Its my first time posting here, I'm mostly just a lurker because I dont really like mobile bumping.
This is my 3rd baby and I am high risk for preterm labor. I'm 18w 5d today. The last week we've been moving and I started feeling some bad tightening in my belly so my doctor told me to go to the hospital. While we were there we had an ultra sound and multiple tests to make sure the baby was okay. He's perfectly fine but the ultra sound tech noted that she thinks the baby might have a cleft lip but its a little to early to tell for sure. I have a 20 week ultra sound scheduled for the 27th but I can not stop thinking about it! I wish they wouldn't have told me until they knew for sure because im stuck between trying to prepare myself and trying not to think about it.
Obviously I'm very thankful that this can be fixed and he likely wont have any speech issues and I'll be able to prepare with the right bottles and specialist that he will need. But I'm also so heartbroken at the thought of my baby having to have such major surgery so young.. and well of course the guilt only us mothers can feel, could I have done something different to prevent my baby from going through this pain.. Any other moms go through anything similar? We're waiting to tell family and friends til we know the severity for sure but I feel like I have no one to talk to about it that will understand my heart ache as a mother right now..