IF/Testing Weekly Check-In 6/12

kiwi2628

This is a place for those of us who have already started TTC, but have started infertility testing and/or treatments. You can express your thoughts, feelings, and frustrations on infertility. TTC can be a long journey naturally, then add in the difficulties associated with infertility and it becomes a whole new ball game. The road to infertility can be lonely, frustrating, and complicated, so let's make this a place where we can vent, ask questions, and support one another.  Feel free to resurrect this thread at any point in the week if you have something to say, and treat this like an ongoing conversation. 

Diagnosis (If you've been): 

Cycle/CD: 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?)
 

How are things going?

Any questions? 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging?

kiwi2628

Diagnosis (If you've been): Unexplained IF

Cycle/CD: 11/9

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Finished the Clomid on Saturday and I have an u/s tomorrow to decide when to trigger and do our first IUI!
 

How are things going? So I had no symptoms from the Clomid except last night. Holy hot flashes. Like 10 of them that woke me up last night.

Any questions? 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging?

Currently I am reading HP and The Cursed Child (again), and watching House of Cards and OITNB

leekat14

Diagnosis (If you've been): low AMH and endometriosis

Cycle/CD: CD12...cycle maybe 17

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  wto

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) IVF stims
 

How are things going? Scan this morning and will probably trigger and egg retrieval Wednesday. So nervous to even know if my 6 follicles are still there. Waiting til Wednesday feels like forever.

Any questions? 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging?
The league is constantly on.  We just keep starting it over!
Omg OITNB is back, I forgot!!!!! I know what I'm watching after my egg retrieval on Wednesday!!


@kiwi2628 I hate the hot flashes. They were so bad! Mine lingered a couple of days after I finished the meds

laurad75

Diagnosis (If you've been): totally infertile (DOR)

Cycle/CD: CD 19

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  I dunno.  I didn't turn an OPK this cycle but I likely O'd already.  

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Natural cycle while we learn all about DE IVF
 

How are things going?  Fine.  Tomorrow we are attending a DE IVF seminar and I've been on all the agency sites looking for someone who looks like me.  Apparently I have no idea what I look like.  

Any questions? 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging? I've been doing a lot of reading this year and I just started the Handmaid's Tale.  I'll binge the series on Hulu when I'm done.  

lund

Diagnosis (If you've been): mild-moderate MFI

Cycle/CD: cycle 13 / CD10

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) HSG today, and I'm surprisingly nervous about it. Then I'll have my CD21 blood work next week and CD3 stuff next cycle. 
 

How are things going? Just nervous for the HSG. I meant to POAS this morning just on the off chance that I O really early (for me), but totally forgot. This is on the late end of when you can have an HSG... but whatever. 

Any questions? Not really, but I'll take any reassuring things you can tell me about the HSG!  I know it might hurt for about 2 minutes, that I should take some ibuprofen before hand, and I'm sure I'll survive. I'm really not sure why my anxiety is so high. 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging? VPR 4 Lyfe (I'm still catching up on past seasons), Handmaid's Tale, Below Deck Mediterranean, almost finished with The White Queen, looking forward to GOT, and I'm listening to Into the Water by Paula Hawkins via audio book when I drive. 

lund

@kiwi2628 Hopefully the hot flashes are a good sign that the clomid is doing it's job! I'm so excited for your IUI this cycle

@leekat14 I should probably know this, but is this your first IVF cycle?

@laurad75 looking for DE must be a strange ordeal, and I hope it's not too hard on you. Is YH helping with that side of things?

madspunk

@kiwi2628 GL at your appointment tomorrow!

@leekat14 How did the scan go? I'm cheering those follies on to keep growing.

@laurad75 I hope you get some good information tomorrow at your DE IVF seminar. I think my next book is going to be the Handmaid's Tale. I've heard so many good things.

@lund I hope your HSG goes well! The HSG is really quick, so even if it does hurt, it's over really quickly. Luckily, it's not bad for most people.

Diagnosis (If you've been): NIR PCOS

Cycle/CD: 8 (month 17)/CD 22

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA): TWW

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Letrozole + Gonal-F + trigger + TI + estrogen + progesterone
 

How are things going? This TWW sucks. I feel a lot of pressure for this one to work because otherwise we're pretty sure we'll take a short break and we're close to moving onto IVF. I got my dx a year ago and knew it would take a long time to get KU, but I still stupidly imagined I'd be KU this summer.

Any questions? 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging? OINTB!

