Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

Guilt Be Gone

NYTino24NYTino24 member
edited February 2017 in Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

NOTHING any of us did made us lose our babies.... but we all have guilt. This is a safe place to get it out and let it go.

It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*

Me: 36 DH 35 
TTC  9/2016     BFP 12/9/16    EDD 8/21/17    NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC  2/2017  BFP 3/6/17   EDD 11/17/17   DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018   BFP 6/2/19   EDD 2/12/20  NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019   BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19    IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone  BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20

AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility

Re: Guilt Be Gone

  • I was sick and took Mucinex Fast Max because the pharmacy said it was safe. I didn't call the OB because it was the weekend. Doc said bleeding could be from coughing or sex. I didn't feel well before that. #guiltbegone
    It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*

    Me: 36 DH 35 
    TTC  9/2016     BFP 12/9/16    EDD 8/21/17    NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
    TTC  2/2017  BFP 3/6/17   EDD 11/17/17   DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
    TTC 12/2018   BFP 6/2/19   EDD 2/12/20  NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
    TTC 7/2019   BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
    TTC 8/19    IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone  BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
    IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20

    AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
  • I had a feeling I might be pregnant but it was Christmas & I wanted to enjoy some adult beverages with my family. I keep wondering if maybe that made a difference. #guiltbegone
    Me 36 DH 38
    Married 1/22/10
    BFP #1 3/11 m/c 7w 3d blighted ovum
    BFP #2 5/11 DD born 1/12
    BFP #3 3/16 Chemical Pregnancy
    BFP #4 12/16 m/c 7w blighted ovum
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  • ChefRamsayChefRamsay member
    edited January 2017
    I know I don't usually post here (though I do lurk a lot) but when I saw @NYTino24's post I wanted to respond. 

    *TW pregnancy mentioned*
    Just because I am happy and excited about this pregnancy does not take away the sadness and love I had for the pregnancy I lost. #guiltbegone

    ETA I know that's not exactly what you were going for with this post, but it is something I have a lot of guilt over.
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    Me: 30  DH:30
    Together 2003, Married 2011
    DD: July 2005
    BFP: 4/10/16, MC: 5/20/16
    BFP: 1/10/17, DD2: Sep 2017

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  • @ChefRamsay That is exactly what this post is for. I hope others feel comfortable enough to join in if they feel they need to.
    It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*

    Me: 36 DH 35 
    TTC  9/2016     BFP 12/9/16    EDD 8/21/17    NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
    TTC  2/2017  BFP 3/6/17   EDD 11/17/17   DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
    TTC 12/2018   BFP 6/2/19   EDD 2/12/20  NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
    TTC 7/2019   BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
    TTC 8/19    IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone  BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
    IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20

    AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
  • I had an HSG done on Dec 13th as part of fertility testing.  I had my period prior and I even tested that morning of the HSG just to be safe and it came back negative.  I found out the next week I was pregnant.  Instantly I freaked out about the HSG affecting my baby even though OB said it couldn't.  I even called the Radiologist that did my procedure. #Guiltbegone

    I also felt like shit one night I was pregnant and was so scared and had a thought about not being pregnant and there was no going back.  #Guiltbegone

    My progesterone was a tad low for what it should have been.  I felt like I was broken and maybe it didn't stick because of my progesterone. #Guiltbegone
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  • @GhanimaAtreides I know nothing about ectopics.  I'm so sorry you had to deal with that decision obviously for your health.
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  • Similar to @amu1234 with the drinking.
    I got a bfn on 8dpo and was attending a Wedding that night and got fairly tipsy. Got my bfp two days later and of course wonder if that night had anything to do with it :( but I have to remind myself that it did not do my guilt can be gone. 

    Me.30 DH.31 
    Est.8.2006
    BFP 8/28/15 mmc @ 11 weeks (d&c)
    BFP 9/28/16 mmc @ 8 weeks (d&c) - trisomy 5
    BFP 2/3/17...edd 10/13/17 <3

  • I had a cold and took big doses of vitamin c and zinc thinking it would be safer than cold medicine. Found out later that zinc can inhibit implantation.....lost baby at 5w. Having a really hard time with guilt this time around. :'(
  • chaser61chaser61 member
    edited February 2017
    I worked out after not being to the gym for awhile. A day later I started bleeding and four days later I had the miscarriage. I blamed myself for doing ab work and jumping and some how shaking the baby loose. guilt be gone...
  • I was having contractions two days before I passed the baby. If I had gone to the hospital, they would have done a D&C and I might have gotten a reason for what happened. Because I MC naturally, my doctor wouldn't test. #guiltbegone
    It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*

    Me: 36 DH 35 
    TTC  9/2016     BFP 12/9/16    EDD 8/21/17    NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
    TTC  2/2017  BFP 3/6/17   EDD 11/17/17   DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
    TTC 12/2018   BFP 6/2/19   EDD 2/12/20  NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
    TTC 7/2019   BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
    TTC 8/19    IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone  BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
    IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20

    AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
  • A lot of guilt this time. Was it because I got a cold and used the wrong essential oils in the vaporizer? Because I didn't start taking baby aspirin even though I suspected I had clotting issues last time? Because I didn't push on my doctor to test my progesterone & HCG levels immediately so I could start the suppositories sooner? Was it the champagne we had on NYE even though I didn't get my BFP for another 5 days? So much guilt and I'll never know.

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    Married DH 03/25/2017
    1st MMC 08/13/2016 2nd MMC 02/14/2017
    BFP 06/16/17 Rainbow DS Born 02/05/2018


  • Was it the 2-3 cups of double shot espresso I had three days in a row while dead exhausted living off 4 hours of sleep a night and helping my hubby coordinate during the huge 3 day event he was in charge of. My period was a few days late but I had taken a test and got a bfn. A week after the event I finally got a BFP. I'll never know but I can't change it. #guiltbegone
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