@avrilmai I've been making an effort to eat more eggs and more beans. I also got cashews and pepitas to snack on (both protein and healthy fats, which are recommended). I really like fish/shellfish but it stinks up the apartment so I still don't eat it more than a couple times per week. My RE told me to make sure not to eat much tuna or farmed salmon which limits that a bit too.
Holy cow I feel like I've been gone forever. However, I have been reading and lovetitting when I can.
@laurad75 I'm so excited for you I can't put it into words!! I've been waiting to see this news from you. FX so hard for you, friend.
@rallykat14 My heart hurts so much for you. Huge hugs to you and your H. Please take good care of yourself and lean on us.
@margorita30 Welcome to the club that no one wants to join. I'm so sorry you find yourself here, but you came to the right place. These women are beyond amazing.
@adirat *TW for this whole thing* The EDD from a loss is the worst kind of mindfuck. Mine was like 8 months ago and it still smarts pretty good. I think it's something that will cross our minds for the rest of our lives no matter how our journeys go from here. Huge hugs, friend.
@50Wife Is this IUI #4 for you? I am tracking just ahead of you on that. Third time is a charm, my ass. FX this is the one!!
AFM:
Diagnosis: A case of the old...you guys, I'm freaking 44 now. How the fuck did that happen?!?
I've decided that Eminem is my spirit animal, based on this meme. I too don't age...except in my reproductive system, apparently. Whomp whomp... Cycle/CD: 26 (20AL)/CD14 (I have taken to labeling my charts with the cycle number because I got sick of counting that shit)
Status: TWW- 5DPO/4DPIUI
What are you doing: Ovulating ridiculously early. According to FF, I O'd on CD9!! I suspect that while my progesterone has been delaying my periods by several days (my LP went from 10-11 to 16!!), my ovaries have just kept right on trucking. They do what they want.
So I had IUI #4 on Sunday night. I scheduled it that way because I got my first positive OPK on Friday night and I usually get 2 solid days of those before O. I woke up to a temp rise Sunday morning and almost freaked out. But I realized there was nothing I could do about it and went to see my midwife anyway. She said my cervix was very soft and open, and so far back she had a hard time finding it. She followed the snail trail of CM to it. So I may have ovulated sometime before I woke up on Sunday, but my cervix was still open for business. Everything I've read suggests that the egg lives 12-24 hours after O, so hopefully it was still kicking when we sent the swimmers in. Also, OH and I went down to pound town on Saturday, so if he has any swimmers left, they were waiting. How is it going: In addition to the early Oand potentially too late IUI, my chart has suddenly become super consistent. My temps aren't flat or anything, but they used to be a lot more mountainous. I don't know why it's suddenly different this cycle, but it started out with everything trending lower in my follicular phase. I had a clear shift after O, but my temps are lower and more consistent than usual, and I have no clue why. I did start using a CPAP for my apnea, which I expected to even things out then, but that was like three month ago. Bodies are indeed weird.
To add to that weirdness, today just after I put my clothes on, and this is probably TMI, my body decided to spit out a large amount of watery CM. That doesn't usually happen even during FW. There was even a touch of EW in there. It's only 5DPO, so even though my first thought was that it could be a good sign (headpalm!!!), more than anything I'm fearing that maybe I had a false surge and haven't O'd yet.
WTF, body?!? Any questions: Does the female body go crazy after the 44th birthday or something?
GTKY: As with everything, I was a really late bloomer on my first kiss. I met a guy at a record store where I worked (this was in 1990!) just shy of my 17th birthday. He asked me out, and I said yes. It was my first date, and he turned out to be 25. We are both morons and decided to go for it anyway. Before we were supposed to go out, he stopped by the store again to see me and when he was leaving, asked if I'd ever been kissed. Apparently the idea that I hadn't been and he'd be the first made him want to do it immediately. So he laid a pretty tame long peck on me, and after I didn't freak out, a longer kiss with tongue. We ended up together off and on for over 5 years after that, so it's a good thing he is actually a good kisser. Not as good a human being, and he obviously has a weird thing for younger women (he's married to a woman who wasn't born until a few weeks after that first kiss now, and I still shudder when I think of that...thanks to Facebook, we're still in touch, and his wife's birthdate is on her page).
