Guilty Feelings...

Britz121212

I have guilt - but not the guilt I thought I would feel. I'm currently going through a m/c ... It will be confirmed Tuesday by my doctor, but in my heart I know. I had been spotting since Monday, bleeding by Thursday and steadily Friday and today... I've had an ultra sound that was extremely unclear and I've now done two blood tests... It's been a roller coaster. I've broken down and been inconsolable, I've made "dark humour" jokes, I've hugged my husband and daughter (18 months) extra tight. I've felt the guilt of losing this poppyseed baby.... And I'm sure it's not over. But I have also felt the guilt of hope to try again soon. The guilt of laughing and feeling happy. I'm sure it's part of the process - but I needed to share. I'm sorry to all mommies who experience this tragic loss... Love to you all.

cyntodd

This is all perfectly normal and unfortunately your emotions will be an absolute roller coaster for a while. I am so sorry for your loss.

Newlywed_Amanda

I'm so sorry for your loss, hugs to you. It's normal I think to feel like that. Remember on top of the loss there is the intense change in hormones too.

mrsmommya

I could have written this post myself.  I am currently awaiting (hopefully) a natural miscarriage and am already thinking about how it will be when we start TTC.  I also feel guilty moving on so fast.  I find that one min. I feel normal then another I am bawling like a baby.  I go back and forth trying to understand my own emotions.

DrKariC

I felt the same way - I was planning ttc pretty soon after finding out about my mc. It was tough because I took 3 weeks from when I started bleeding (the first sign I had) to when I finally passed everything, so in that time I was physically sort of stuck but had lots of time to grieve. And now we're ttc, and I feel happy sometimes and I think it's good.

Britz121212

Sending you positive vibes. I had confirmations FINALLY Monday, that I did have a complete natural m/c... We are back at it, hoping it won't take long. I still feel sadness (which is why I am back reading the board)... But I'm still filled with complete hope that things will happen soon and we will conceive again. It's such a roller coaster! Every time I feel like I can just be good, move on, something reminds me of the loss. My husband and I agree, if emotionally we are strong than we have no option but to move forward. Good luck to you xo