Pregnant after a Loss

A shy introduction

MeganWordenMeganWorden member
edited June 2016 in Pregnant after a Loss
First I would like to say I have not posted since December and have no idea what my siggy will look like!

Hi, my name is Megan and I am currently pregnant again after 2 miscarriages,  my rainbow baby (DS1 who is 2 1/2) and another mc in December 2015 while trying for a second child. I have been an active member of this group in the past and look forward to sharing support and t&ps for our sticky babies!

I am about 5 and a half weeks now and everything seems to be OK but I am terrified. I know with my logical brain that light cramping is normal in healthly pregnancies but every little twinge gives me flash backs to my last mc. (A fairly traumatic spontaneous Mc at 12 weeks while on vacation, out of state, 3 days after Christmas,  with my in-laws including my sil who is also PG with a dd 2 weeks behind what mine was. Yeah it was a whole sh**storm of terrible) I do not use this term lightly but the only way I can describe my current terror is almost like ptsd. I want to sob all the time and feel like I am on the verge of a breakdown, panic attack every night. I have no idea how to calm my nerves, I feel so helpless. I thought I was emotionally ready to ttcal again but I guess that was wishful thinking.
Anyway, I think I will cut my ranting here, thank you for reading.  Much love and best wishes to you all and I pray we will all get to see our rainbow babies safe in our arms!


  
"Go in peace! I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil." -Gandalf 
m/c #1 01/10/12
BFP #2 01/18/13. EDD 09/10/13. Missed m/c 02/18/13. 
BFP #3 5/1/13 My rainbow DS born 1/13/14
BFP #4 11/11/15 spontaneous m/c 12/28/15
BFP#5  Praying for another rainbow in February!

 

Re: A shy introduction

  • Oh looks like my ziggy is fine, just needs to be updated!

      
    "Go in peace! I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil." -Gandalf 
    m/c #1 01/10/12
    BFP #2 01/18/13. EDD 09/10/13. Missed m/c 02/18/13. 
    BFP #3 5/1/13 My rainbow DS born 1/13/14
    BFP #4 11/11/15 spontaneous m/c 12/28/15
    BFP#5  Praying for another rainbow in February!

     
  • Congrats on your BFP. I'm sorry for your losses. For what it's worth, my ob has always told me (when I start to go crazy with pgal issues) that it can be like having PTSD. That made me feel slightly less crazy. Slightly. Lol I hope you have an uneventful 9 months here!
    BabyFetus Ticker
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  • Hope all goes well!  My wife and I also had 2 mc and had a BFP and are currently 9 wks.  Wishing you an uneventful and Happy Pregnancy!
    Pregnancy Ticker
  • Wow - I am so sorry you've had such a traumatic experience. Congrats on this pregnancy and fx for a healthy baby! 
    TW: MMC
    BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
    BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
    ———
    Diagnoses and Treatments
    PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
    Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
    Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
    ———
    BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
    BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏

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