Is it just me or is conception sex the worst? Don't get me wrong, I usually love being with my husband in that aspect. I just hate the whole "we have to do it right now!" bit. "I don't care what kind of mood you are in, we have to do it now!" "I don't care if you are mad (etc) we have to do it now!" "Okay let's get this over with" I hate conception sex or perhaps I should call it TTC sex. It sucks. I hate it when people that find out you are trying are all like well at least you get to have a lot of sex. Yeah, but I wish I didn't have to. I wish I were pregnant. I wish I did not have to schedule sex according to a calendar or chart. It gets tiring month after month after month.
Don't get me wrong, I love my husband, and I love/enjoy being with him in that way when we aren't in TTC mode. When we are in TTC mode I absolutely hate it. It is more of a mental thing really. It's like let's get this over with. And in my mind I'm like I hope it is a positive this month although I'm sure based on previous months that it will be negative. (I'm an eternal pessimist. Every time I get my hopes up something happens to bring them back down. My life experiences have made me that way). I realize I'm probably preaching to the choir. Bottom line TTC sex sucks!
So the plan was I'd get married by the time I turned 30. I got married five months before I turned 30. The other plan was to have a kid or two before I turn 35. I have one more month to try in order to be able to have a kid by the age of 35. Thought I was going to achieve that plan a lot earlier, but a MC took that away.
But anyway I just got that book everyone talks about on here. I can't remember the name of it off the top of my head. I guess I'd better get some reading in before I turn in for the night.