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Introduction (long) (children trigger)

Simple PetalSimple Petal member
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Hello,

I have been a lurker here for quite awhile but decided it was time to come out of my shell and introduce myself.

My story is quite different from many of you ladies here. I am 42 and have three daughters from a previous marriage. They are 21, 19, and 15. I had my tubes tied when my youngest was born. I met my current husband 12 years ago and we have been married for 9 years. My husband has no children of his own. 

Five years ago, I had my tubal reversed. They said it was successful but nothing came of it. We never went further because we had just returned to the Catholic Church and struggled with the Church's view on IVF.

At the beginning of this year, it hit me that it was now or never and we started looking into IVF. After waiting two months for my Varicella vaccinations and getting some uterine polyps removed we are scheduled for our injection training and full payment on August 22. My calendar shows a tentative egg retrieval on September 7 and possible transfer on my 43rd birthday!

Am I out of my mind?
Am I being selfish?

This is what I keep thinking. Honestly, financially this really does not make sense. We are paying completely out of pocket. We definitely cannot afford to do this more than once, and at my age, I am not sure I would want to. IVF only one time at my age...honestly the odds are not great. But if I don't try...will it haunt me?

I know that none of you know me and I of course don't expect any real answers to these questions. I just needed to put this out there. My husband and I have not told anyone. So thank you for reading this.
Me (42) DH (46)
Failed tubal reversal in 2011
Borderline AMH, DOR
(DH) Low motility
Expected ER: 9/7/16

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Re: Introduction (long) (children trigger)

  • JamieH2000JamieH2000 member
    Welcome! Thanks for sharing your story. I don't think you are out of your mind or being selfish. You just have to follow your heart and I really hope this first try works for you. Definitely join us in the Aug/Sept IVF group!
    History in Spoiler

    Age: 32 (same with DH). Together since 2006, Married June 2013 and TTC since August 2015
    Diagnosis: Mild Endo, DOR (AMH of 1.5), Poor Quality Eggs/embryos, Displaced Window of Implantation (ERA Post Receptive)
    March-May 2016: 1 TI and 2 IUIs- BFN 
    June 2016- Laproscopy- found/removed mild endo and confirmed only 1 normal healthy ovary.
    August 2016- IVF #1 with Antagonist Protocol- Cancelled (2 lead follies), converted to IUI- BFN
    Oct-Nov 2016- IVF #2 with Estrogen Priming Micro Lupron Protocol, 2 eggs retrieved, day 3 transfer of 1- BFN
    January 2017- New RE, IVF#3 with Estrogen Priming Antagonist Protocol, 12 eggs, 8 mature, 6 fertilized, 2 day 5 early blasts transferred (none to freeze :(), BFN
    May 2017- Sept 2017- Starting Donor Egg process! Waiting for donor to be available... and then she is pregnant at baseline :(
    Oct 2017- Donor #2: 25R, 22M,18F, 12 blasts frozen! Fresh transfer cancelled due to thin lining with fluid :(
    Nov 2017- Hysterscopy to remove polyp
    Dec 2017- DE FET #1 on 12/8 on 2 perfect blasts- BFN and devastated
    Jan-Mar 2018- ERA #1- Post receptive by 24 hours, ERA #2 RECEPTIVE with 4 days of Progesterone
    Apr 2018- DE FET cancelled for lining issues :(
    Jun 2018- DE FET #2 of two 1AA blasts- first BFP ever! Beta 10dp5dt- 378, Beta 14dp5dt- 2840, Beta 16dp5dt- 4035, beta 18dp5dt- 10916. Due on 2/20 with one baby after a vanishing twin
    Baby Born born early @ 33.5 weeks due to Pre-e
    Back for # 2!
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  • Simple PetalSimple Petal member
    Thank you for your reply. I think because my husband and I are keeping it private, my post came off more emotional than I expected.

    I will post to the Aug/Sept IVF group and continue following all of you amazing ladies!
    Me (42) DH (46)
    Failed tubal reversal in 2011
    Borderline AMH, DOR
    (DH) Low motility
    Expected ER: 9/7/16

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