." Too long?

ChloandCoco

Thanks, ladies. It really means a lot. And @starla I don’t think that’s too long at all. 

holly321

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.
mm/c 2/12 and MMC/malignant molar pregnancy 8/12
Status:
benched
How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R?
Good, with my hcg FINALLY being negative, I feel like we are finally moving forward.
Any testing coming up/any recent results?
A ton of blood work tomorrow, hopefully I will have results on Thursday.
GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving).
Probably dressing.  We don't do stuffing in this family, lol.  And if I could travel in time, my grandmother's fried oysters.

@CraftyG, announcements are the worst.  I am so bitter, I immediately unfollow everyone. I see on Facebook who makes an announcement.
@starla, FX for you next week!
@zamora_spin FX for your results!  
@SmashJam I am glad you are handling milestones ol.  I hope the holidays go easy on you and you can find joy in them.  We lost my brother right before Christmas last year, and I have been dreading how this time of year would feel.
@ChloandCoco, good luck with your results. And that label really sucks.  If they just call stuff such harsh terms, why can't they just label them with the ICD codes for the patients sake.

offtoneverland

@CraftyG Those types of pregnancy announcements are so hard, especially when they come from someone who isn't as prepared as you are. I'm sorry that you took it so hard but it's completely justified. Don't feel bad about feeling jealous. It's a totally normal emotion to have. *hugs*
@zamora_spin I'm glad to hear that you have some great support around you during this time. It's so hard how the emotions come in waves. I think I'm over it but then something makes me think about it and I get sad all over again. It makes sense that you're anxious but dreading the results of the testing. Please do keep us updated if you feel comfortable talking about it, whenever you're ready.  On a lighter note, I'm with you in that I loooove mashed potatoes!
@SmashJam That's scary that someone is shooting weapons near your house! I mean, I'm sure it's nothing violent but I would hate to hear that near my home. It's great that you're currently feeling in a good mental place and prepared for the upcoming milestones, as best you can be. 
@ChloandCoco I'm so sorry for that terrible label. That's truly awful. I know you know it and everyone else already said, but it's not your fault. I understand thinking that it is though, it's an easy trap to fall into when you have no idea what else is wrong. My heart hurts for you, friend. *hugs*

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc. 2 early losses, 1 in August and 1 in October. I guess they were both chemical pregnancies, but I don't really like calling that because it makes it sound like a medical term and not a real loss. 

Status: Benched for the rest of this cycle.

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? I'm doing well, currently. My cycle seems really messed up right now, but I think that's normal following a loss. In almost all of my charts, I have exactly 6 days of EWCM and then it dries up. I'm now going on day 9 of EWCM which is just ridiculous. Doesn't really matter though since I'm benched. I'm just anxious to get onto next cycle already!

Any testing coming up/any recent results? I still need to get another HCG blood draw to confirm that I'm back to zero. I was going to go today but it was pouring rain and traffic was horrible, so I wasn't in the mood for it.  I'm not super motivated to get it anyways since it was only at 11 two weeks ago so I don't see why it wouldn't be back to zero yet since I had AF!

GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? Mashed potatoes for sure! I can never have enough mashed potatoes. I don't really like it when they have the peel in them...regular smooth mashed potatoes is my favorite, usually without gravy.

SmashJam

@offtoneverland it is somewhat normal for there to be guns heard around my house. I live in a relatively rural area, just not one where hunting would be happening, so its weird to hear them so loud and so close together. 

kindbytealikat

@zamora_spin I would be anxious too, but I hope you get answers. 
@SmashJam your GTKY made me chuckle, and described why I detest most green bean casserole 
@CraftyG I hear you. Seeing other ppl get/stay pregnant so easy is hard to process.
@ChloandCoco oh lady it’s not your fault at all, go easy on yourself. Hugs

Introduce yourself and anything you think is important: number of loss(es), when you had the loss(es), diagnosis / conditions surrounding loss, etc.  MMC 8/17'
Status: TWW

How are things going? What is something that you are struggling with this week? What is going well for you this week? R/R? It's been a pretty down week for me. My BFN yesterday doesn't help situations at all, adding my non understanding husband who is just as happy to keep trying.  And as I put in the other thread I made a mistake of googling info about loss/infertility and C-sections. I don't suggest anyone ever do that. 

Any testing coming up/any recent results? Nope

GTKY: What’s your favorite Thanksgiving food? (Or holiday food if you don’t observe Thanksgiving).
eta because I forgot to do a GTKY
So I was going to say mashed potatoes, however those are a pretty regular thing in this house. I wanted to go with something that I only get around the holidays. Stuffing, my moms homemade rolls, and pumpkin pie, I can't chose between those three.

CraftyG

@zamora_spin exactly that, it bugs me that someone who’s so unprepared can do it and everyone’s happy for them but it’s not something that we can do even though we’re prepared. Fingers crossed for your results, please let us know how it goes!

@SmashJam I’m so glad that the milestones seem to be going okay, that’s an amazing achievement! 

@ChloandCoco that is a disgusting label, like surely they could have at least abbreviated it! Oh I am so sorry. And reiterating the other ladies, you did nothing wrong, none of this is your fault at all. *hugs*

@holly321 congratulations that’s amazing news please let us know how it all goes! And I have never heard of fried oysters, are they a common thanksgiving thing or a family special?

@offtoneverland I don’t blame you for not wanting to go get it done if you’ve already had AF. I’m sure it’ll all be fine and be kind to yourself this week!

@kindbytealikat I’m so sorry that you’re having a hard time this week, men just don’t process it in the same way and it can be so frustrating. Please stay away from Dr google and take care of yourself this week, lots of wine and bubble baths!

SmashJam

@kindbytealikat I went down the Googly rabbit hole this week too! I had some lower back pain during O day which led me to convincing myself I had endometriosis after Googling symptoms. The rest of my back started hurting the next day along with my neck so now I'm just convinced there is a tick somewhere hidden giving me Lyme disease (read: in my ear or vagina). WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! lol

offtoneverland

@SmashJam That's hysterical. The Google rabbit hole is a tough place to be. I've totally been concerned before about having a tick in my vagina. How would you ever know if it got up there? lol. Hope your back feels better soon! 
@kindbytealikat I'm sorry about the BFN. I totally get what you mean about your non-understanding husband. After this recent loss, DH was just like "it's okay, we'll keep trying!" Bless his heart, but sometimes I just want him to get MAD with me instead of trying to be so supportive.  In the end, I think it helps even me out so I don't get so upset about things, but it also makes me feel like he doesn't care (which is totally not true, he does care!). 
@holly321 We must have posted at the same time yesterday so I didn't see your post til now! So glad you're feeling positive about getting to move forward now that your HCG is back to zero. I hope that you're able to find a little joy this holiday season with the upcoming year mark of your brother's death. I'll be thinking of you.  

holly321

@offtoneverland, hope your HCG is negative when you do go!  And I don't blame you for not going out in the rain.  . And thank you for your kind words.
@kindbytealikat, were there complications with your csection?  I honestly didn't know there were infertility concerns after. And men definitely seem to process miscarriage differently.  My DH drives me insane.  He can come off so insensitive sometimes.
@CraftyG, I am not sure if fried oysters is a normal Thanksgiving food.  My friend's own a small town restaurant that does a Thanksgiving meal, and they are on the menu for Thanksgiving.  

kindbytealikat

@holly321 no my C-Sec was normal. There is still a possibility of scar tissue buildup preventing implant and occasional Fallopian tube damage. But direct research and statistics are minimal