Intro ( losses mentioned)

mrskimm09

Hello. 

I was on this board a few years ago and it seemed to help me out a lot. I have a skin condition that prevents me from having boys (about 75% chance in a miscarriage). That didn't matter to me or my husband. We just wanted to have children. We got married Feb 2009 and immediately started trying after that. I got pregnant the following Feb around our one year anniversary. We were so excited! Our world crashed down and we lost our first ever child at 22 weeks (he measured 18 weeks). I had to be induced. No one should ever go through that and not be able to bring there baby home. After a long recovery process and lots of support from family, friends and this board we were ready to try again. We thought positively and prayed and our prayers were answered! I got pregnant in March of 2011 and found out it was another boy. I was immediately put on high risk and had weekly ultrasounds. December we welcomed our HEALTHY baby boy!!! He just turned 4. We thought for a while we were content and we would be a one child family. Then, of course, baby fever kicked in high gear and we wanted another baby and quick. I got pregnant in June of 2015 and we were cautiously optimistic. We had the newer bloodwork done to find out the sex around 10 weeks. Another boy. Sadly, another miscarriage with another induction at 15 weeks (measuring 14 weeks). We gave each other 2 months to try naturally and if that didn't work we would apply for a grant for IVF focusing on PGS. The grant would pay for everything accept the PGS (genetic) testing. However, the grant application doesn't open until April so we figured it would take a few months of trying since in the past the getting pregnant part wasn't too much of an issue. 2 months, tons of negative tests. I started to feel depressed. We are now just waiting for the grant to open and not actively try. My husband called me out on it recently, but not in a mean way at all. We had a heart to heart and he stated I should reach out to this board again since it helped so much with our first loss. So here I am.... sorry for rambling. Thanks for reading. 

Wishilivedinflorida

I can't imagine the pain you have endured. I'm so sorry for your losses. I hope everything with the grant works out for you so you can have another take home baby. Hugs!

fivetimesnoluck

I am sorry for your losses. We're here. And available to listen. This board and the TTCAL board are full of support. Vent away!

zrain

I'm so sorry for your losses. I definitely understand needing a place to reach out for support from others who have also experienced loss. Feel free to join in on the TTCAL board as well if you feel up for it, even if you're not trying right now. I hope you can find the support you need during this difficult time, and I hope you get your grant. *hugs to you*

mrskimm09

Thanks everyone for the support!! It means a lot.