Hi ladies, I just need to vent for a minute. I thought I was in a better place now than I was right after my MC in October, but tonight, I had not one, but TWO of my closest girlfriends call me at different times to tell me that they're pregnant and I completely broke down. I know that it's just a weird coincidence, but it just seems like the universe is ganging up on me. I've basically been crying for the last hour, trying to remind myself that them being pregnant has no influence on whether I can get pregnant or not, but it's just such a kick in the gut. I'm so ready for 2014 to be over. Anyways, just needed to vent. Thank you ladies!
Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010 08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN , 10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN 04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d 05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN 03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C 4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies 7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS. 9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d 10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN 2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d 3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15 6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen 2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN 3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
Wow - one in a night is a kick in the gut...two in one night is getting the $h!t kicked out of you, I'm so sorry sweetie. I cry every time I get one of thosr calls.
Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010 08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN , 10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN 04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d 05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN 03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C 4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies 7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS. 9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d 10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN 2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d 3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15 6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen 2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN 3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
I'm so sorry you're having a bad night. Sending you lots and lots of ((hugs))!! Only a few more days to go for 2014.
Married: 9/25/10 TTC # 1 since 5/2013 BFP # 1: 2/7/14, mmc 3/12/14, D&C 3/19/14 Boy, Trisomy 13, Karyotyping and Genetic Testing all normal Hysteroscopy and D&C 6/2/14, retained tissue Off the bench 7/14 BFP # 2: 10/3/14, Blighted ovum, D&C 11/12/14 Girl, no chromosomal abnormalities detected RPL Testing: Pre-diabetic, ANA+ "I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) I am never without it." - e.e. cummings
I havent dealt with this yet but honestly just seeing some of the groups of people I know from here moving onto pgal can sometimes be a kick in the gut...of course im always happy for them but sometimes it kinda hurts to see so many others moving on..especially on cd1...so I can imagine its even more conflicting/painful when it's people you are close to! So sorry you are dealing with this!!many hugs
TTC since August 2013
BFP #1 1/15/14...MMC 2/24/14...D&C 3/3/14
BFP #2 5/11/14 ... severe pre-e placental abruption our angel born sleeping at 22 weeks
We met in middle school. We got married 15 years later in a February blizzard of 2010.
TTC since February 2010 Diagnosed with Lyme Disease June 2010 Diagnosed with PCOS March 2011 Diagnosed with Celiac Disease January 2013 BFP #1: August 25th 2013 EDD May 4th 2014 SCH MC October 3rd 2013 BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014 Naked push-up foreplay pioneer
Oh my gosh love!!! I'm so sorry!! I just wish I could give you RL ((((hugs)))) and drink a couple bottle of wine with you! If you need to vent or anything I'm a PM away!! Xoxoxo
Me: 38 DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant DH: 34 MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012 IVF w/ICSI #1 10 little polar bears FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!! Beta 1= 276 Beta 2= 662 4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel 5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel 5/3/14 ~ D&C FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014 October 13, 2014 ~ BFN Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL Animals Interacting with Snow
Many (((hugs))) I repeat this like a broken record but the best advice I've been given about grief is that I'm allowed to be inconsistent. Meaning, if I'm having "good" days for awhile but then break down and fall apart, it's ok. It doesn't take away from the healing I've been doing I have 2 friends that are now pregnant for the 3rd time together(one is pregnant with her 4th&5th). Needless to say, I've been through pregnancy announcements repeatedly with them but still lost my shit for an hour or two when I found out
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012) All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!! Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized. Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
Me: 31 DH: 36 Dated Since ‘02, Married in ‘06 BFP#1 05/16/06, EDD01/16/07, MC 06/12/06 at 8 weeks BFP #2 08/14/14, EDD 04/22/15, MC 09/17/14 at 9 weeks
I'm so very sorry honey! I hope that you are feeling a bit stronger today. Know that we are here for you. ((((((HUGS))))))
TTC #3 since 8/2012 DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010 BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013 BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014 My charthereAll ALers welcome!
Thank you so much for all the love ladies. I'm feeling a little better today, though still not great...in just trying to push it to the back of my mind as much as I can. Don't know what I would do without you!
Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010 08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN , 10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN 04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d 05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN 03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C 4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies 7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS. 9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d 10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN 2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d 3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15 6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen 2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN 3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
Re: AW: Falling apart tonight
DD 15.07.2012
BFP #2 01.18.2014, MMC 04.10.2014 15w5d
BFP #3 07.18.2014, MC 07.31.2014 5w6d
DX: RPL due to submucosal uterine fibroid. Hysteroscopy 12/16. All clear!
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W born September 2020
#3 due November 2022
IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
S/PAIFW , S/PALW
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08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
Married: 9/25/10
TTC # 1 since 5/2013
BFP # 1: 2/7/14, mmc 3/12/14, D&C 3/19/14
Boy, Trisomy 13, Karyotyping and Genetic Testing all normal
Hysteroscopy and D&C 6/2/14, retained tissue
Off the bench 7/14
BFP # 2: 10/3/14, Blighted ovum, D&C 11/12/14
Girl, no chromosomal abnormalities detected
RPL Testing: Pre-diabetic, ANA+
"I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) I am never without it." - e.e. cummings
~TTC #1 Since 3/2014
~BFP #1 6/2014 EDD 2/11/15
~MMC 7/31/14 @12weeks ~D&C /2/2014
PgAL welcome
Married 6/11/2011
Me & Hubby: 34
TTC journey started 12/2012
BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks
BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)
Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.
Also have hypothyroidism
Started TTC again 12/2013
IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN
IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN
Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498
My Ovulation Chart
Diagnosed with Lyme Disease June 2010 Diagnosed with PCOS March 2011 Diagnosed with Celiac Disease January 2013
BFP #1: August 25th 2013 EDD May 4th 2014 SCH MC October 3rd 2013
BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014
Naked push-up foreplay pioneer
IUI#3 brought us our dragon baby Z
TTCAL January 2015 Siggy Challenge: Animal Snow Interactions
DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
DH: 34
MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012
IVF w/ICSI #1
10 little polar bears
FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
Beta 1= 276
Beta 2= 662
4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
5/3/14 ~ D&C
FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
Animals Interacting with Snow
BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011
BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident
BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown
To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.
Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
I repeat this like a broken record but the best advice I've been given about grief is that I'm allowed to be inconsistent.
Meaning, if I'm having "good" days for awhile but then break down and fall apart, it's ok. It doesn't take away from the healing I've been doing
I have 2 friends that are now pregnant for the 3rd time together(one is pregnant with her 4th&5th). Needless to say, I've been through pregnancy announcements repeatedly with them but still lost my shit for an hour or two when I found out
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
Me: 31 DH: 36
Dated Since ‘02, Married in ‘06
BFP#1 05/16/06, EDD01/16/07, MC 06/12/06 at 8 weeks
BFP #2 08/14/14, EDD 04/22/15, MC 09/17/14 at 9 weeks
My Chart
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
My chart here All ALers welcome!
Me: 32 DH: 32
BFP #1: 4/1/2010 DS born: 12/3/10
TTC #2 since 5/2014
BFP # 2 : 6/16/14 EDD: 2/25/15 Missed Miscarriage discovered 7/10/14 D&C 7/17/14 Pathology results normal
BFP #3: 10/21/14 EDD: 7/6/15 11/24/14: Saw heartbeat!
TTCAL January 2015 Siggy Challenge: Animals in the snow
Scumbag Penguin
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm