I feel like panicking. How am I going to have a BABY?!?! I did NOT think this through. I am too old to have a baby!! I have no idea how I am going to do this. A million 'what-ifs' are running through my mind.
I had a nightmare last night that someone just plunked a baby in my lap and I wasn't prepared and had no supplies. It just wound up there in my lap crying for a bottle and I was just expected to hit the ground running.
I am already a mother but most of the time I feel like I am just flying by the seat of my pants. Like Im faking it and someday someone is going to clue in that I'm this phony non-mom, the jig will be up and I'll be thrown in the slammer.
I guess I actually AM panicking already. lol. Plus I'm sick...I have a sinus cold and a sore throat. And I didn't accomplish anything today except laying on the couch like a slug. *UGH*