Hi ladies. I hope this post is ok - I'm a TTGP gal and rules there are a little stricter it seems. But I have a lot to say and I'm tired of dumping my negativity on my H... I've been reading through a lot of the posts here and I told H that this group is now "my people". I've seen so many of you say exactly what it is I'm feeling and while I hate that we are all here, I'm so grateful right now that you are.
We got KU on our third month, which in the scheme of things, is pretty great. For some reason, I was paranoid about a loss from the beginning. I was counting down the days to my first appointment which would have been at 7+1. At 6+1, the slight symptoms I had disappeared and deep down I just knew it was over. Surprisingly the anxiety of waiting between the time I began spotting to full on bleeding was the worst part for me mentally (about three days). I was so overwhelmingly sad at first but now I'm just angry. I'm so angry at the world and my body and God and science and just everything. I'm sure I'll be sad again but right now it's easier to be mad.
I have only had one blood draw so far and by that point, my progesterone was less than 5 (4.6 I believe when I was 6+3). When I meet with my doctor, I'll ask her about this but is this something that means I should have been on supplements? Should I ask for supplements (hopefully) next time even if the doctor says not to worry? I really hope they'll let me get blood drawn asap next time because I don't think I can mentally take that waiting game again.
I know I'll have more questions but I can't think right now. I hope to jump right back into TTC if I can, and I'm sure I'll be hanging around here a lot to get through the day.