8 week ultrasound later today and I'm so nervous

LittleRocket

Hello! I'm so happy to have found this board. I'm happy to say I had a good 6 week ultrasound after 2 years if trying and ivf. We were so lucky to hear the heartbeat and see a fetal pole at the 6 week ultrasound. The doctor, however, told me that I'm still in a "very precarious" time and we can't determine viability until the 8 week ultrasound, which is today. I know my chances are better because the 6 week was good, but I'm still so nervous that I had a panic attack this morning & couldn't go to work. I don't really have a question, I'm just feeling lucky to have found a forum to share this. Thanks for being here.

Justone13

That is perfectly normal to have that feeling. I'm 15w and I still get nervous. It's IF brain. Stay positive. Sending good vibes your way!

MiromiM

I understand. I went through a similar situation (6 weeks heart beat and fetal pole) and then my 8 week ultrasound. Try to stay positive although I know how hard it can be. Having a heart beat and a fetal pole is a great sign! Best of luck!

gsancho

Once you see a strong HB & fetal pole and see the baby growing on track, there is reason to be much more optimistic.  Of course, with IF brain, we'll still always worry.  I think I still get nervous before each and every OB appointment and ultrasound!  Good luck!

LittleRocket

Thank you so much for your support. I'm really really glad to have found this forum. Everyone else just seems so chill and I just can't be.

Anyway, I'm really happy to say the ultrasound went well! The doctor saw normal progression of growth (8 weeks 6 days from 6 weeks 1 day in just 2 weeks, but there is a 3 day margin of error) and a strong heart rate (179).

I wish I could say that I'm ecstatic, but really I'm just exhausted and feeling like I've dodged a bullet for now. I guess that's IF brain.

They released me from their care and now I'll go to the "normal" doctor in 2 weeks, which is strange, but I know it's really good. They were all very sweet and I cried (which seems to be all I'm doing today).

Thank you all again!

gsancho

Yay for a great u/s!

Justone13

Great news!! It was hard for me (and most IF women) to go from the constant appts and checks at the re office to the normal ob. My ob knows everything we went through because he's good friends with my re. I hope you have a good experience at your first appt too!

LittleRocket

Thank you so much!

Julie21613

Congratulations!  IF brain doesn't go away....it does get better the further along you get.... but I never completely felt at ease until DD was born......and I'm going through the same feelings now.  Again, Congratulations & welcome!

lawmom747

Welcome and congrats on the great ultrasound! I am with PP - IF brain can haunt you through the whole pregnancy. But you are in the right place to talk as soon many of us have the same worries.

LittleRocket

Thank you again. It really is nerve wracking! I just am appreciating this community a lot right now!

iheartpancake

I am almost 28 weeks and still freak out at every appointment!! Personally, the stress before an appointment never gets better, but the day to day stress has eased up a bit. Infertility convinces you that this can't be real or it just can't go right... But it can! Just try to listen to your doctor and body as much as possible . Infertility brain is the absolute pits!

CML11

IF brain sucks!!! I get nervous if I don't throw up or feel nauseous, how stupid is that?! Every appointment there's a part of me that thinks this is where they tell me bad news. It's so not like me to be a pessimist, I've always been so optimistic! I leave every doctor's appointment amazed that things are perfect.
It all seems too good to be true after so many years and failures!

iheartpancake

I can't use the bathroom at night without a light on because I'm still scared to death I'm just going to start randomly bleeding and something horrible is going to happen. I'm 28 weeks for crying out loud! I am a very optimistic person as well, but dealing with infertility has made me a self-proclaimed realist. Even when the doctors tell me everything is perfectly fine I still prepare myself for the worst. I guess our minds will just be put at ease when the little ones get here

LittleRocket

When I went in for my 8 week, my doc asked how I was feeling, & when I told him "nervous" he looked so shocked and asked why. I wonder if it's typical for doctors to not understand IF brain. He's nice enough, but he was certainly not thinking my nerves were typical. I'm going through the same thing of bring scared if I go an hour without me nauseated. My poor husband is nervous too. The other day I sneezed and it was bloody and when I said "there's so much blood" he came running from across the house freaking out, thinking there was something wrong with the baby. But, this has eased up a bit compared to how much of a wreck I was for the first four weeks, and hopefully I'll continue to mellow out if I continue to get good ultrasounds. I'm thinking about getting a Doppler to hear the heartbeat, though I know some people have had a bad experience with them, so I'm not sure.