Redpuma119

ETA an opk is not the same as iom

@kiwi2628 Oh man, hot flashes are the worst!!  How exciting though!! Hope everything goes as planned!!

@leekat14 I hope this cycle is the one!

@laurad75 Good luck with the DE. So glad that you are doing a lot of research. You are so positive!!

@lund My experience with the HSG was not bad at all. My dr prescribed a zanax though, and it totally did the job. Did they offer that to you? I'd never taken one before and I was a zombie for like two days after though. It is so fast and honestly not really painful. Just more uncomfortable. Also- they'll have you poas so maybe take an opk to dip? 

Diagnosis: high prolactin, high AMH, fragile x and biotinidase carrier

C/Cd: not sure on which cycle because of pregnancies and losses, but month 19 and cd 26.

Status: TWW

What are you doing this cycle: Finishing up testing so that we can have a follow up with the RE about our next step. Our Recombine call is in 20 minites

vflux33

@leekat14 Hope everything goes well on Wednesday!

@laurad75 I hope the seminar goes well--I'm sure you'll learn a lot and have a lot to share here.

@lund GL at the HSG and I hope it's not too uncomfortable for you. I have my SSG Wednesday which is similar and I was given 2 days of antibiotics for it plus naproxen for the pain. Not sure whether that's normal or not though--my RE is weird. 

@madspunk I'm sorry your TWW sucks. I definitely know what you mean about having all these time milestones in your mind of when you'd imagine you were KU. I'm definitely guilty of that one too. 

@Redpuma119 GL with the rest of your tests and I hope you get a good plan going with the RE. 

Diagnosis (If you've been): unexplained IF

Cycle/CD: cycle 13/ month 15/ CD 7

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Clomid, SSG, IUI
 

How are things going? As discussed below I am having the best side effect ever and I hope it lasts. That was the best HIO we've had since prior to IF. Not sure what got into me!

Any questions? @kiwi2628 Did you notice any change to your sex drive on Clomid? I thought it was supposed to dry my CM and make me never want to HIO and I have been having the polar opposite experience.  

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging? Probably a poor choice given IF, but Jane the Virgin, also Continuum and Silicon Valley. 

magnolia131

Diagnosis (If you've been): PCOS/ MFI (mildly low count, low morph) 

Cycle/CD: 19/7

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Femara, Metformin, trigger, various supplements, TI
 

How are things going? Okay. H & I had to drive 2 hours down to his mom's house yesterday to get some things and I had my Femara in my purse. It  wasn't a very structured bag so on car ride back the Rx bottle must have rolled out of my purse and under car seat. Last night when we were back home I couldn't find it and couldn't remember if I had taken it out of my purse or not before our trip- so cue my flustered meltdown until we found it. Then of course I felt so stupid once we did. My poor H has to put up with so much nonsense in this emotional roller coaster I swear. Repeat US next Monday since CD12 falls on the weekend. My follies are usually slow pokes so the odds of me O'ing early over the weekend are pretty slim in my mind but I guess I'll break down and do OPKs later this week just in case.

Any questions? 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging? I recently binged on Broad City on Hulu and am also following the Handmaid's Tale. For books I have had no time to read lately but am hoping to jump back into TB book club next month when I wrap up the summer semester for my online classes. I also picked up the GoT book because H wants me to get into the show with him, but I want to read the book first to get better acquainted with the premise. 

@kiwi2628 Clomid hot flashes in the summer are so terrible. I hope they subside for you soon. 

@leekat14 I'll have my FX for Wednesday. Know we are all anxiously waiting alongside you for good news. Also, I didn't know OINTB is back. My H and I love that show so we'll have to catch up!

@laurad75 GL with the seminar tomorrow! I hope you leave it feeling armed with answers to your questions. I'd really struggle to find a look alike I think also, fwiw. 

@lund I hope your HSG goes well today and is relatively pain free (I know this is different for everyone). Chances are CD10 is still totally fine for the procedure so I wouldn't worry about it.

@madspunk I'm dreading my upcoming TWW this cycle for the same reasons you mentioned. I hope more than anything this cycle is it for you! 

lund

@madspunk thanks! And FX so hard that this is your cycle! I hate that feeling of "well I better be KU otherwise this is going to get a lot more expensive" but it's great that you have a plan either way. 

@Redpuma119 I wish they'd offered me Xanax, but no such luck. But, I haven't asked DH to go with me, so I'm sure that driving on Xanax would be a bad idea lol. I'll POAS when I go home before driving to the procedure, just to be sure. 

