I was 19 weeks pregnant with identical twin boys. First ever (surprise!) pregnancy. I wasn't even supposed to be able to get pregnant due to childhood cancer.
I had a placental abruption. Lost both twins. Still had to birth them in the hospital. Worst experience ever.
I was showing quite a bit at the time. It was obvious I was pregnant. It's obvious I'm not now. Most people close to me and co-workers know I lost the babies, I obviously had to call in sick to work for a few days for the induced labor and a blood transfusion, and my manager of course told everyone...but why is everyone acting like nothing happened?? It's as if they never existed. Why?
My partner is on the other side of the world for work. He is wonderful, but I still am hurting and am dying for some comfort. I don't want to be total doom and gloom or be coddled, but I've been through hell in the past week. I just don't understand why people that like and care about me are pretending that everything is just fine. Some people won't even look at me. Really?!
I work in surgery. My first day back at work, four days after delivering them, my manager assigned me to a D&C and acted like I was crazy when I quietly asked to do something else.
Anyone else go through this? Does EVERYONE go through this?
If someone would just look at me and smile, that honestly would be enough. But have I done something "wrong" in their eyes or something? I just don't get it.