Okay. I need to preface this with the fact that I love my husband and he is wonderful. He and I have struggled since baby, because of normal things. But today I'm feeling the need to rant and its long and annoying.
Recently ive been thinking/talking about/wrestling with the decision to switch to all formula. I can't nurse at all except in the middle of the night when DS is asleep because of nipple confusion (didn't know it was a thing and Doctor told me to bottle feed before 2 weeks, thanks a lot) so I've been pumping. But it's hard and I never have been able to pump enough to keep up with my very hungry baby.
Anyway on top of that, DS still wakes up every 2.5 to 3 hours (at best) at night and I'm beyond exhausted. I get up at 5:30 to go to work and get to bed early enough that my mom is te one putting baby to bed and I hate it, but I need the sleep. Well I mentioned trying to move DS into his own room so that every little grunt wouldn't wake me and my husband's response was "I think it's a little too close to our decision not to breastfeed to make any calls". Now yes, we talked through much of my decision together, but since I'm the one with the boobs and I'm the one waking up all night, why does it get to be *our* decision? Then he said that he would take the baby at night and sleep downstairs so I could sleep because I'm "so unhappy without sleep". But then I wouldn't be doing anything. Not getting baby up, not getting him dressed, not putting him to bed, not getting up with him at night, not feeding him. And I can't handle that. So now he thinks I'm not respecting his authority because I won't just let him take over.
I guess what I'm saying is... Eff that noise. I get to be exhausted and weepy and I get to make sacrifices and decisions that he has to respect because I'm mom. Right?