I shared on October 1st, the first day of awareness month. It was the best decision I could have made. But it is a highly personal decision. I wrote something up and edited it for a solid month before I finally posted. I was so nervous, but the support I got was overwhelming.
Today I posted a simple awarenesss graphic with a line about remembering my baby.
Hugs to everyone here today
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
At the beginning of the month, I shared a picture on Instagram that I found with a blurb I wrote and as @bitterbetty12 said, my responses were all positive (and made me tear up bc of it!). Thinking of all you ladies today
My support group had a one mile walk today, we all had a flower for each of our babies and wrote messages to them, flowers will be offered at mass tomorrow night and we're having an angels service. I posted it on instagram and fb. We'll do it every year.
This was my post. I've always been conflicted with being more open on social media about my losses. I'm open with people in person, but not outright on Instagram. (I quit FB last year.) But today I felt the need to acknowledge. If only slightly.
I didn't acknowledge it on social media but I chose to share my story with an old childhood friend who is in town visiting. The topic of conversation got to babies and I just told her. It felt so good and liberating to share with her and she was very kind and supportive. Hugs and much love to all of you ladies today. You've all been so supportive during this difficult process and I'm so thankful for each of you.
****TW: Pregnancy,
loss and children mentioned****
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
******************
TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w
2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger=
BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our
own** 12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!! Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
No one except for DH and my parents know about my loss, and no one knew we were TTC, so I'm not comfortable "outing" myself in this way at this time, but I know many friends who have lost, so I went ahead and shared a post on FB to let them know I'm thinking about them. I know many of them have gone on to have rainbow babies, so I'm hoping seeing that post won't upset them, but I'm sure I have FB friends who have recently experienced loss that I don't even know about.
TTC#1 - 6.3.16 BFP#1 - 7.1.16, (mo-di twins + singleton) due 3.15.17 MC singleton - 7.13.16 - 5w MMC identical twins - 8.5.16 - 8w+2d Misoprostol 4x D&C - 9.12.16 Hysteroscopy - 11.21.16 - Retained tissue filling half of uterus removed, blocked left tube, benched for 2 cycles, on estrogen/progesterone for 30 days HSG - 2.7.17 - Asherman's Syndrome. Both tubes open. Hysteroscopy 2.13.17 - Incomplete adhesiolysis for Asherman's, benched & on estrogen/progesterone for 30 days. At least two more surgeries needed... Hysteroscopy 3.21.17 - Adhesiolysis for Asherman's, benched & on estrogen/progesterone for 30 days. TTCAL #1: 4.24.17 Hysteroscopy 5.23.17 - Scars reformed. Adhesiolysis. Unsure what to do next... Fertility acupuncture - started 6.13.17
I have not posted on facebook. But did pm on of my friends about her post and how I felt she was very strong to do so and I share with her that I have had two losses this year. I have too many people from work on my FB to feel comfortable sharing about my losses.
I mentioned on FB each time I had a loss. I needed to acknowledge my pain, raise awareness and bring dignity and recognition to my babies' lives. But I did not say saying today- my loss announcements were both very recent and in succession. Plus I may have others soon so I can mention again at that time.
Siggy Warning--------
CP #1- due April 2017 lost 5.5 weeks cp #2- due May 2017 lost at 4.5 weeks iUI #1- BFN IUI #2-BFN IVF#1- transfer 2- BFP! Due October 2017 c/p#3 lost at 3.5 weeks
CP #1- due April 2017 lost 5.5 weeks cp #2- due May 2017 lost at 4.5 weeks iUI #1- BFN IUI #2-BFN IVF#1- transfer 2- BFP! Due October 2017 c/p#3 lost at 3.5 weeks
I posted, and it was my first acknowledgment of the loss. I found it somewhat therapeutic to put it out there and I've gotten lots of support. I'm glad I did it. Hugs to everyone today.
I admire the strength of this group everyday. Like @bitterbetty12 I think I'd have to take some time to write something to get it perfect, and maybe one day I will.
