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sheknows6

I have been dreading this post since Saturday night. My husband had an accident at home Saturday night and died in my arms. 

He was drunk and accidentally shot himself.

I will not know if I am pregnant or not until Friday, when my period is due. In all likelihood I am not, and I'm just trying to prepare myself for that outcome. Tests today and yesterday (11 & 12dpo) were negative.

I really wish I knew what to say but there isn't anything I can say. My husband is gone, and I obviously won't be able to participate here anymore.

I want to thank @adirat and @antoto personally for the support they've shown me on this site, and all of the rest of you ladies who have offered me personal support.

I will likely lurk whether I am pregnant or not, but I cannot continue to post any longer. My grief and pain is indescribable. All I want, more than anything in this world is to be pregnant with his legacy but I know it likely won't happen the way I hope it will.

I love you all. I wish nothing but the best for each and every one of you, and I hope and pray for your BFP's soon.

Kiss, hug, love, and tell the spouse in your life how you feel because in an instant it can all be gone. 

lulu1180

@sheknows6 I am so so sorry to hear about your loss.  I know it's what everyone says but I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.  I can say that you will definitely be missed by everyone here.  Please don't hesitate to let us know if there is anything that we can do for you and if you are having a hard day and just need some extra support, you know we are here for you.

Biggest ever creepy internet hugs friend!  We love you too!

Tennis11785

omg, @sheknows6.  I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.  I don't know what to say besides you will be in my thoughts and prayers.  Please be kind to yourself as you go through this terribly difficult time.  All the hugs.  

Everycol0r

@sheknows6 I didn't get the chance to know you very well but words cannot explain how truly sorry I am. I will sit with you in spirit my friend and pray for you. 

heatherdubrow

@sheknows6 I don't even know what to say. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.

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@sheknows6

There are just no words right now.  No words to describe how much I wish I could magically make this not have happened.  No words that I can think of to tell you how terribly sorry I am.  First, I hope you have all the possible support IRL at home right now.  I hope your friends and family are there to hold you up.  I hope if you find a need to have a therapist (I sure as hell would!!!) that one is readily available and helpful.  I hope whatever your life responsibilities are right now will allow you time to check out for a while.  But if at any point that support waivers, or you need a different kind of support - please know that this whole board is here for you.  PM me if you EVER need to just talk it out.  I can't promise I will know what to say, but I do promise to listen and send you all my love.

You have people here for you.  You are not alone and you will never be alone.

tripledaggerWed95976

Omg @sheknows6 I am so incredibly sorry For your loss  I don't even know what to say other than that you are in my thoughts and prayers, and I have so enjoyed getting to know you and you will missed.  Please take care of yourself.  Please PM me anytime if you want to talk 

NYTino24

OMG @sheknows6 I am soooo sorry!!! There is literally nothing I can say, but I am praying for you and hope you find peace. We love you and are here for you always. 

ladystinson

I'm so so sorry for your loss. We're still here if you need anything and all the thoughts prayers and creepy internet hugs I can send 

aggo

@sheknows6 I am so incredibly sorry. I can't even imagine the pain you must be feeling right now. Sending so many thoughts and prayers your way and hoping you find peace. I'm just so sorry. 

Pinky917

@sheknows6 I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I do not know what else to say but you will be in my thoughts, and I truly hope you can find peace soon.

shortstack930

@sheknows6 I am so incredibly sorry for your loss and what you are going through. So many thoughts and prayers for you and your family. 

dragonfly87-2

sheknows6 I am so very sorry for your loss. The grief and pain you are feeling is unimaginable. I do not think anything we can say or do will provide any relief, but please know we are keeping you in our thoughts. Please take care of yourself.

WitandWhimsy

@sheknows6 I am so sorry for the loss of your husband. Please take care of yourself 

fwtx5815

I am so sorry for your devastating loss.

adirat

@sheknows6 Oh my god. I am so sorry. There are no words except those. 