Me: 45 OH: 42 Beloved SS: born 12/2011 TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016 **TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW** August 2016 - dx with DOR Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T May 2017 - began freezing sperm June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
@aurora1973 Sheesh he really doesn't age! That's crazy. Here's hoping your watery cm is a good sign
@darkstar42 Farmed salmon has something in it that's bad for IVF...I can't remember what. ISWTE also said something about amino acids (??) in farmed salmon and turkey so I didn't eat them during stims.
Woo hoo! We got a date for our FET: December 15. (And they want to do betas on December 24, so I'm either going to have a wonderful or awful holiday break.) Now we just need to cross our fingers for good PGS results in the next few days.
ETA I just realized that our FET is pretty much one year exactly from the day we got the news that DH had a 0 count SA. What a journey it's been.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
Thank you for all of your good thoughts. I'm just here and trying to figure out what the next 6 months look like until we can attempt something that might make a difference.
Formally Leekat Me: 36 DH 38 Married Sept 2014 TTC Since Nov 2015 IVF Cycle 1 - 0 eggs IVF Cycle 2 - 3 embryos FET 1 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN FET 2 (transferred 2 embryos- BFN IVF Cycle 3 - 1 embryo FET 3 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN Donor Egg Retrieval 2/19/18 -4 embryos that didn't make it to freeze Donor Egg Retrieval 4/30/2018 - 6 eggs - 5 embryos frozen Day 3 FET 4 (with donor eggs) (transferred 1 embryo) -BETA 7/10 - BFN Hysteroscopy & Endo Scratch FET 5 (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos)-BETA 9/10 - BFN Final FET (#6) (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos) BETA 10/15 BFP!! EDD: June 24, 2019 Baby O born June 26, 2019
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) On Lupron, estrogen and doxycycline. Preparing for FET 11/4
How are things going? Sorry I’m just getting here this week. Work has been crazy and I’ve been having a hard time with estrogen side effects. Transfer is just a little over 1 week away now so just hoping I can make it and the symptoms get better. Lining check and I should start progesterone Monday. That is also when they thaw my embies which I am super nervous about.
Any questions?
GTKY: I was maybe 14 or 15. It was a random guy I met at a party who kissed me while we were dancing. I ran into him a few days after and seeing him in broad daylight I decided we would just leave things at that one kiss lol
@rallykat14 I am so sorry. You have every right to be totally frustrated and upset. I hope you can take a break to regroup and then find a way to move forward. Hugs to you.
@margorita30 please encourage your husband to go for the urology consultation even if you guys are not ready to talk about doing IVF. He should find out exactly what you guys are dealing with. Also my husband had 0 sperm on his first sample and 9mil on the next one. Still severe oligospermia but it makes a big difference in terms of options for retrieving sperm. Good luck to you.
@AlohaKumu. Yay!!!!!!! For FET date!!!! We are around Or just past our year from dx point too.... what a wild trip, right??? (((Hugs))) fx for the Best Holiday EVAR!!!!! For you and your H ;)
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Began appointments with a fertility specialist this month. I really like and trust my doctor. Also, as I have been reading and learning in this community, I find I am more prepared and know more about what my Doctor has to say. We started with blood work which all came back normal. We tested DH, and his SA was normal. Did trans-vaginal ultrasound to look at my uterus and ovaries to confirm I do not have PCOS. Doctor says she doesn't see anything in ultrasound that would cause me to not be able to get pregnant. Her plan was to have me do HSG, but I had some anxiety about that test because I have heard it is very uncomfortable, and even a PAP is uncomfortable for me. I let my Doctor know I was having hesitations about the HSG, and she offered for me to try Clomid for 2 cycles and if I am not pregnant then we will do the HSG. She will be monitoring me closely while on Clomid- progesterone test and ultrasound.
