At 10w pregnant, I was just gearing up to tell my parents and close friends when sadly today I unexpectedly had a miscarriage. If the pain wasn't the indication, I went into emergency and they confirmed the loss.
The emotional pain is one thing but the physical is another. I get severe period pain but this is something else. At one point whilst in emergency I actually laughed with the nurse because if I was struggling with this then I will be useless at giving birth.
I'm feeling very emotionally empty though and the physical pain just adds insult to injury. I'm normally the strong one out of my husband and I so when he saw me break down he knew how much this was and will continue to affect me. Really just looking for any kind of support here as I'm not sure what I'm in for... I just want to feel normal again....
Re: The pain of a loss...
My heart goes out to you, I don't have much to offer right now in the way of comforting words, except that I truly understand what you are going through.
If you haven't or aren't planning to tell many people about what happened (we didn't), or even if you do, definitely stay connected on this board. Reading the posts here and all the love and support from these ladies definitely helped me get through things.
And if it is any consolation - my MC at 12w4d was by far worse than my 3 natural/unmedicated childbirths (the emotional aspect does play a big role). The aftermath/recovery was worse as well. Just saying that so that you don't truely doubt your abilities when the time comes. It's good you were able to have a laugh amidst a difficult time though - but I felt the same way when I was in the ER last week.
I hope you get your rainbow baby soon. We will never forget what we have gone through but the intense sadness won't last forever. *hugs*