@vflux33 oh man, now I'm wondering why my RE didn't prescribe me anything. Hopefully (for my sake) you're right that your RE is weird and not mine lol. And high-five for the most awesome clomid side effect ever! Enjoy all the BD!

@magnolia131 ugh sorry for the stressful meltdown about lost meds! If it makes you feel any better, I would've freaked out too. I mean, there's so much stuff and effort that goes into medicated cycles, I'd go ape shit if something got lost. 

laurad75

@lund It’s strange but this is the only way for me to get pregnant so it’s not really hard on me, it’s exciting.  H participates when I ask but he’s not nearly as engaged as I am right now. 

Hollyyyyy

@leekat14
FX that you can do your retrieval Wed, and everything goes smoothly!!

@laurad75
How do you go about choosing DE's? Is there like a profile on the donor, pics, etc?

@lund
Hope your HSG goes ok, and isn't too painful! Please keep us posted, I am having mine during this next cycle and am SUPER nervous! Do you know if they are doing water, or oil based? 

@Redpuma119
Was it your RE that prescribed Xanax for the HSG? I have to get mine done at a different clinic that my RE referred me to since they don't do it at her office. I am wondering if that's something I can request from her, or if I need to call the new place beforehand and see what they can do.

Diagnosis (If you've been):  NIR PCOS/Low Morph

Cycle/CD: Meow

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  WTO 

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) HSG after AF visits
 

How are things going? Pretty uneventful ATM

Any questions? For those of you who have done HSG, did you have a choice between oil & water based, and if so, what did you choose, and why?

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging?
So this is embarrassing. Currently the only thing I am watching is Pretty Little Liars. The show has gotten SO bad, but my BFF and I have been watching it together since the beginning, so we are kinda committed to seeing it thru the end (it's the final season...Thank God lol)

lund

@laurad75 I'm so glad it's exciting for you - it should be! I can't wait to hear more about the eggs you choose.

@Hollyyyyy man, clearly I'm unprepared because I have no idea if it's water or oil based. They kinda squeezed me in because my RE appointment was on CD5, so it's like "no time for questions if you want this done this cycle!"

Hollyyyyy

@lund Eh TBH I'm not even sure if it's a "thing" or not, or if there is even an option to choose! When my RE told me that was my next step before IUI, I kinda went down the Google rabbit hole, hence all the questions 

kiki75

@lund When do you normally O? They set up the cutoffs based around CD 14ers so if you're later, you're good. To you and @hollyyyy I still don't know if mine was water or oil based. Meh. Unless you have a particular reason for needing one or the other, I'm not sure it really matters. I suppose it's likely mine was water based because I don't remember it being oily when I was cleaning up afterwards. Also, for every story about how bad it was, there are stories like mine where I took the rest of the afternoon off of work because I had seen it can go either way. Mine never hurt. At all. I had maybe one fleeting cramp 15 minutes later. I almost felt a little bad about not going back to work. But then I didn't.  

WillRunForWine21

@lund As far as the HSG: I found it quick and painless as a procedure (the doctor also kept asking if I was cramping and I would think about it and then be like "Huh, no I'm not" but then I was on the subway on my way home about an hour later and I found I was in a lot of pain. I took two midol and was able to get to sleep pretty quickly and woke up the next morning fine. My RE had told me to take the midol BEFORE and I didn't listen and definitely regretted it. (FWIW I might just have a pretty sensitive ute, I had the exact same pattern of pain after my IUI... completely fine, then YOWZA, but that was combined with ovary pain and could only take tylenol, it lingered a little bit  more)

adirat

If you have a choice, ask for oil -- oil hsgs have higher pregnancy rates that cycle. But otherwise it doesn't matter. Water hsgs also have a positive impact and really what it comes down to is seeing if everything is open. (And remember, the hsg only helps you get pregnant if something is going on in your tubes, so most people will see no change.) 

I am shocked anybody is giving out xanax for hsgs. Like...my hsg was the most physically painful thing I've experienced, for sixty seconds. Then it was over and I was fine. Xanax is a pretty serious drug to give out for that. 

Hollyyyyy

@adirat Makes sense re: both Xanax & oil vs. water. 