How are things going? I had a really rough month last month, but after meeting with a specialist and finding you guys, I am feeling much more hopeful.
Any questions? I purchased preseed and Wondfo OPKs before I found out I'd be on Clomid this cycle. Can I still use the Wondfos? I have read that OPKs aren't reliable with Clomid?
GTKY: Tell me about your first kiss. Ummmm, my real first kiss was sloppy and unpleasant so I pretend my second kiss is my first kiss, but I don't remember that one haha.
Me: 28 & DH: 29 Married May 31, 2014 TTC 1 year Currently testing
@twodreamscollide welcome! Sorry you find yourself here, but this group of women is truly amazing and brilliant and supportive. I hope your stay is short.
As for everything else you posted, you are right, OPKs aren't really reliable with Clomid, in general. What I will say though, and I think most people on here would agree, is to get the HSG before clomid. If your tubes are blocked, all the clomid in the world won't get you pregnant- just sweaty and moody. An HSG for the majority of people isn't bad- no worse than a period cramp for a brief moment, and I am a big fat baby with pain.
I probably should have went that route, but I was so scared of the procedure because of things I have read. I have already met with my Doctor about instructions for Clomid and I am going to stay the course. But it's only for two months and if I am not pregnant then I will bite the bullet and do the HSG. It's good to know you didn't think it was that bad. I am such a baby with pain too I get myself so worked up.
Me: 28 & DH: 29 Married May 31, 2014 TTC 1 year Currently testing
@rallykat14 I'm so sorry, and I don't really have words except to say that I'm here for you to vent if you need it, and always thinking and wishing for good things for you. Great big hugs to you. I know work will be busy for you in the coming months, but I hope you are planning some fun things to do as well. You deserve it. @adirat Hugs. I hope good news is coming your way soon. Less than 2 weeks until FET time. @kristokekerooni January IVF, here we come! I'm excited to have one of the loveliest ladies on almost the same timeline. @SailingMama I have never heard of issues with too high progesterone. BFP dreams are terrible! @shortstack930 FX this IUI did the trick! @AlohaKumu I hope the best Christmas gift ever is just around the corner for you! I'm glad you are having a low key week after the crazy ride you had last week. @50Wife Another possible January IVF-er! Hopefully you don't end up there, but it looks like we'll have a good group through IVF together if you do, possibly with @kristokekerooni & @beachbunnyxo123. I am gearing up on my protein eating now. @beachbunnyxo123 GL tomorrow! @Pinky917 GL with this final IUI. I feel like the Hs are always late to the game of BSC. @margorita30 I'm sorry you find yourself here. Hugs. You've just had a huge blow, and I hope you are treating yourself kindly. Give yourself all the time you need to adjust to this news. You don't have to jump into IF treatments right away. Deciding you can't handle it now doesn't mean you won't be able to handle it in a year, a month, or even tomorrow. Best wishes to you. The first blow is one of the hardest. @Aurora1973 Ugh! That stinks you think you might have O'ed early. I give you all the credit for being able to track O and do the IUIs without ultrasounds and a nurse telling you exactly everything going on inside your body. FX the body strangeness you've been having is just a sign of success! @twodreamscollide Hi there. Sorry you are joining our group - but we're a pretty awesome bunch of women. :-) FWIW the HSG isn't too bad and is worth it. Most people don't have pain with it. I had pain with mine, but even so, the pain only lasted a short time and the peace of mind lasted forever. I'm glad you are having a better time now that you've talked with your specialist and joined this group. I hope your stay here is very short and that you never need to go further than a Clomid cycle!
@madspunk - I am SO glad I have some of the best IF ladies headed into the treatment at the same time. So much easier to manage!
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@alohakumu so excited to hear you have an FET date!
@safire3 ahh so close! So exciting to see we have so many ladies so close to and gearing up for IVF. Fx so hard for a lot of IF graduates!!
AFM low key freaking out about today. Not a big fan of anesthesia and not really sure what to expect. Plus surgery is not until 330 so no eating or drinking all day completely sucks. Wahh.