I didnt see anything on my Instagram or FB today from anyone, which maybe is a little weird? Hmm.
I spent some time laying in bed reading other people's posts about pregnancy loss and crying. It was cathartic: Tomorrow is the anniversary of my first BFP, so the day stings a bit. Everyone I'm close to knows my story, so I chose not to share on FB. Maybe someday when I'm feeling stronger I will draft something to post, but I'm really not there right now.
I thought of you all yesterday. You are all such strong and supportive women. No matter what ttcal day you are all having you can come on here and support other women and be happy for them too. I'm really thanful for all the support and I have gotten on here and everything I have learned too. It has made me feel less alone which has been huge.
Despite knowing better in my wise mind, I think I still feel embarrassed to share my loss somehow. Maybe because it's so fresh and recent, I don't know. There are days I want to wear a t-shirt and shout it from the rooftops, but when it comes down to it paying on social media seems to be something I'm not ready for or at least that I'm anxious about.
Awareness has never been more real than now unfortunately. Hoping that I can be more mindful of a lot of other shitty things happening to others that I previously brushed off. Best wishes to all of you and strength to get through.
Re: Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day
I may do something.... I recently posted my tattoo on Facebook and talked about loss
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
I shared on October 1st, the first day of awareness month. It was the best decision I could have made. But it is a highly personal decision. I wrote something up and edited it for a solid month before I finally posted. I was so nervous, but the support I got was overwhelming.
Today I posted a simple awarenesss graphic with a line about remembering my baby.
Hugs to everyone here today
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
My support group had a one mile walk today, we all had a flower for each of our babies and wrote messages to them, flowers will be offered at mass tomorrow night and we're having an angels service. I posted it on instagram and fb. We'll do it every year.
Big hugs to all
Together since 2006
Married 01.17.15
My my heart is with each of you. xo ❤️
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL! E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
******************
TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
Thanks for sharing and for the support @chloe97!
TTC#1 - 6.3.16
BFP#1 - 7.1.16, (mo-di twins + singleton) due 3.15.17
MC singleton - 7.13.16 - 5w
MMC identical twins - 8.5.16 - 8w+2d
Misoprostol 4x
D&C - 9.12.16
Hysteroscopy - 11.21.16 - Retained tissue filling half of uterus removed, blocked left tube, benched for 2 cycles, on estrogen/progesterone for 30 days
HSG - 2.7.17 - Asherman's Syndrome. Both tubes open.
Hysteroscopy 2.13.17 - Incomplete adhesiolysis for Asherman's, benched & on estrogen/progesterone for 30 days. At least two more surgeries needed...
Hysteroscopy 3.21.17 - Adhesiolysis for Asherman's, benched & on estrogen/progesterone for 30 days.
TTCAL #1: 4.24.17
Hysteroscopy 5.23.17 - Scars reformed. Adhesiolysis. Unsure what to do next...
Fertility acupuncture - started 6.13.17
CP #1- due April 2017 lost 5.5 weeks
cp #2- due May 2017 lost at 4.5 weeks
iUI #1- BFN
IUI #2-BFN
IVF#1- transfer 2- BFP! Due October 2017 c/p#3 lost at 3.5 weeks
CP #1- due April 2017 lost 5.5 weeks
cp #2- due May 2017 lost at 4.5 weeks
iUI #1- BFN
IUI #2-BFN
IVF#1- transfer 2- BFP! Due October 2017 c/p#3 lost at 3.5 weeks
BFP: 10.3.16 | CP: 10.11.16
BFP: 12.14.16 | CP: 12.14.16
BFP: 1.23.17 | EDD 10.6.17 -- DS born 10.7.17
BFP: 9.9.18 | EDD 5.23.19 -- DD born 5.24.19
BFP: 9.1.21 | MC 10.1.21
I didnt see anything on my Instagram or FB today from anyone, which maybe is a little weird? Hmm.
I'll be thinking of you today @chloe97 Not posting on Facebook doesn't mean you are not strong. You are incredibly strong!!
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19