I need some hugs badly.
All miscarriages are traumatic, but this is especially emotionally terrible because we've been TTc for over 4 years and have given myself hundreds of injections and had my blood drawn it feels like 1000000 times. This was our first pregnancy and what I thought a miracle baby.
My mmc wqs was identified on Friday when I was 8 weeks 2 days. Dr said baby measured at 7wks 6 days. There was no blood flow in baby or heartbeat. My breath got sucked out of my chest.
My Dr tried to talk me into waiting and naturally passing. I flat out refused. My D and C is Monday first thing
We actually have friends in town while this is all going on. The female friend is quite frankly being a B to me - she actually said this,( after I had to come home early from trying to continue to entertain our guests through tears and feeling miserable). I'm not mad at YOu. I'm mad at the situation. Excuse me? WTF.
I am apologizing for this happening during their visit and trying to explain I'm doing the best I can. But I'm pissed. dH agreed the commentary was out of line. But he's also processing this differently. I feel absolutely alone right now in this heartbreak and I've been made to feel as if I'm ruining a "friend's" vacation.
I know that unless youve you've gone through a mmc yourself it might not seem that it should be as awful as it is, but come on. I just needed a hug and for a "friend" to say- of course I don't mind heading home a little early. You're going through something very difficult.
Am I crazy?