We are now 20 weeks (suffered 40 week stillbirth in Oct). I am having a hard time between feeling excited/happy to scared/nervous. I want to tell everybody we are expecting but also want to tell no one. I wish I could do away with the sadness and anxiety and let it roll freely out of my mouth. But as we know, there are no promises. About 90% of our closest friends and family do not know. I don't expect any of them to understand if or when we tell them, why we waited so long. Are any of you holding out on sharing the news?