@kiki75 @WillRunForWine21 My friend who had an HSG done last year said pretty much the same thing, slightly uncomfortable, but not too bad. She just thought it was really cool watching the dye shoot out. 

laurad75

@Hollyyyyy There are a bunch of DE agencies all over the country.  You can register on their websites and see the donor database.  Depending on the site you can filter based on a handful of specifics (ethnicity, location, height, weight, hair/ eye color, etc) and then there are usually more detailed profiles where you can see photos (ideally current and childhood) read the answers for more details on their families, background, profession, education.  It's pretty amazing.  I mostly search for Caucasian women in the northeast and depending on the size of the data base I will filter for brown or blue eyes, brown or blonde hair and height.  We are mostly focused on physical characteristics and hope that I can pass on my awesome and hilarious qualities based on nurture vs nature.  

Aurora1973

ETA specifics on sperm shipment, because I know you are all dying to know those details (and it just makes things make more sense, LOL)

Diagnosis:  DOR, AMA

Cycle/CD:  21 (15AL)/CD9

Status:  WTO

What are you doing this cycle:  We were planning to do our first IUI with the midwife, using OH's frozen sperm, but we may not be able to get the vials back from out of state in time.  Yes, we have to have them shipped to the RE's office from the next state over, where the Fort Knox of sperm is located.  They have a transportation agreement for once a week, on Tuesdays, and we may be missing it this month, mostly because I'm dumb.  I should've called last week to arrange it, but it didn't occur to me until it was too late that I will O at the end of this week, and we need vials.  Ugh.  We don't really have a process set up with them (normally they do the legwork for IUIs and IVFs they perform there...we're a whole different thing), so I'm waiting from a call back from the lab.  Hopefully they can sneak it in.





On the plus side, OH did just start low T treatment, so it's entirely possible that he still has working swimmers.  There's not a lot of info out there as to how fast the body stops producing sperm, or if it stops entirely for everyone, so it's a crapshoot.  But we were planning to keep at it the old fashioned way regardless; now we'll just make sure to not be casual about it since it's the only shot we have this cycle.  That's super awesome when you have DOR and are old AF.

How are things going:  There's just a lot of facepalming going on...or, more accurately, I am looking like this a lot:



Any questions:  Nope

GTKY:  We are heavily into binge-watching House of Cards right now.  It is SO GOOD.  OITNB will be next. 

Aurora1973

@adirat That's what I was thinking about the Xanax. 

@leekat14 Sending your 6 follies cheers and good vibes.  Hope the scan goes great!

@lund GL with the HSG.  I'm sure you'll handle it like a champ!

@antoto Thinking of you and hoping everyone is maturing.

@vflux33 Enjoy that unexpected side effect!!

tamalahoops

*tw* I'm back. At our 11 week ultrasound there was no heartbeat. MMC at 7w7d. I'm not sure if/when we will continue treatment or how to make that decision. We have no frozen embryos and I'm struggling with the idea of having to do this all over again. But we will try naturally for a few cycles once we're off the bench so I'm back if you'll have me.

WillRunForWine21

@tamalahoops as much as we wish this was not the case, of course we are here and would love to have you. Take care of yourself and know that we are here for crying, yelling, screaming, breaking things, finishing bottles, wherever your grief takes you. So many hugs

Aurora1973

@tamalahoops Oh honey, I'm so sorry to hear that.  My love tit is a huge hug. I can't imagine the grief and sorrow you and YH must be enduring right now.  It sucks to have to go here, but we're here with open arms and anything you need.  All the creepy internet hugs to you.

TravelingCouple

@kiwi2628 Yay for IUI cycle buddies, even though I'm a few weeks behind you!
@leekat14 I'm so excited for you and have everything crossed this brings you your LO
@laurad75 I hope the seminar is really informative tomorrow
@lund You probably already had your HSG by now but for me, the anticipation of it was the worst part. I had zero pain or cramping. I kept expecting it to hurt, and it never did. 
@madspunk I hope you don't have to take a break because this ends being your cycle
@Redpuma119 I hope you get a great plan in place with the RE
@vflux33 Ha! That's a great side effect
@magnolia131 Oh geez, glad you didn't lose the Femara!
@Hollyyyyy (ok I have no clue if I'm tagging the right person because there are million "holly" and they all have a different number of 'y' at the end..) I also watch PLL. I don't have cable so I'm a bit behind, but I agree it's gone downhill but I watch it to see it through to the end.
@Aurora1973 I hope the treatment works for your OH!

I can finally do a real check-in myself!

Diagnosis (If you've been): Unexplained secondary IF

Cycle/CD: Cycle 20..no clue on months, stopped counting.

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) BW & scan tomorrow AM to behin Letrozole. Gonal F after Letrozole, HSG, IUI, progesterone..and probably starting back up on my PNV and all the supplements that come with it. It was nice taking a few months off from stuffing 3489734 vitamins and supplements in my mouth a day.
 