@madspunk hey if I'm going to be part of any group that no one really wants to be a part of...that's a good group of ladies to be in a group with, so silver lining? lol
@beachbunnyxo123 ugh, good luck girl. When I got my wisdom teeth out, I literally went out crying and fighting so I'm no help on the anesthesia fear lol. I hope the day goes quick because not eating or drinking that long has got to suck!!! Boooo to them for making it so late in the day, damn! Give us a quick update later if you're feeling up to it.
Ugh. Ya'll. I am such a B*. I have learned today I have very little patience for pretty much anyone that is not IF. This might stem from the belief that pregnancy tests are evil and should be avoided at all costs, but I don't understand the impatience some people have? Like, what is so hard about waiting a few more days? It's days... just days. I don't get it. Why do people need answers RIGHTTHISVERYSECOND? Meanwhile others have been trying for YEARS... like me. And I see people get all impatient and I'm like, you have no idea how bad it hurts to wait when the "days" you have had to wait has four digits...
I'll sit my bitter ass over in the corner now.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@beachbunnyxo123 It sucks that you have to wait so long to eat! Ugh I hope you get something good afterwards. Don’t worry about being put to sleep (or try not to). For my retrieval one second I was looking looking at the ultrasound screen and the next I was waking up in recovery. It’s so quick and you feel nothing.
@safire3 eeek, you are so close! Wishing you all the best!!
@twodreamscollide sorry you find yourself here. I am going to back the others in saying that the HSG is not that bad, and is definitely important to have done. I also made the mistake of reading up on it before I had mine, and I ended up getting myself so nervous about it. Then, once I had it done it seemed like nothing. I think that you tend to really only hear the bad stories.
@KristoKekerooni you are not a B*. You are honest and supportive and don’t need to see that crap. Also, thank you for saying what you said.
@beachbunnyxo123 girl, sending all the good thoughts your way. (Sucks about no eating drinking all day) This is just the next step in your journey and you will do great!
TTC#1 10/2016 TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each. BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021 planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks, some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
@beachbunnyxo123 I hope everything goes well today! @KristoKekerooni I feel you. I still do the WTO/TWW threads (only so more people are excited for me if it ever happens- thats my FFFC, lol) and whenever I am in the TWW and the question of testing coming up, I just wanna laugh. No, is the answer. I will just sit on the bitter bench with you.
@Avrilmai - No thank YOU, for being kind and making me feel better.
@kiwi2628 - Ugh, I don't know how you do it, girl. I would leave the bump forever if I even opened TWW. NOPE. You da real MVP (hands in the air emoji here)
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Finally got our PGD results...Two of our five embryos are chromosomally normal and free of fragile x! One boy and one girl. Crying tears of relief over here
@adirat - I'm sorry that three are not, but TWO!!!! YES! And how precious to have one of each!
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@KristoKekerooni I get you. I keep asking my IRL IF friend if it will get better for us. If we will ever stop being bitter. If I can find it in me to be happy for people that it happened easily for. I had people in my office this week complaining about being a stay at home mom with their two beautiful children for four years and being bored... I had to walk out and then had a massive meltdown at night. I feel like only people that struggled are the only people that I can be happy for, and their struggle had to be hard. I hate it. It burns a hole inside of me. I am trying to work hard on it everyday.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
I've talked about this topic a lot in therapy. I don't like being a jealous person. But I've really come to accept that when you go through IF, you have every right to be angry. This shit is horrible. It's so unfair. It takes a huge mental, physical, and financial toll. So when you see other people get pregnant so easily, who say insensitive things, of course you are going to have those feelings! Those are completely legitimate human feelings.
If it's helpful, my therapist told me that when I have those feelings, I should take a deep breath and live in that moment for a few minutes because those feelings are perfectly reasonable and completely human. Let yourself feel that way for a few minutes. Then you will get back to a place where you can keep moving on your own journey.
