My husband and I have wanted a baby for a long time, but we wanted to wait for the right time- after I finished grad school and started working. We were SO excited when we found out I was pregnant last month. We told our immediate family and close friends as soon as we got the positive pregnancy test. We were making plans, picking out names, and have even started on a nursery. I went in for my first ultrasound a week and a half ago, and they saw a gestational sac but no embryo. They said I was measuring more like 5 weeks, when I thought I was 7 weeks already. They asked me to come back in a week or two to check how the embryo was growing. I tried to hope for the best, but I felt very strongly that my baby was not growing anymore. Initially, I had a lot of pregnancy symptoms: morning sickness, severe fatigue, sore breasts, bloating, etc. The last 3-4 days those symptoms have greatly reduced. This weekend I was feeling pretty awesome actually, not tired, not hungry all the time. It was a great weekend but in the back of my mind I worried about the reduction in symptoms. Then I started spotting yesterday and tried to prepare myself that I would be getting bad news at my doctor's appointment. I went to the doctor today and the sac looked exactly the same as before: measured 5 weeks, no embryo. As much as I had tried to prepare myself for that outcome, seeing the ultrasound and hearing the doctor's words completely devastated me. They want me to have more bloodwork done to confirm that my hormone levels are dropping before deciding on a miscarriage route. Honestly, I don't think I'll need a D&C or medication, the rest of the day today I've bled more heavily with clots visible in it. Since I got home from work, I've just been lying in bed crying. I've only told 2 people so far and I ended up bawling and being unable to speak both times. With it being my first pregnancy and being young and healthy, I kind of felt invincible, my pregnancy seemed so low risk. And now it's over before it barely even began. And all our plans are all for naught. The loss of this pregnancy has hit me much harder than I thought it would. My little sister delivered a healthy baby girl last Thursday and I am so happy for her. That seems so far off to me now. I just needed to get all those feelings out in this community of mothers.