How are things going? I'm not exactly thrilled that I'm starting cycle 20..that is unbelievable. But I am looking forward to moving forward with the IUI. Not actually doing the IUI and all the meds that come along with it, but at least doing something different so maybe we can actually expect a different result.

Any questions? The last time I took Letrozole, I had no side effects and it seemed to make no difference whatsoever. How different is adding in the Gonal F and HSG? Did you ladies have more/negative side affects from either or both of those? I'm really hoping I don't turn into a raging maniac this month from the hormones.

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging? I'm reading Black Book by James Patterson and I cannot put it down. I started it yesterday and I'm halfway through; I think it's a big book too..I'm reading it on the Kindle. I recommended it to my BFF and she said the author is apparently a well known Republican and she wanted nothing to do with it. I've never heard of him before and the book does have politics in it, but doesn't seem one-sided to me and never actually mentions parties on either side. I just love fast-paced detective mystery books and this has got all of that.

vflux33

@tamalahoops I'm so, so sorry to see you back here. Sending good thoughts your way. 

Hollyyyyy

@tamalahoops I'm so sorry for your loss. 

JuneRoseRuby

I feel like I should  check in since I mostly just lurk and comment/love tit throughout the week.

Diagnosis (If you've been): Severe MFI, Robertsonian Translocation

Cycle/CD: Since Jan 2016, so how ever many that is. 

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  not keeping track of anything but I'm mid cycle

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) H is on clomid going on 5 months now. SA at the end of this month
 

How are things going? So fucking annoying. My SIL is 2 months pregnant.  They have an 8 month old. GAG.   Going to be spending a weekend in an air BNB  with them for my cousin's wedding this weekend.  They tried to tell me she got sick on Strawberry Daiquiris.  LAME EXCUSE. Clearly I figured it out. It's just more annoying than anything. Good thing my nephew is adorable and I am never mad at him. 

Any questions? nada

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging?  Bugging my H  to start this season's OITNB. 

@antoto Caught up on the end of last week and I am hoping you got a positive phone call today. Thinking of you
@tamalahoops Girl, I have not stopped thinking about you and wishing you well. I am so sorry to see you back here. Take all the time you need and we will welcome you with open arms when you are ready to come back. I'll be thinking of you and hoping your heart has time to heal. 
@laurad75 I am really happy for you that you are in such a good headspace about your new fertility adventures. 
@Redpuma119 Catching up on the end of last week and saw that you will need to talk to a genetic counselor. We did to for my H's Robertsonian Translocation. I thought it was really informative.  I did a lot of research beforehand and felt like when we talked about everything, I really understood what our chances were afterwards.  I hope you have a good conversation with them.    

kiki75

@tamalahoops Dammit all to hell. I am so sorry. Of course we'll have you back, regardless of where you end up going from here. We'll gladly love you and drown you in liquor. 

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@leekat14 FXing so hard for your 6 beautiful follies!

@laurad75 I hope the seminar is really good.  *hugs*

@lund random tip for anything where they go into your cervix - have a full bladder.  

@madspunk I started testing and got my initial Dx from the midwives nearly a year ago as well.  Such a shitty anniversary.  *hugs*  Sorry you're feeling so much pressure.  It's wild all the bullshit we have to deal with...

@vflux33 LOL congrats on the sex!

@magnolia131 if you ever feel bad about giving your H a hard time just remember that he gets off WAY easier when it comes to treatment!

@tamalahoops Oh no I'm so sad to see you here.  I am so very sorry for your loss.  You and your H will be in my thoughts.  In the meantime please post as much as you want here - no matter how you choose to move forward.  We are here for you.

@TravelingCouple  when I added in Gonal F I didn't have any extra symptoms.  The very first time I did the trigger shot I had a lot of nausea and exhaustion, but I didn't have that problem on any of the following cycles.  


AFM - no phone call yet.  I'm watching trashy tv shows to try to distract myself but it's not working.  I Googled (ugh.  Shouldn't have.) and found that sudden loss of embryos between day 3 and 5 of an IVF cycle is an indication that something is wrong with the sperm.  I'm going to ask my RE and see if he says the same thing.  But I kind of don't want to tell H unless the IVF is totally unsuccessful.  Annnnd of course now I'm snowballing into stressing about donor sperm and all of the potential pitfalls of that.  DAMN YOU GOOGLE.

vflux33

@JuneRoseRuby Sorry about your SIL--watch she'll probably complain to you about "2 under 2"... ugh (hopefully not). 