@adirat , Oh definitely I am so glad you have such an infinite larger chance at avoiding heartbreak. I seriously am so freaking happy for you, I am in TEARS! Not to rush you, but when is transfer?!?!?!!?
@JuneRoseRuby, Ugh, right? like, I am am completely against the pain Olympics and all that. I swear... but sometimes... it's really hard to stay on the "right" side of that fence. Some people don't even try ... pregnancy just happens to them. And that's so freaking hard. Lately I've been trying to overcome this, and I've come to the conclusion that I will always be bitter until I can forgive. Forgive my body and my H's body for not acting like I think it should... and forgiving other women for saying stupid things, for not caring about my feelings, and honestly, forgiving them for not being 100% where I am. It's along, rough road. One where I have to consciously choose to forgive every day, multiple times a day... did I mention I am also REALLY bad at this?
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Re: IF Testing & Treatment Week of 10/23
@laurad75 I'm so excited for you I can't put it into words!! I've been waiting to see this news from you. FX so hard for you, friend.
@rallykat14 My heart hurts so much for you. Huge hugs to you and your H. Please take good care of yourself and lean on us.
@margorita30 Welcome to the club that no one wants to join. I'm so sorry you find yourself here, but you came to the right place. These women are beyond amazing.
@adirat *TW for this whole thing* The EDD from a loss is the worst kind of mindfuck. Mine was like 8 months ago and it still smarts pretty good. I think it's something that will cross our minds for the rest of our lives no matter how our journeys go from here. Huge hugs, friend.
@madspunk I'm so glad you have a plan!!
@50Wife Is this IUI #4 for you? I am tracking just ahead of you on that. Third time is a charm, my ass. FX this is the one!!
AFM:
Diagnosis: A case of the old...you guys, I'm freaking 44 now. How the fuck did that happen?!?
I've decided that Eminem is my spirit animal, based on this meme. I too don't age...except in my reproductive system, apparently. Whomp whomp...
Cycle/CD: 26 (20AL)/CD14 (I have taken to labeling my charts with the cycle number because I got sick of counting that shit)
Status: TWW - 5DPO/4DPIUI
What are you doing: Ovulating ridiculously early. According to FF, I O'd on CD9!! I suspect that while my progesterone has been delaying my periods by several days (my LP went from 10-11 to 16!!), my ovaries have just kept right on trucking. They do what they want.
So I had IUI #4 on Sunday night. I scheduled it that way because I got my first positive OPK on Friday night and I usually get 2 solid days of those before O. I woke up to a temp rise Sunday morning and almost freaked out. But I realized there was nothing I could do about it and went to see my midwife anyway. She said my cervix was very soft and open, and so far back she had a hard time finding it. She followed the snail trail of CM to it. So I may have ovulated sometime before I woke up on Sunday, but my cervix was still open for business. Everything I've read suggests that the egg lives 12-24 hours after O, so hopefully it was still kicking when we sent the swimmers in. Also, OH and I went down to pound town on Saturday, so if he has any swimmers left, they were waiting.
How is it going: In addition to the early O and potentially too late IUI, my chart has suddenly become super consistent. My temps aren't flat or anything, but they used to be a lot more mountainous. I don't know why it's suddenly different this cycle, but it started out with everything trending lower in my follicular phase. I had a clear shift after O, but my temps are lower and more consistent than usual, and I have no clue why. I did start using a CPAP for my apnea, which I expected to even things out then, but that was like three month ago. Bodies are indeed weird.
To add to that weirdness, today just after I put my clothes on, and this is probably TMI, my body decided to spit out a large amount of watery CM. That doesn't usually happen even during FW. There was even a touch of EW in there. It's only 5DPO, so even though my first thought was that it could be a good sign (headpalm!!!), more than anything I'm fearing that maybe I had a false surge and haven't O'd yet.
WTF, body?!?
Any questions: Does the female body go crazy after the 44th birthday or something?
