TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
Trying to Get Pregnant
NamelessAria
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I've returned *TW: MC/loss*
NamelessAria
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As many of you know I was fairly active on this forum for a couple of months until I got my BFP Oct. 16th. DH and I had been "trying" since January 2015 and really trying hard with all the temping, charting, OPKs, BDing even when we're exhausted and not in the mood etc. since August. I very much enjoyed my time here with all you wonderful ladies and you all helped keep me sane. I was even a little sad to leave when it came time to join my BMB although I would have 100% preferred to just have all of you join me over on the BMB 
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As time went on I got to see several of the ladies I'd become somewhat familiar with from the TTC boards over on the BMB and it was all very exciting. I started to suspect something was wrong when I realized I wasn't having any of the symptoms everyone else was having. I was exhausted all the time and had a decent amount of crampy "growing pains" but that was about it. I kept trying to tell myself everything was fine and not to worry. Maybe I was one of those lucky unicorns that has a 100% healthy pregnancy without all the yucky symptoms. I knew from my time here you shouldn't really consider yourself a unicorn though so I tried to prepare myself as much as I could for something possibly going wrong while trying to stay cautiously optimistic. At 6+3 I started having period-like pains with spotting and just knew. I had a complete spontaneous abortion (natural MC) over the weekend and here I am.
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I can't really say I'm 100% ready to start trying again just yet. I have to at least wait for my hCG levels to finish falling to pre-pregnancy levels. My doctor told me to expect that to take a week or 2. I'm going to have it checked just before Thanksgiving to confirm it went back down. My doctor told me as soon as my levels finish falling I can start trying again if DH and I feel ready. We've talked about it and have decided it's what we would like we do. Neither of us feel like waiting to try will help us any with our grief over our loss. We both also very much want a take-home rainbow baby; now more than ever. I think maybe before our BFP having a baby was more something we wanted in theory but it still seemed like a distant possibility. After our BFP suddenly it was something very real and we realized just how much we'd wanted it. We realized just how exciting and wonderful the whole thing really is when it's more than just an idea or a plan for the future.
I think TTC will be a bit different for us this time. DH is now completely on board with all the temping, charting, OPKs and all the other nonsense that goes into putting in a good TTC effort. It was a little strange for me before to be doing all that and trying to hide it from DH so I didn't make him uncomfortable or put unneeded pressure on him. I'm hoping having him on board with everything will make me feel slightly less crazy.)
I won't lie and say I'm totally and completely happy to be back here. Not because you ladies aren't lovely (because you are!) but because I was hoping I'd have a year or 2 before I was backing here trying for #2. However, if I have to do this whole TTC thing again so soon this is absolutely where I'd want to be to do it.
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As time went on I got to see several of the ladies I'd become somewhat familiar with from the TTC boards over on the BMB and it was all very exciting. I started to suspect something was wrong when I realized I wasn't having any of the symptoms everyone else was having. I was exhausted all the time and had a decent amount of crampy "growing pains" but that was about it. I kept trying to tell myself everything was fine and not to worry. Maybe I was one of those lucky unicorns that has a 100% healthy pregnancy without all the yucky symptoms. I knew from my time here you shouldn't really consider yourself a unicorn though so I tried to prepare myself as much as I could for something possibly going wrong while trying to stay cautiously optimistic. At 6+3 I started having period-like pains with spotting and just knew. I had a complete spontaneous abortion (natural MC) over the weekend and here I am.
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I can't really say I'm 100% ready to start trying again just yet. I have to at least wait for my hCG levels to finish falling to pre-pregnancy levels. My doctor told me to expect that to take a week or 2. I'm going to have it checked just before Thanksgiving to confirm it went back down. My doctor told me as soon as my levels finish falling I can start trying again if DH and I feel ready. We've talked about it and have decided it's what we would like we do. Neither of us feel like waiting to try will help us any with our grief over our loss. We both also very much want a take-home rainbow baby; now more than ever. I think maybe before our BFP having a baby was more something we wanted in theory but it still seemed like a distant possibility. After our BFP suddenly it was something very real and we realized just how much we'd wanted it. We realized just how exciting and wonderful the whole thing really is when it's more than just an idea or a plan for the future.
I think TTC will be a bit different for us this time. DH is now completely on board with all the temping, charting, OPKs and all the other nonsense that goes into putting in a good TTC effort. It was a little strange for me before to be doing all that and trying to hide it from DH so I didn't make him uncomfortable or put unneeded pressure on him. I'm hoping having him on board with everything will make me feel slightly less crazy.
