I am a ftm just turned 24 and a whim when it comes to pain. However my greatest fear ever is needles. All of the needles I've been having this entire pregnancy have not eased the fears or really worked up that I get when it's coming. I think that I am better off without the epidural, only because how tense I get could really create problems in my spine. Doc says I'll be fine.. however he clearly has never pushed anything out.. Just a topic for discussion , I cried today because I scared myself he has to come out somehow and I'm way to young and healthy to be sliced open by choice (just my opinion). Kind of wondering will I enjoy him as soon as he comes out if I don't get the epidural or will it be with the epidural I'll be drugged up and miss the experience of him at first sight.