I didn't know where to go with this.
Exactly one year after my miscarriage I took a home pregnancy test to find it was positive. I'm happy to have new life growing inside me. Yet, just as big as the excitement and happiness is fear so big it is staggering. Every twinge I'm terrified will lead to the horrid cramps, spotting, and then... well all the rest that goes with loosing a baby. I study the toilet paper for any signs of pink tinges. I'm paranoid of bumping my stomach or lifting anything awkward. I don't know if what I am going through is normal. I don't even know how far along I am. I don't know how much longer I have before I'm in 'the clear'. I have an ultrasound on the 19th to determine how far along I am. I just cannot go through another loss.