) I won't lie and say I'm totally and completely happy to be back here. Not because you ladies aren't lovely (because you are!) but because I was hoping I'd have a year or 2 before I was backing here trying for #2. However, if I have to do this whole TTC thing again so soon this is absolutely where I'd want to be to do it.
Me: 28 Husband: 31
TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
Re: I've returned *TW: MC/loss*
LFAF April Siggy: TV/Movie BFFs
BFP #4 1/2016, DD born 10/2016
All the creepy internet hugs coming your way.
IUI August 2016 : Cancelled due to polyp
September 2016: Polyp removal/hysteroscopy
October 2016: IUI #1- BFN
November 2016: IUI #2- BFN
December 2016: IUI #3 - BFN
January/February 2017 - IVF + ICSI + PGD
March 2017 - FET
(Hugs)
Take your time, but we are here whenever you're ready to jump back in.
RE Dx-Unexplained IF: 06/2015
BFP #3: 03/11/16 - CP
BFP #4: 04/09/16 - DD born 12/2016
ntnp #2 . summer 2018
*siggy warning*
ttc#1 . jul 2015
mmc . mar 2016 | 6w2d
dx PCOS (non-IR) / subclinical hypothyroidism . summer 2016
tx metformin, levothyroxine, LP progesterone, femara + trigger + ti . fall/winter 2016
BFP! . jan 2017
DD . oct 2017
Married May 2014
TTC Nov 2014-Aug 2016
Aug 2015 Dx: Thyroid Cancer and Hashimotos
Total Thyroidectomy October 2015
Ovarian Cystectomy Nov 2015
CANCER FREE and resumed TTC Dec 2015.
MFI (High DNA Fragmentation) & Mild endometriosis
Aug 2016 - May 2017 6 IUI's with letrozole - BFN
April 2017 - laparoscopy to remove mild endo
June 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU - Cancelled early ovulation, no eggs retrieved.
Aug/Sept 2017 - Mini IVF letrozole 12.5mg, Gonal-F 75IU, cetrotide - 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature
5 eggs ICSI'd 6 eggs frozen - 1 day 5 blast transfered, 2 expanded blast frozen - BFP!
May 2018 - Baby girl born - Our Joy
TTC #2 since July 2019
July 2019 - FET - BFN
Jan 2020 - FET - canceled due to family health issues
Mar 2020 - FET - low beta - chemical pregnancy
July 2020 - ICSI'd remaining 6 eggs - 3 fertilized - 2 survived to early blast stage, transfered both - Chemical Pregnancy
@AlwaysAuntNeverMom aw I can definitely understand needing to take some time. Hopefully you get your BFP for your rainbow baby soon after whenever you and your DH decide y'all are ready for all that again. It would be nice if we could end up back on a BMB together and actually get to stay the whole 9 months (or I guess 8 months since 1 month is here). And I really hope we're the last ones to leave also!
@ReesaAnne16 Seeing all the posts from returning ladies is definitely sad. I was hoping I'd be one of the only ones coming back. I guess with all the BFPs that happened in September and October there was bound to be several people returning but it doesn't make it any easier to see. Hopefully I'll be the last to return for awhile.
TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
Married to my Soul Mate since 09/06/09
Married: July 2015
BFP: 5/20/16 | EDD: 1/28/17 | Twin boys born 1/16/17
TTC since January 2015
3/15/2015 BFP!
4/15/2015 MMC
2/25/2016 BFP! Hoping for the best!
BFP#1 & MC:August 2015 BFP: #2 10/01/2015 MC: 10/09/2015 BFP #3: 12/22/2015 @ 5 weeks MC/CP: 12-23-2015
Fertility Appointment: Feb 23/16, Hysteroscopy 03/02/2016,
BFP #4: 03/31/16 EDD 12/01/2016
TEAM: PINK!!
Me: 30 | DH: 34 | DSS: 14 | DS: 4
PG #2, EDD 10/12/2023
TTC #2: April 2018 ~~ BFP: May 2018 ~~ EDD: January 2019
ttc July 2015 ~ bfp Nov 2015 (cp)
bfp Dec 2015 ~ (tfmr 17wk, March 2016, genetic disease)
ttcal May 2016
3/2015: Start TTC
8/2015: PCOS Dx
4/2016: BFP, Loss (4+5)
2/2017: BFP
Honorable mentions: Biggest IF support sister, sweetest bumpie, most genuine, LFAFer you'd most like to visit, great things come in small packages, pocket sized babe