GTKY: As with everything, I was a really late bloomer on my first kiss. I met a guy at a record store where I worked (this was in 1990!) just shy of my 17th birthday. He asked me out, and I said yes. It was my first date, and he turned out to be 25. We are both morons and decided to go for it anyway. Before we were supposed to go out, he stopped by the store again to see me and when he was leaving, asked if I'd ever been kissed. Apparently the idea that I hadn't been and he'd be the first made him want to do it immediately. So he laid a pretty tame long peck on me, and after I didn't freak out, a longer kiss with tongue. We ended up together off and on for over 5 years after that, so it's a good thing he is actually a good kisser. Not as good a human being, and he obviously has a weird thing for younger women (he's married to a woman who wasn't born until a few weeks after that first kiss now, and I still shudder when I think of that...thanks to Facebook, we're still in touch, and his wife's birthdate is on her page).
Beloved SS: born 12/2011
TTC my bio #1/our #2 since January 2016
**TW** June 2016 had CP **end TW**
August 2016 - dx with DOR
Somewhere in here received recommendation to do IVF with donor eggs, elected not to; OH dx with Low T
May 2017 - began freezing sperm
June 2017 - OH began treatment for Low T
July 2017 - began doing 1 IUI via a midwife and 1 at home insemination each cycle
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/6259ba
July 2018 - exhausted frozen sperm, officially NTNP since OH is probably shooting blanks
@darkstar42 Farmed salmon has something in it that's bad for IVF...I can't remember what. ISWTE also said something about amino acids (??) in farmed salmon and turkey so I didn't eat them during stims.
ETA I just realized that our FET is pretty much one year exactly from the day we got the news that DH had a 0 count SA. What a journey it's been.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
Thank you for all of your good thoughts. I'm just here and trying to figure out what the next 6 months look like until we can attempt something that might make a difference.
Me: 36 DH 38
Married Sept 2014
TTC Since Nov 2015
IVF Cycle 1 - 0 eggs
IVF Cycle 2 - 3 embryos
FET 1 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN
FET 2 (transferred 2 embryos- BFN
IVF Cycle 3 - 1 embryo
FET 3 (transferred 1 embryo) - BFN
Donor Egg Retrieval 2/19/18 -4 embryos that didn't make it to freeze
Donor Egg Retrieval 4/30/2018 - 6 eggs - 5 embryos frozen Day 3
FET 4 (with donor eggs) (transferred 1 embryo) -BETA 7/10 - BFN
Hysteroscopy & Endo Scratch
FET 5 (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos)-BETA 9/10 - BFN
Final FET (#6) (with donor eggs) (transferred 2 embryos) BETA 10/15 BFP!!
EDD: June 24, 2019 Baby O born June 26, 2019
Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI, DOR
Cycle/CD: ??
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): waiting for FET
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) On Lupron, estrogen and doxycycline. Preparing for FET 11/4
How are things going? Sorry I’m just getting here this week. Work has been crazy and I’ve been having a hard time with estrogen side effects. Transfer is just a little over 1 week away now so just hoping I can make it and the symptoms get better. Lining check and I should start progesterone Monday. That is also when they thaw my embies which I am super nervous about.
Any questions?
GTKY: I was maybe 14 or 15. It was a random guy I met at a party who kissed me while we were dancing. I ran into him a few days after and seeing him in broad daylight I decided we would just leave things at that one kiss lol
@rallykat14 I am so sorry. You have every right to be totally frustrated and upset. I hope you can take a break to regroup and then find a way to move forward. Hugs to you.
@margorita30 please encourage your husband to go for the urology consultation even if you guys are not ready to talk about doing IVF. He should find out exactly what you guys are dealing with. Also my husband had 0 sperm on his first sample and 9mil on the next one. Still severe oligospermia but it makes a big difference in terms of options for retrieving sperm. Good luck to you.
Diagnosis (If you've been): Currently testing.