I hope you have the support from your family and friends to get through this devastating, literally impossible, time. Please take care of yourself. We all truly value you and know what a bright and kind person you are. If you need to talk -- we are here.  

tamalahoops

@sheknows6 I am so, so sorry for your loss. I am sure that your grief is unimaginable. I hope that you are able to find peace and comfort in some way. 

kaylev0430

@sheknows6 I am so, so sorry for your loss. 

KariAnn323

@sheknows6 I know words only help so much, but I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Please know that we are all always here for you. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

RVAmom315

@sheknows6 I know there are no words to say except that I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.  You and your family are in thoughts and prayers

MamaBish

I am so, so sorry for your loss. That is heartbreaking. Sending so many hugs to you

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I am just stunned and so dreadfully sorry.  It's like - unbelievable - even as it's happening.  I will hope and pray extra hard for your bfp, lady. ❤ Although I know whatever happens, your husband can never be replaced.  You will carry him in your heart for always, no matter what.  I think we talked briefly about his drinking, and you trying to show support for his struggle.  As other ladies have said, please feel free to reach out any time if you need a place to vent.  You are so loved, and please remember.  No matter how hard it feels, <i>you will find a way to walk through your grief.</i>  It's going to take a lot of courage. But you are not alone.  (((So many hugs))) *typos

bluejeanbabi05

@sheknows6 You are in my thoughts, I can't imagine the pain you're going through right now. I am so sorry this happened to you. All the hugs in the world to you. 

lund

Oh my God. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. I wish I could say something that will magically make this easier for you, but just know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Please lean on your support system and know that we're here for you if you need us. 

katiegeminimoon

I am so so sorry for your loss. 

RedBreast35

Oh @sheknows6 I am so truly, incredibly sorry for what you are going through. Please take care of yourself as best you can.  All the love and prayers to you my friend 

LoveInDC

I have no words. I am so so sorry. I cannot imagine what you're feeling right now, but I pray you find peace. Remember that even in the darkest moment, light will always return. Please take care of yourself.

HotSauceSwagBag

I'm so incredibly sorry. What a horrible way to lose someone. Will be thinking of you.

lalalorelai

I am so, so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts.

PeggyOlsonFTW

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. 

littlebug2010

@sheknows6 I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.  Know that we are here for you if you ever need us.  All the love and prayers to you ❤

Dilynne

I'm sitting here with my mouth wide open and my stomach turning for you. 

Words can not express how sorry I am for your loss. I have no words except you are loved, you are not alone and please, like the other ladies have said, please reach out if you need anything at all. We are here for you.

You are stronger than you think, you will get through this.<3 

JuneRoseRuby

@sheknows6 I cannot imagine the depths of your pain. Please know we are all here for you, whenever you may need us. 

letyourheartbeyourguide

@sheknows6 I'm so unbelievably sorry for your loss. Please reach out for support when you need it, whether IRL or here. People sometimes worry that it will be "weak" to ask for help, but it's not. It takes a lot of strength to let others help in whatever tiny way they can. If you ever need a safe place to vent or a shoulder to cry on, you've got a board full of ladies here for you.  

Everycol0r

Please feel free to PM me anytime. I'm always here if you need someone. 

mispanda

@sheknows6 I'm so sorry for your loss.  I can't imagine how you feel nor can I say anything to make the situation better.  Know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers for strength and healing. 

flashley-2

I am so extremely sorry for your loss. I couldn't imagine the immense pain you are feeling. You will be in my every prayer. I hope you have support to help guide you through this time. My heart truly breaks for you.

orbmaker

I'm so sorry.

crazypuglady

OMG @sheknows6... I am so so so sorry! Reading this makes me so incredibly sad. That is absolutely horrific and I can't even begin to imagine the agony you are feeling right now. All the hugs in the world for you lady! And prayers for a miracle little one.

kiki75

There just aren't sufficient words. I am so, so sorry. I will be praying for your BFP and eventual healing. Please take care of yourself and reach out--to us or others--when you need to. 

shstephenson

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@sheknows6 I have no words. I am so, SO sorry. I wish I could take some of the indescribable pain away from you right now. Please take care of yourself sweet lady and know we are all here for you.