Well. This is the last place I expected to find myself. But here I am. We got a very unexpected Xmas surprise. The kicker is, I was trying to get back on bcp because my pregnancy/delivery/recovery with my daughter was so unbelievably painful and difficult I knew I just couldn't go through it again...well ins denied my rx and I had to wait until after Xmas to sort it all out with my dr. Ha. Wouldn't have mattered anyway because it was too late.
So I freaked out, completely panicked, told my husband who did not take it well, and now I am trying to jump to acceptance so I can spare my body all the stress. Given my history it may not even be a viable pregnancy but it definitely feels like one. I'm going to try to call my drs office tomorrow, hopefully they are open, and get in ASAP so she can take betas etc. It's way too early for an ultrasound so it will be a couple weeks before I really know anything.
When I decided to go back on bcp I was very sad that I wouldn't be giving my daughter a sibling. But I knew I was making the right decision. I am terrified that I will get horribly sick again and I don't know how I will take care of my daughter. I'm also terrified of having a new baby and a toddler. My fears are squashing any excitement I would otherwise be feeling.
Anyway, I have familiar faces on here (yay for your success!) and hello to the rest of you I haven't "met."
I guess we'll see what happens. I know every pregnancy is different so if this one sticks I am crossing my fingers hoping that this time I can have an easier go of it. If the universe is listening, it's just a small favor really. Pretty please.
I do think my daughter would make an awesome big sister. So let's hope for the best.
Me:41, DH:41 Positive for MTHFR mutations- one copy C677T, one copy A1298C. One daughter born on Thanksgiving in 2013. Six losses.
Re: Reintro
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
Welcome back and congrats! Hoping your pregnancy goes smoother this time around. I'm sure things will settle in soon. Good luck!
Me 36 DH 39
BFP 11/28/14 ~ MMC 12/29/14
TTCAL Siggy Challenge
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
**siggy warning**
Current Age 35, DH 33
Married 9/2011
BFP 8/2012, Miscarried 9/2012
BFP 9/2012, DS 6/2013
BFP 6/2014, Miscarried 7/2014
BFP 7/2014, DD 4/2015
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
"It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness." - Eleanor Roosevelt
"It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness." - Eleanor Roosevelt
I hear you!!! My h is hardly home and I have no help whatsoever. Plus I have an extremely active one year old who always wants to go go go. This is one tired mama! I really hope she will hold on to two naps awhile so I have a chance to lay down myself when this gets really hard.
I hope this will be your month too, sending you good vibes!!