Cycle/CD: 12/2
Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): WTO
What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Began appointments with a fertility specialist this month. I really like and trust my doctor. Also, as I have been reading and learning in this community, I find I am more prepared and know more about what my Doctor has to say. We started with blood work which all came back normal. We tested DH, and his SA was normal. Did trans-vaginal ultrasound to look at my uterus and ovaries to confirm I do not have PCOS. Doctor says she doesn't see anything in ultrasound that would cause me to not be able to get pregnant. Her plan was to have me do HSG, but I had some anxiety about that test because I have heard it is very uncomfortable, and even a PAP is uncomfortable for me. I let my Doctor know I was having hesitations about the HSG, and she offered for me to try Clomid for 2 cycles and if I am not pregnant then we will do the HSG. She will be monitoring me closely while on Clomid- progesterone test and ultrasound.
How are things going? I had a really rough month last month, but after meeting with a specialist and finding you guys, I am feeling much more hopeful.
Any questions? I purchased preseed and Wondfo OPKs before I found out I'd be on Clomid this cycle. Can I still use the Wondfos? I have read that OPKs aren't reliable with Clomid?
GTKY: Tell me about your first kiss. Ummmm, my real first kiss was sloppy and unpleasant so I pretend my second kiss is my first kiss, but I don't remember that one haha.
Married May 31, 2014
TTC 1 year
Currently testing
As for everything else you posted, you are right, OPKs aren't really reliable with Clomid, in general. What I will say though, and I think most people on here would agree, is to get the HSG before clomid. If your tubes are blocked, all the clomid in the world won't get you pregnant- just sweaty and moody. An HSG for the majority of people isn't bad- no worse than a period cramp for a brief moment, and I am a big fat baby with pain.
I probably should have went that route, but I was so scared of the procedure because of things I have read. I have already met with my Doctor about instructions for Clomid and I am going to stay the course. But it's only for two months and if I am not pregnant then I will bite the bullet and do the HSG. It's good to know you didn't think it was that bad. I am such a baby with pain too
Married May 31, 2014
TTC 1 year
Currently testing
@AlohaKumu yay for having a date!!
@safire3 you're so close!!
@adirat Hugs. I hope good news is coming your way soon. Less than 2 weeks until FET time.
@kristokekerooni January IVF, here we come! I'm excited to have one of the loveliest ladies on almost the same timeline.
@SailingMama I have never heard of issues with too high progesterone. BFP dreams are terrible!
@shortstack930 FX this IUI did the trick!
@AlohaKumu I hope the best Christmas gift ever is just around the corner for you! I'm glad you are having a low key week after the crazy ride you had last week.
@50Wife Another possible January IVF-er! Hopefully you don't end up there, but it looks like we'll have a good group through IVF together if you do, possibly with @kristokekerooni & @beachbunnyxo123. I am gearing up on my protein eating now.
@beachbunnyxo123 GL tomorrow!
@Pinky917 GL with this final IUI. I feel like the Hs are always late to the game of BSC.
@margorita30 I'm sorry you find yourself here. Hugs. You've just had a huge blow, and I hope you are treating yourself kindly. Give yourself all the time you need to adjust to this news. You don't have to jump into IF treatments right away. Deciding you can't handle it now doesn't mean you won't be able to handle it in a year, a month, or even tomorrow. Best wishes to you. The first blow is one of the hardest.
@Aurora1973 Ugh! That stinks you think you might have O'ed early. I give you all the credit for being able to track O and do the IUIs without ultrasounds and a nurse telling you exactly everything going on inside your body. FX the body strangeness you've been having is just a sign of success!
@twodreamscollide Hi there. Sorry you are joining our group - but we're a pretty awesome bunch of women. :-) FWIW the HSG isn't too bad and is worth it. Most people don't have pain with it. I had pain with mine, but even so, the pain only lasted a short time and the peace of mind lasted forever. I'm glad you are having a better time now that you've talked with your specialist and joined this group. I hope your stay here is very short and that you never need to go further than a Clomid cycle!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Just about the only time AF is welcome!
@madspunk - I am SO glad I have some of the best IF ladies headed into the treatment at the same time. So much easier to manage!
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@alohakumu so excited to hear you have an FET date!
