EDD of loss tomorrow

CreechMommy

our due date for our angel is tomorrow. New Year's Day. As I approach it I'm feeling strangely non emotional. Maybe it's because I realize i could have delivered our baby on any day leading up to or following the 1st. Just because it's our EDD doesn't necessarily mean anything. I had planned on lighting a special sparkler with MH and remembering her. But I find myself staying at my parents with MH and our furbaby. My dad and husband are watching football and I'm helping my mom cook for my dad's birthday party tomorrow. I will drink sparkling cider at midnight while my family has champagne.
And I'm ok with not having a special ceremony for our angel. And I feel bad for that too. Am I already forgetting her? Or am I just accepting it and coming to a healthy place?

MrsSnyder124

It sounds like you are in a happier place and feeling at peace . I will be thinking of you tomorrow .

sandj918

I'm so sorry for your loss. I agree that it sounds like you're moving through the grief process and are at a healthy place. Doing things out of guilt is never good. You'll never forget your daughter and it may hit you differently at different times. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

littlecookie

Ill be thinking of you tomorrow. You're talking about her now so you have most definitely not forgotten her. You don't have to have a ceremony to have her on your heart and mind.

jap618

Just lots of (((hugs))) whatever you are feeling is normal. Very person's journey through their losses is going to be different so try not to compare your emotions to others. I'm thinking of you today and hope today is peaceful for you ♡

mkfish31

Sending lots of hugs!

rslh10

*lurking*

((Hugs)) to you. I'm thinking of you today.

tigerlynx31413

Thinking of you today!

BethKate2

((hugs))

For me, I found that my EDD was much easier to handle than when I hit the anniversaries of when I got my BFP and had my loss. Since I wasn't pregnant again yet, those days were much harder to handle for me.

Thinking of you today. I'm glad you're feeling at peace.

heathersf11

I'm glad you are in a better place than you expected. (((Hugs)))

CreechMommy

Thanks ladies

kate6214

It's normal to be at peace with it. My second EDD was not nearly as emotional for me as my first. It doesn't mean I loved my scone angel less. I think I was just more prepared for it. (((Hugs))) thinking about your little one today.

peggels24

((hugs))

mingaling2

{Hugs}. You are not forgetting her - you will never forget her. My EDD was the same with Coraline. To me her stillbirth day was the day that was most significant in my heart, so her EDD was bittersweet but not as tearful. 

You'll never forget her - you're just healing. Thinking of your little one. 

mrsjg2013

Thinking of you today.  It is clear that your precious little one is remembered and loved every single day- the EDD is just another one of those days, and this particular day it's perfect for you to think back on the time she spent with you lovingly and peacefully.

smcniff

My EDD was this past July 4th.  I had all sorts of grand plans, but when it came down to it, I found that I was happier just enjoying the day with my friends.  Most of them didn't know about my loss and I had less time to dwell on what could have been. 

mpiemont

Sending hugs. I think no matter what you do on this day, it's OK. I know mine is approaching and I don't plan on doing anything different/special, but I'm sure it will be on my mind. I hope you had a good New Year's day

jms627

Thinking of you, @Creechmommy!  You aren't forgetting her - the fact that you're even wondering is proof of that.  There's absolutely no reason to feel badly about that.

CreechMommy

Thanks. It was a great day with family. I saw everyone I loved and celebrated my dads birthday. It was a lovely day. The only mention of our angel was a quiet moment in a room with just my husband. I looked at him and said you know this was my due date right? He just nodded and put his arm around me and said "I know. Are you ok?" And I nodded and we just hugged for a while and both teared up a bit.
She was def on my mind but I was happy the day was spent with my loved ones and I'm thankful for the little baby growing in my belly. Her sibling.