I went to the er at 3 am Sunday morning and discovered I could be headed for a miscarriage. This morning I woke up, and knew it was happening. All the emotions are so raw right now, I think I'm still in some kind of denial phase. I made it to 10 weeks, so I thought this pregnancy was going to make it. My 3 other miscarriages happened super early on, just a few days after missing my period so I didn't have the chance to feel excited about a new baby. My DH doesn't want to talk about it, I understand he's dealing with this in his own way, but I need to talk about it. Some moments I'm fine and others I can't hold it together. I had to go to the store and the first thing I see when I walk in is a pregnant woman. I lost it and went straight to the restroom as quickly as possible. I know it's going to be a while before I'm okay with it all. Glad I have a place to go to let things off my chest especially since no one besides my DH and our oldest daughter knew about the pregnancy.
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I'm so so sorry that DH doesn't want to talk things out with you. Hopefully you'll feel that this is a place that you can come and get the support that you need. (((Hugs)))
Again, I am so sorry for your loss!
As far as hubby, my hubby is doing the same thing this time. Our previous loss he grieved right along side me, but this time I honestly can't tell if he is grieving or not because he doesn't show it and won't talk about it... I give him the benefit of the doubt that he is, in his own way, but I get what you are saying completely. I think before a certain point, like when they feel the baby kick for example, the baby is an abstract idea to men. We feel pregnant, we bond in a way men just can't before that point. So, while it may still hurt them, I don't think it hurts them in the same way as us. This is all speculation, of course, but it seems to be the case for my hubby. Like I said, last time he grieved right along side me.... but I was halfway through my preg that time and he got to feel him kick and such. This time, not so much, but I didn't even make it to 8 weeks.
I hope something I said helps. Just know that you aren't alone. ((HUGS))
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