Super anxious that LO won't turn and that I'll have to have a c-section. Also terrified I won't put what I need in the bag for the hospital, that we're totally unprepared for this baby and that because of the IUGR something will be wrong with the baby.
@dancegurl1118 you know I have expressed feeling terrified about still birth or something going wrong..... Ugh. Part of normal worries and part of not so normal due to occupation..... Bleh.
Just a note that I see so many normal worries on here. Just wanted to validate your feelings, and tell you I share these worries. But also I am telling myself that I need to let go and trust that everything will work out. I've never not had worries hanging over me, so am trying to remember that and remind myself these are mostly happy worries.
I'm at the height of our tough financial period, shifting from my grant year back to real employment. We are floating lots of bills and account transfers to get us through the next three weeks. It should resolve itself by the 18th, when I get a new paycheck, but meantime it is sooo stressful. Eye on the goal - baby + June 18! And by then I will have so many new worries!!
I'm worrying that my HG is creeping back. I've had the best reprieve since 29/30 weeks, and I've been getting horribly weak and sick the past day or so. It feels like I'm back in week 5, only this time, I'm starving and sick.
I also have an irritational fear that I'm going to catch another cold before baby is born, and end up with bronchitis again.
I super worry about stillbirth. I knew two people who within weeks of one another had still born babies. And I don't know very many people with kids so I'm super terrified also I have bp issues and they found protein in my urine last week so now I'm on super pre ecampsia watch. Granted I have life insurance so my dh would be ok. But I don't think I would be ok if something was wrong with lo. I'm both excited to not be pregnant but scared about the whole labor delivery thing. Can I just skip ahead to wake up with her asleep in the pack in play at the end of the bed? Because that would be super.
Mine seems silly, logically, but it's still eating at me. DH promised to quit smoking when we GOT pregnant. I've nagged, asked, cried, nudged, bought him a book on tape about quitting...all to no avail. We're 23 days from EDD now and he's still effing smoking. I used to smoke too, so I get that it's hard to quit, but come on man!! Last time I was in L&D he kept going out for smoke breaks and would come back in smelling like smoke. Drove me bonkers. Luckily I had a good friend with me as my second support/doula. This time it's going to just be DH. I already told him I don't want him leaving for breaks, hoping that will be another clue that you should quit smoking now. No reaction...basically ignored me. I'm seriously going to loose my shit on him if he's smells like smoke anywhere near me or the baby, and then I will a) be delivering by myself and b) have an irritable husband. I'm going to suggest a vape pin as the very last option, but I don't even like the idea of not knowing what chemicals are in those. It's better than him smelling like an ashtray at this point though. ~X(
My anxiety is similar to the ones posted above, worrying about baby arriving healthy and happy.
I had a few scares beginning at 31 weeks, and an incident last week where I ended up in triage. The doctors were concerned, but unable to determine what was happening. One doctor asked that I be quick to return to the hospital things started up again and mention the bleeding I was experiencing could potentially be from a tear in the placenta...which I never should have fricken googled. Now it's always in the back of my head that baby might not be getting what he needs, and that makes every ounce of my heart hurt.
Fortunately though it let up and hasn't come back, I'm thankful for that. Prayer is probably what is keeping me from a meltdown. So far, everything we've been cautioned about throughout this pregnancy (and before) we've overcome, so I keep focusing on that.
Although I don't want baby arriving any sooner than he's ready, I can't wait for him to be in our arms and have the doctors assuring us everything is well.
My dream last night involved me going into labor and not being able to reach DH, then DS being born with tentacles for arms, people swarmed LnD wanting to see him.
It was a hot mess, but it contained my three fears. 1. DH wouldn't take my call. 2. Something be wrong with my son. and 3. People not respecting my wishes on visitation after he's here. Just remembering the dream freaks me out.
Mine seems silly, logically, but it's still eating at me. DH promised to quit smoking when we GOT pregnant. I've nagged, asked, cried, nudged, bought him a book on tape about quitting...all to no avail. We're 23 days from EDD now and he's still effing smoking. I used to smoke too, so I get that it's hard to quit, but come on man!! Last time I was in L&D he kept going out for smoke breaks and would come back in smelling like smoke. Drove me bonkers. Luckily I had a good friend with me as my second support/doula. This time it's going to just be DH. I already told him I don't want him leaving for breaks, hoping that will be another clue that you should quit smoking now. No reaction...basically ignored me. I'm seriously going to loose my shit on him if he's smells like smoke anywhere near me or the baby, and then I will a) be delivering by myself and b) have an irritable husband. I'm going to suggest a vape pin as the very last option, but I don't even like the idea of not knowing what chemicals are in those. It's better than him smelling like an ashtray at this point though. ~X(
@lovethatcolosun, I don't think your feelings are silly at all. I'd feel the same way and I might be even less patient than you (I've never smoked). You have very valid points/concerns. I wouldn't want my husband taking smoke breaks during labor. I can't imagine the extra difficulty you may have with him still smoking considering you used to smoke.
Not an anxiety of mine because I'm team green but someone just posted their birth announcement on May that they were told they were having a girl and she had a boy....ohhhh man.
TTC: 1/2014
BFP: 9/24
EDD: 6/8/2015
Sorry for the poor man's siggy...ticker won't load regardless of how many tips I read.
@enigmaticjj thanks for the support. I have no desire to smoke. It's actually quite the opposite where I cannot stand the smell now. He has to spray himself with febreeze every time he smokes because it makes me sick. It's seriously the biggest pet peeve I have right now and has been the root of so many fights. I hope with everything in my heart that something will click and he will finally quit for good.
Re: New worries and anxiety for the week.
Ugh. Part of normal worries and part of not so normal due to occupation..... Bleh.
I've never not had worries hanging over me, so am trying to remember that and remind myself these are mostly happy worries.
I'm at the height of our tough financial period, shifting from my grant year back to real employment. We are floating lots of bills and account transfers to get us through the next three weeks. It should resolve itself by the 18th, when I get a new paycheck, but meantime it is sooo stressful. Eye on the goal - baby + June 18! And by then I will have so many new worries!!
I also have an irritational fear that I'm going to catch another cold before baby is born, and end up with bronchitis again.
I need a time out.
I had a few scares beginning at 31 weeks, and an incident last week where I ended up in triage. The doctors were concerned, but unable to determine what was happening. One doctor asked that I be quick to return to the hospital things started up again and mention the bleeding I was experiencing could potentially be from a tear in the placenta...which I never should have fricken googled. Now it's always in the back of my head that baby might not be getting what he needs, and that makes every ounce of my heart hurt.
Fortunately though it let up and hasn't come back, I'm thankful for that. Prayer is probably what is keeping me from a meltdown. So far, everything we've been cautioned about throughout this pregnancy (and before) we've overcome, so I keep focusing on that.
Although I don't want baby arriving any sooner than he's ready, I can't wait for him to be in our arms and have the doctors assuring us everything is well.
My dream last night involved me going into labor and not being able to reach DH, then DS being born with tentacles for arms, people swarmed LnD wanting to see him.
It was a hot mess, but it contained my three fears. 1. DH wouldn't take my call. 2. Something be wrong with my son. and 3. People not respecting my wishes on visitation after he's here. Just remembering the dream freaks me out.