Last Saturday I found out I was pregnant after having a miscarriage in December. I was excited but also so terrified of the possibility of having another miscarriage. Sadly, I started bleeding heavily yesterday with the most painful cramps. It would be classified a chemical pregnancy, but it is still a very painful and very real miscarriage. I never went to see the doctor. I was only 4W5D according to my lmp. I am so heartbroken and I cannot believe that I had another miscarriage. I really thought that this pregnancy was going to be the one. I don't have children, and I am 25, so I'm freaking out that now there is something wrong and that I won't ever be able to carry a child. We are going to wait a cycle, maybe more to start trying again. I am just so scared and don't even want to think about getting pregnant again...ever. The loss just hurts so much and is too painful. Just as I was healing from my first miscarriage, I get hit with another.
Only a few people know about either miscarriages and I just feel so alone, even more than I did before. The pain isn't as bad as the first time, but I still wish I had the support I needed. I don't get it from my husband unfortunately. I don't know how he even feels. He said he's sad, but he acts like he doesn't even give a shit that this happened. I told him I needed some kind of reaction and he just says that he doesn't know what to say. It makes me so angry. Idk what to do.
When we try again, if I have a 3rd loss I'll push getting blood tests done. Right now I'm just seeing it as bad luck partially. That's what I'm hoping anyway.
Thank you all for your support now, and for the support you have offered before. I am so sorry for all of your losses and I hope we all get our rainbow babies soon.