@safire3 ahh so close! So exciting to see we have so many ladies so close to and gearing up for IVF. Fx so hard for a lot of IF graduates!!
AFM low key freaking out about today. Not a big fan of anesthesia and not really sure what to expect. Plus surgery is not until 330 so no eating or drinking all day completely sucks. Wahh.
@kiwi2628 yesssssssssss!!!!!!
@beachbunnyxo123 ugh, good luck girl. When I got my wisdom teeth out, I literally went out crying and fighting so I'm no help on the anesthesia fear lol. I hope the day goes quick because not eating or drinking that long has got to suck!!! Boooo to them for making it so late in the day, damn! Give us a quick update later if you're feeling up to it.
I'll sit my bitter ass over in the corner now.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@safire3 eeek, you are so close! Wishing you all the best!!
@twodreamscollide sorry you find yourself here. I am going to back the others in saying that the HSG is not that bad, and is definitely important to have done. I also made the mistake of reading up on it before I had mine, and I ended up getting myself so nervous about it. Then, once I had it done it seemed like nothing. I think that you tend to really only hear the bad stories.
Married 9/2015
TTC #1 6/2016
Dx Unexplained IF 6/2017
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI 7/2017 - Cancelled (overstimulated)
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #1 - BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #2 -BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI#3 - BFP! EDD July 15 2018
Baby Girl H - July 22 2018
@beachbunnyxo123 girl, sending all the good thoughts your way. (Sucks about no eating drinking all day) This is just the next step in your journey and you will do great!
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
@KristoKekerooni I feel you. I still do the WTO/TWW threads (only so more people are excited for me if it ever happens- thats my FFFC, lol) and whenever I am in the TWW and the question of testing coming up, I just wanna laugh. No, is the answer. I will just sit on the bitter bench with you.
Literally me:
@kiwi2628 - Ugh, I don't know how you do it, girl. I would leave the bump forever if I even opened TWW. NOPE.
You da real MVP (hands in the air emoji here)
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Finally got our PGD results...Two of our five embryos are chromosomally normal and free of fragile x! One boy and one girl. Crying tears of relief over here
And how precious to have one of each!
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
Do you know what your game plan is for a transfer? One? Both?
@50wife definitely just one at a time! I had HG for my pregnancy and would undoubtedly be hospitalized if I had HG with twins...
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
Married 9/2015
TTC #1 6/2016
Dx Unexplained IF 6/2017
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI 7/2017 - Cancelled (overstimulated)
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #1 - BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #2 -BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI#3 - BFP! EDD July 15 2018
Baby Girl H - July 22 2018
@KristoKekerooni I also second what @Avrilmai said. Thank you.
@adirat Congrats girl!! 2 babes!!!
ETA tags
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
I've talked about this topic a lot in therapy. I don't like being a jealous person. But I've really come to accept that when you go through IF, you have every right to be angry. This shit is horrible. It's so unfair. It takes a huge mental, physical, and financial toll. So when you see other people get pregnant so easily, who say insensitive things, of course you are going to have those feelings! Those are completely legitimate human feelings.
If it's helpful, my therapist told me that when I have those feelings, I should take a deep breath and live in that moment for a few minutes because those feelings are perfectly reasonable and completely human. Let yourself feel that way for a few minutes. Then you will get back to a place where you can keep moving on your own journey.
Not to rush you, but when is transfer?!?!?!!?
@JuneRoseRuby, Ugh, right? like, I am am completely against the pain Olympics and all that. I swear... but sometimes... it's really hard to stay on the "right" side of that fence. Some people don't even try ... pregnancy just happens to them. And that's so freaking hard. Lately I've been trying to overcome this, and I've come to the conclusion that I will always be bitter until I can forgive. Forgive my body and my H's body for not acting like I think it should... and forgiving other women for saying stupid things, for not caring about my feelings, and honestly, forgiving them for not being 100% where I am.
It's along, rough road. One where I have to consciously choose to forgive every day, multiple times a day... did I mention I am also REALLY bad at this?
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019