Any other FTMs just freaked out in general about having a kid and life changes?!? I'm happy and the pregnancy was wanted but as February approaches I'm just really scared. I'm afraid my life is about to be over and I'm only going to be living for them. I'm scared because I just left my job to finish renovations to make room this last month and I hate that loss of independence. I'm scared that since I suffer from depression he will have depression and that's my fault. I know these are all selfish thoughts but it might be my last time to be selfish? Am I alone? STMs were you scared with your firsts?