I'm having a really hard time at the moment. SO is a 4 hour plane ride away, he left last week and returns Friday morning.
I'm a mom of three small girls, was TTC our fourth and last, experienced 3 natural early miscarriages.
Beginning of April I was having BETA lvl tested every 3 days because my # was very inconsistent. Ranging from 100-400, it would rise and drop, rise and drop, and continue to fluctuate. This baffled my OB and myself and we were on a "wait and see" basis.
While walking thru the grocery store Monday morning with my younger two in tow I experienced extreme abdominal pain. I had experienced this before over the weekend but the pain would go away within an hour and I just figured it was natural miscarriage symptoms.
This was growing in pain and nothing would ease up. For those who are curious, it felt like being in the throws of labor, or like period cramps x 1000.
I went to the ER, where doctors discovered internal bleeding due to a ruptured ectopic pregnancy in my left fallopian tube. I was rushed into surgery where I had the left tube removed.
The hardest part for me is that I was still holding on to hope that it was still a viable pregnancy. Everyone, even my OB, kept saying "so and so had beta numbers like that and they ended up having a healthy baby."
And then to have the loss, the emergency surgery, and be put into the labor and delivery unit to recover, of all places! In addition to my SO being away... I feel just so sad and alone.
Ruptured Ectopic M/C-2016