@antoto I can't imagine how anxious you are with the waiting right now. FX for a call soon with some good news!

TravelingCouple

@tamalahoops My heart breaks to see you back here. I am so utterly sorry for your loss. You are of course welcome back here. I'll be praying for you

adirat

@antoto That is true about sperm BUT there are often things that can fix it. Big hugs and fx for better news soon.

@tamalahoops Fuck. I am so sorry to hear this. This is the worst kind of pain, loss after IF, and I am so incredibly sorry. This shit just sucks. You are of course welcome here to cry or vent any time friend. 

lund

@tamalahoops fuck fuck fuck. So sorry for your loss. This shit just isn't fair.

saralee797-2

I am drowning in work over here but I wanted to stop in and say @tamalahoops I am so so sorry for your loss. 

BertieMeetsGertie

@tamalahoops shit. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. 

magnolia131

@vflux33 GL with your SSG. I was also given Naproxen for mine....not quite Xanax but I think it was sufficient given that it is a quick procedure. Enjoy that side effect from the Clomid while it lasts! 

@Aurora1973 Oh dear, I'm sorry and hope the lab can do you a favor. Either way best of luck this week with your TI! 

@tamalahoops There aren't words to express how saddened I am by your news. Of course we will have you, but I so wish you didn't have to be back. Be kind to yourself. 

@antoto I'm pretty sure I need to put some type of parental control or something on my search engines that prevents me from googling anything that will lead to me self diagnosing/SS, etc. I hope you're able to find something to better distract yourself while you wait on more news. I'm sure the anxiety of all of this is hard to sit with. 

KristoKekerooni

@kiwi2628 I reread, and then rewatch HP yearly. Every summer.  Also, OMG hot flashes. They are the literal worst. I struggled so much with them. They lasted so long, well after I took the last pill.

@lund I had my HSG pretty late too, it delay O for me by a couple days, so don’t be concerned if that happens.

@madspunk  FYI, Handmaid’s Tale is free on kindle. J

@tamalahoops   damn. I’m sorry. I hate that you’re back here. Obviously we will have you. *TW* my first was also a MMC, I was just shy of 11 weeks, and found out mine was about 6 weeks. (we had scheduling issues, so I never even got a confirmed heartbeat in the first place).  It’s a whole new world of emotion when you get so close to the “clear” zone. It’s like everything is knocked out of you because you allow yourself to hope and wish and dream. I can only imagine it was a thousand times worse when you throw in actually seeing a wriggling little one, with a heartbeat, and such a high price tag. You’re in my thoughts. If you wanna scream, I’m here to listen.

 

Diagnosis (If you've been): MFI/RPL

Cycle/CD: cycle 36, CD9

Status (WTO/TWW/TTA):  WTO

What are you doing this cycle? (Testing? Treatment?) Nada. Literally nothing. (but I am probably missing FW because I am going out of town to visit my new niece. So we aren't doing anything special,  Just waiting to see if the surgery works. And this will be the same exact answer to this question for a year. *deep breath* Lord give me patience. 

How are things going? Oh, you know. Doing this fancy diet the RE recommended for DH/IVF success. I joined a reddit keto board to ask a question, and gave my backstory, hoping for any insight.I mentioned my losses and everything. The first comment: "Hi, I am 37 and am pregnant with my fifth child" Literally that's it. Not even "hey I was IF, but then I did xyz and here I am. Not "don't give up hope, I had losses and here I am" Nothing. Just "I'm pregnant with my fifth" Like. Who in their right mind would follow up with that? UGH. 

GTKY: What shows/movies/books are you currently binging? I just finished the Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks. I am watching The 100, Handmaid's tale (OMG, SOOO GOOD) and Great British Baking Show. 

Aurora1973

Edited because words are hard.

Thanks @TravelingCouple and @magnolia131 .  It turns out that we have to send them a notarized request for each withdrawal.  I love that they safeguard OH's genetic material so well, but it's going to be a pain in the ass.  We could do the request still, and just have them ship the vials separately, but it would be $215. I had already accepted that we are just going to HIO this cycle, so we'll save ourselves the cash and hassle.  On the plus side, we're also saving the $350 for IUI and sperm washing this cycle, too.  Not that I wouldn't gladly pay to get KU.  Anyway, next cycle we'll make sure to be right on it, early, to avoid issues. 

tamalahoops

Y'all are just the best.