I just have to vent. I feel guilty but I am so angry at this baby for not being here and mad at everyone asking me if I've had the baby yet. I'm to the point where I just snap at my husband and start crying. I was so excited as my due date approached and as it went by I though, "ok, no biggie." But, as the days have gone on I have just become more and more angry and depressed. I eat all the time which makes me feel even worse and I'm just so angry. And, feeling that way makes me feel guilty and also worried that I'm starting out life angry at this child. I'm so over reading birth announcements and want to be excited for everyone but I'm just so tired of this. I'm just angry.
Does anyone else feel this way/ felt this way? Did it get better?
Aww @mjpatzwa I'm not overdue yet but I totally get exactly what you're saying and that's been me for the last week and a half. I felt extra horrible because I'm a SAHM to my two year old and he of course through no fault of his own, is the reason for so much snapping and frustration on my part. I felt/feel like a horrible mom and I would just cry. I still do but thankfully I've been able to get a little help. I've been on anti-anxiety medication since my first pregnancy and I had my dose increased a smidge and started asking for as much help as I could. But I know it's so hard being so uncomfortable 24/7 and wishing the misery to end to the point where you don't even care about the prize at the end! I keep feeling like I'm not pregnant I just have some kind of flu or infection that's making me miserable and I just want it to end and I keep forgetting there's a purpose and a good one at that. It melts away the minute the dust settles and you get to hold that baby. It may mean nothing right now and it meant nothing to me my entire first pregnancy but I SWEAR it's worth it times 1000. I only vaguely remember it in our current super ridiculously pregnant position but I'm constantly telling myself it really happened and it is all worth it. We can do it!!! But I totally feel for you!! (And I feel exactly the same. I don't go out in public anymore because the stares and comments and my general anger at the world.)
@mjpatzwa I'm sorry dear! I'm sure there is nothing I can say to make you feel better - I'd feel that way too. Don't beat yourself up about it. It's a lot of work growing a human!
just hoping this baby comes for you soon and you have a happy and healthy delivery.
Feeling the same way! I am SO tired of people asking me if I have had the baby yet. I just want to scream "I will F%#$ing let you know!" I left work last week on Tuesday because the original plan was to induce on that Wed. However, my doc took a 2 week vacation and I got stuck with a Dr. who says "well I won't let you go beyond 41 weeks." So basically we are looking at Oct. because even though I'm overdue my body doesn't appear to be doing anything. What's worse is that I'm over here going stir crazy because I have nothing to do at all sitting at home. All of my children are at school all day and my house is spotless.
Love tits for support ladies! Just know there IS an end!! And now that I've had my baby, it seems like pregnancy was a blink of an eye and is actually a little strange going from pregnant for most of the year to just suddenly not... Hang in there!!! Do something special for yourself! Massage, movie, pedicure, lunch date
Thank you guys so much for the support. I had an appointment with my midwife yesterday and it basically turned into a therapy session so I'm feeling a lot better. We have an induction scheduled for late Friday night and I told her I just felt like a failure that I couldn't go naturally and she was like-- I get why you would feel that way-- but what's making you feel that way is crazy-- no one gets a badge. There are no badges and the prize is the same no matter what.
I just keep reminding myself about that and am really starting to feel better.
Hi! I just got home from the hospital. It was rough but worth it. We are officially Team Pink with baby girl Olivia. Went in for an induction Friday night starting with the Foley Bulb. Then pitocin the next morning. Went all the way to max dose of 30 TWICE on Saturday. Then Saturday night they gave me some cervical ripening pills to sleep with. Next morning went into labor at a dose of 4 for Pitocin. Labored for 16 hours including 3 hours of pushing before it was clear baby's head was turned up and to the side so I had to get a caesarean. All went well. Not what I wanted, but happy with the result!
Re: BeIng overdue has taken all the fun out of this
just hoping this baby comes for you soon and you have a happy and healthy delivery.
I just keep reminding myself about that and am really starting to feel better.
I hope you are all hanging in there, as well!